Ch. 128 What Should I Believe (1)
Without warning, the door to the food warehouse abruptly opened, leaving them no time to hide.
Louiseâs eyes widened as she whirled towards the door. Then she despaired. The caretaker was there, standing at the opening.
Oh my god. Did she have to write more statements? Would she be falsely accused of stealing from the warehouse?
âWait, no, itâs not false at all. I actually ate the food here. Iâm a thief.â
Louiseâs tongue was numb as the caretaker approached them.
âHave you tried it? What do you think?â
Then, shockingly, she asked for feedback.
âItâs great. Would you like me to help you carry it tomorrow afternoon?â
Ian answered her smoothly, and Louiseâs head pivoted back and forth between the two. The caretaker was visibly relieved when what came out of Ianâs mouth were words of praise.
Oh, Louise understood now. She and Ian werenât stealing. They were here to sample the pudding at the caretakerâs request.
âItâs just the right amount of sweetness! The texture is great as well.â
Louise hurriedly added her opinion as if she were here for the pudding tasting all along.
âReally?â
Louise felt a little guilty at the caretakerâs apparent delight. If Louise had known beforehand, she would have savored and slowly rolled the pudding around in her mouth, rather than swallowing it in huge gulps.
The caretaker gave them more pudding anyway, and when Ian complimented her on the delicious autumn apples, she also gifted him three of them. Ian was indeed a man of resourceful living.
After parting with the caretaker and leaving the warehouse, Ian and Louise strolled along the dark path together, each with a basket in arm.
âWhy didnât you tell me from the beginning?â
âThat we had permission to taste it?â
âYes, I was really surprised. I thought I had to write a whole new statement.â
âYouâre kidding.â
He let out a laugh, the corners of his eyes crinkling. This probably meant even if they werenât given permission, Louise still wouldnât have to write a new statement.
âYou would have been too self-conscious if you knew that caretaker asked.â
âIâ!â
âThen you wouldnât have felt better.â
âBut I wouldnât have lied.â
âWhen the caretaker asked you about the taste a little while ago, you should have answered, âIt made me feel better after eating it.â She would probably have happier than you simply saying it was delicious.â
âBut that isnât an objective review at all.â
âIâd be much happier if someone told me that. Good food isnât just about what you taste on your tongue.â
The pair finally arrived in the kitchen to wash the glass cups they had emptied.
âSit there, eat an apple, and wait. Iâll be done in a minute.â
Ian lit a few lamps and pointed towards a stool. Louis wasnât in the mood for an apple, so she simply sat down. Soon she heard the sound of water on the cups, and then Ian spoke.
âYou like fairy tales.â
âWhat?â
âIs it because of the memory of living in a fairy tale? Doâ¦do you miss that place?â
Oh my goodness. When Louise used the term âmagic orbâ to describe a screen, he must have thought Louise had memories from a fairy tale.
âIt wasnât a fairy tale world. Well, andâ¦â
Louise thought of the faint, gray fragments that were her memories and shook her head.
â â¦I donât miss it.â
âI miss it a little.â
âWhat?â
âI mean, what you said when you dreamed of being ordinary.â
He took out a dry cloth and began to dry the dishes.
âIt wasnât so good.â
âThatâs why I wanted to meet you.â
âWhat?â
âHmmâ¦â
He peered at the surface of the glass to make sure there were no prints.
âThere was a time when I longed to be normal too.â
At birth, his life was already burdened with the benefits and obligations of his status. Many envied his birth. However, the weight of his existence also contained danger as well. It could crush him, and he would be gone.
âBut I had you. â
He arranged the clear glass on top of the high cupboard.
âFor the you who wished to be ordinaryâ¦I wish I could have been there for you.â
He turned around, shaking the excess water from his hands. His silver hair glimmered in the lamplight. Louise looked at his awkward smile and answered carefully.
âYou were there.â
âHmm?â
âYou were with me then.â
âBeyond the orb? Is it that powerful?â
âIâ¦â
She struggled to explain it. A story was only a list of words, and without understanding the readerâs feelings, the story simply told its words step-by-step. But as Louise followed the story, she found herself sharing her feelings with those words. It made her sad, or it comforted her, and it even made her hate.
âI enjoyed them. The stories you can see in the orb.â
As Ian approached her, he looked into Louiseâs face for a moment and looked strangely dissatisfied.
âWas it that good?â
Louis nodded her head, and Ian pinched Louiseâs cheek with one hand. His fingertips felt chilled from the water.
âWho the hell was that personâ¦â
He grumbled moodily.
âYouâre still thinking about that?â
âWhy not? You are my fiancée. Iâve just learned that thereâs another man you like.â
âPresident. Perhapsââ
Louise enveloped his cold hand with hers.
ââare you jealous? â
âI am not.â
There was not a shade of truth in his answer.
âIâm just trying to keep track of your taste and all that.â
He was full of excuses as well.
President, donât underestimate the reader who had the time to complete the novel. Youâre jealous.
Louise smiled meaningfully.
âBut what I saw in the orb is very different now.â
âVery different?â
âYes.â
âSometimes I noticed that youâre very cautious in what youâre about to say.â
Ian recalled the many strange reactions and behaviors he had seen over time.
âRight.â
âSometimes I think you believe more than whatâs already in front of you.â
ââ¦â
Louise didnât answer. There was no room to protest against what he said.
âLook, Louise Sweeney. You are here now.â