CHAPTER SIXTEEN

TREVOR'S P.O.V

It has been two days since Dylan stopped talking to me and avoids me like I am a plague. I know what I want right now is so risky and dangerous but for sure I don't really care as long as my family is safe. But also I don't want to risk the life of the pack members cause they will be the ones whom I will be hunting the most cause they won't see it coming.

I don't know if am being reasonable or just being selfish at it, but if am correct am doing this for the pack, family, and even mate. The pack can not afford a serial killer for a Luna/ alpha.

I miss my mate so much and I just wish he could understand me just even for a little bit. I know losing me will be the worst thing that will ever happen to him but all I need is a little courage from him even though he fakes it.

Well, he is always there during the night to make sure I don't sleepwalk ( As if I sleep) but he disappears during the morning. At least he is still keeping his promise despite our argument.

I am currently walking to the Alpha's house looking for Damien. Still, our relationship is not as close as the rest of my brothers and Ty but he is wiser maybe he could tell me something that will make me move on with the idea or just abandon the idea. He has been an Alpha for so long that I think maybe he can reason out for me if am being stupid or brave.

Reaching the house its so quiet indicating no one is home, looking around to see any sign of anyone am being met by Mason, Maxine's papa, and Ben's husband( Head Warrior).

" Trevor ", He greets coming closer to where I am standing.

" Hey, Mason". I say giving out my hand for a handshake.

" I heard what happened between you two. How are you holding up?"

And now everyone knows, great.

" Not so great but am hanging in there".

" Don't worry everything will be just fine, give him some time". He says as he enters the house.

Time is something that I don't have.

"I hope so". I say following him inside.

" No, believe me, I know. It is only your first fight so don't worry too much".

" Speaking from experience?" I say halting which he does the same.

" Yeah well, there is no perfect relationship without a fight. There will be more and more but always coming back and mend things up and that is the spirit of love. Cause you won't know what you're missing until you fight in order to know what's there to hold onto and what to let go so your love can get stronger".

" Well, I hope one of us let go so we can mend things up". I say taking another step deeper inside.

" Patience my friend. Patience", He starts walking to the direction of Damien's office. " So what brings you here today?"

" Well am looking for Damien". I say taking a seat on the couch.

" He is with Ben in the packhouse, dealing with some things. I just came here to get some files and head over there. I could deliver the message for you". He says coming out of the office holding a bundle of files.

" How about I help you carry some of those files and go there together". I say standing up and take some of the files from his hands.

" I will be grateful thanks".

Having a different conversation as we walk to the packhouse. Well, Mason is a lot different from Ben. He is funny, happy all the time, warm to people and even easy to get along with unlike Ben, serious, sometimes he appears to be cold to people and he is definitely not easy to get along with at which I sometimes wonder how he became friends with Damien.

Walking inside the office at the packhouse, I find Damien and Ben are buried with paper works on their desks busy signing and throwing some of them on the floor.

" Look who I found", Mason says getting inside the office leaving me standing at the threshold.

" Trevor?" Damien asks or more surprised.

" I found him outside your house looking for you". Mason says taking the files that I am holding and place them onto his desk.

" Hey", I say awkwardly as I have never been into this office or at their presence by myself. So I am not used to being around them at all.

" Hey", Damien and Ben greet at the same time.

Then follows the awkward silence.

So I decide to break the silence, " It looks like you guys are too busy, maybe I will come back later".

" No we are not", Damien says almost immediately. " Just some paper works nothing too serious".

" Ooh..okay", I trail looking at their full filed tables, " I just wanted to talk to you about something".

" Yeah sure. It is almost lunch anyways we could go to eat together". Damien says standing up.

I wave my hand to Mason and Ben and off we go to the packhouse dining room. Silently.

" So how are you?" Damien starts.

" Good?" It came out more of a question than a statement.

" So he is still mad at you?" Damien asks as he takes a seat on one of the chairs.

" Yes", I say taking a seat opposite him.

" He will come around", He says.

After a moment of silence.

" Do you think am making a mistake?" I ask.

" No and yes", He pauses. " It is a mistake to go into the hunter's land all marked by wolf you might jeopardize us and you might get killed. Also, it is okay if you want to learn more about yourself it is not a crime as none of us knows anything about hunters".

" Dylan doesn't think that way". I respond.

" Well he has never lost a mate before and I have, so I do know what that feels like. Believe me its not the thing that he wants in fact, it's a thing that nobody wants. Cause the pain is real and so bad that if a person is not strong enough they die or go insane. So I know what is going on his mind right now, he is worried and afraid to lose you and then himself because that kind of grieve it is so hard to pass over it".

I stay quite taking in everything he just said. Am I willing to risk my life so my mate could go insane and possibly die because of my recklessness and selfishness? Is this the reason why he has been avoiding me so much? Is he trying to get over me slowly? Maybe I could break the bond and make it much easier.

" Which pain is more excruciating between bond break by death or just normal break?"

He looks at me with confusion written all over his face. " By death. Why?"

" What if I break the bond first?"

" You mean reject him?"

" No. I mean break and not reject him".

"It is the same thing, you have to reject him for the bond to break".

" Okay...okay....will it work?"

" Absolutely not", Damien growls standing up. " You will never do such a thing to my brother".

" But-"

" No, But", He growls again much louder this time. " Do you know what kind of pain you will put him through? Do you know what kind of pain will you be in? Don't even think for a second I will let you do that".

Looking around everyone's attention is on us listening in as their alpha growls at their future Luna/Alpha which makes me feel more stupid and embarrassed. So I just stand up and decide to walk out of the packhouse without altering another word.

Now I just angered the Alpha and my mate, what am I suppose to do now, cause I can not come with a solution that will not hurt anyone's feelings on the way. I think am going crazy, I really need my mate right about now and I have no idea where he is.

Walking around the town without a specific destination just keeping everything in my head, exhausted for not getting enough sleep and heartbreaking cause Dylan won't talk to me or even understand me for what I want.

What am I suppose to do?

After walking for hours I find myself at the park, thankfully it is in the middle of the week so there are just a few people around. I sit on one of the benches very far from everyone else. Looking around I spot two people coming towards me.

" Hey", Avery greets as he was closer to me.

" Hey", I say it back.

" You look awful",  Jordan says taking a seat next to me.

" You have no idea". I sigh still looking around.

Then silent no one says anything just sitting there, but gladly it was a peaceful silence.

" So we usually have this thing that if you want to know how a person feels at the moment, we usually listen to their heartbeats, so you could know what he is feeling.", Avery starts.

I just Look at him for him to continue.

" Just now I have been listening to your heartbeat, but man I can't even know what your feeling right now. So I will just ask, what are you feeling right now?"

Anger, Guilty, Pain, Unlucky, Stupidity, and most of all HEARTBROKEN.

I wish I could shout or scream all those words at him but I couldn't cause I don't know-how.

One tear slips.

Then the second slips.

Follows another.

And I couldn't keep in anymore...I need to let it out.

So I let it out.

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A/N

Heartbreaking.

Till next time.

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