chapter 58

Liliana's pov :"You don't even know how much I love you, I can't afford to lose you, Lia! Please, forgive me! Slap me, punch me, or kill me but don't leave me alone like this! You are my everything, when you said I LOVE YOU to him, my heart wanted it to be a lie and when you declared that you love him so much, I felt broken and my heart was sinking," he loosened the grip on my wrists and removed his hand from my mouth.The way he reacted that time, I hated him, I seriously hated him. All my feelings and love for him vanished from my heart, I never thought that he would accuse me of cheating on him.Â"Why are you not saying something? Please, say something, baby!"Â"Don't baby me! Why am I not speaking?" My eyebrows raised in fury, "you just care about yourself, Jay! You are selfish, you are not the only one who was hurt, everyone has their battles with life and relationships but nobody behaves like you."He still looked into my eyes with those mesmerising and hypnotising deep blue eyes, he didn't utter anything though."I fought with Justin and my mother for you, and what did you do?" I shook my head while collecting my emotions in the words. "Look, Jay! Every relationship needs trust, you don't even trust me. Did you even think before saying those filthy words to me? You said that I cheated on you. I felt like we were strangers and didn't know each other at all."He complained, "but you didn't make it clear that he was Ben, your brother! And I haven't seen him before, I didn't even know that he is gonna come to meet you. If you would have said that he is your brother then the misunderstanding wouldn't have taken place between us."I couldn't believe that the guy who was standing in front of me was Jay. I couldn't handle this anymore."Why do I have to give you an explanation if you trust me? You didn't just distrust me, you accused me, Jay! And I hated to listen to that, you didn't ask me who it was or you didn't even show some faith in me. You started assuming everything and your imagination didn't let you believe me!""Lia, I'm sorry! I apologise to you for being mad at you, it's my mistake that I lost my temper and blamed you for cheating on me.""Don't take me for granted, Jay! If there is doubt in your heart for me, there is no place for love. And I, I LOVE YOU more than I could imagine that I would love someone that badly. And I'm hating myself for loving you." I never wanted to confess my love like that but it just came out without my consent.ÂHe just pulled me in a hug and hid his face on my shoulder, his heavy breathing made my skin shiver. My anger was melting in his embrace. For a moment, I forgot everything and wrapped my arms around his waist.I closed my eyes and tightened my grip on his waist. Losing him would be on my never-to-do list. In the past five months, I had lived my best life with him and I couldn't imagine a life without him. He had become a drug to my life, I can't resist loving him.I knew it wasn't his fault completely because after feeling betrayed, he searched for me only. He wanted to celebrate my birthday even though his heart was feeling hoodwinked by his friends.His love wasn't hidden from me but the way he behaved in front of Ben made me pissed off. I couldn't tell him the truth that he was my brother, not a lover. He came to the town after two years just for my birthday and that was a surprise for me.ÂI didn't know how Fiona and Barbie helped him to surprise me but I loved to see him after two years and that too, on my birthday. Everyone made me feel special and happy, everything was going so smoothly and I was delighted to get so many surprises on my birthday but maybe my damn luck didn't like my happiness.So in the end, he spoiled everything by himself. Hiding something from Jay was not a good idea, we planned to reunite them but the plan miserably failed.I shouldn't be mad at him. If I would have been in his place, I would have reacted way worse than him. Expecting something from him that I couldn't do was not a good thing, how could I expect him to have patience while I was the one who had less patience than everyone else?Instead of boosting and comforting him, I showered down my anger on him.My shoulder felt wet, was he crying? Seriously?Â"Jay!" I started fondling his hair. "I'm sorry, Jay! I shouldn't have blamed you, I planned to reunite you guys but...but it just...uh, it failed."I was feeling so guilty for behaving like a mean girlfriend, he was wrong but I couldn't blame him. The situation wasn't right for us, instead of supporting him and being a good understanding girl, I was expecting too much from him.He didn't move and I felt that perhaps he was trying to relax, it wasn't something strange to me because he was crazily in love with me, my just one smile does magic for him.After knowing him and his love, I shouldn't have reacted that way."Jay, I'm sorry! I shouldn't…"He put his finger on my lips and said nothing.ÂHe surely was trying to loosen up so I let him hug me and didn't interrupt him.The fragrance of his cologne soothed my overthinking mind, I sniffed it silently and smiled pleasantly.For a while, we just stood in that position.Â"I'm sorry, Lia! I spoiled your day, I couldn't make it a great day to remember for a lifetime," he slowly moved away from my shoulder and mumbled in my ear.I held her arms and moved them away from my shoulders and made him look into my eyes, "you gave me wonderful surprises, baby. I loved them and I'm grateful to you for fulfilling my crazy wishlist. When I was telling you about my childhood wishes, I had no idea that you would persevere with my silly desires."He smiled and then pressed his lips, "I wanted to make it the best day of your life. I wanted to give you the best memories, not even a single bad moment yet you'll remember my harsh words, too whenever you will think about the memories of your birthday," he lowered his gaze.I knew what I needed to do when he wasn't ready to overcome his guilt, I was also feeling sinful for making him feel guilty.ÂMy hands found their way to his face and gently held his face between my palms, I pressed my lips against his and started kissing him slowly.ÂMy eyebrows raised in disquiet when he didn't kiss me back but my lips were doing their endeavour. I tried to deepen the kiss, I started cupping his face and neck but still, he didn't kiss me back.I slowly opened my eyes and stopped kissing him, "don't you love me anymore?"ÂHey, lovely readers!How are you doing?How was the chapter?Please, let me know in the comments!I know there is tension between them but guys, remember one thing that nothing lasts forever. NOTHING!😅Anyways, I would love to read your comments!😠To be honest, I love you guys a lot! And you guys are my only reason to be​ on Pratilipi! So keep showering your love on me!â¤Our love is going to have 3k reads soonðŸ˜​ , so keep sharing, reading,​supporting, and loving! Also, I would like to dedicate the awards that the book is daily getting to my lovely readers!â¤​Thank you for having me here!Your crazy author,Jasmine