The bar we pull up to an hour later is like a thousand others. It looks more like a shack than an actual place of business, but the dozen or so cars parked in the parking lot and the music blasting from the open windows says it isnât going to close anytime soon. Alcohol is one of those things that will never go out of favor. There will always be someone steeped in misery and in need of something to drown their sorrows.
Before I open the truck door, Gracin puts a hand on my arm and says, âWait for a second, we should talk before we go in.â
I flash him a wobbly smile. âI think weâve talked enough for now.â
He shakes his head. âI mean about what we do when we get in there.â
Oh. That makes sense, so I nod and wait for Gracin to fill me in on the plan.
âIf weâre lucky, none of Dannyâs friends will recognize us.â
âAnd if weâre not?â
I should be terrified by the prospect, but I canât deny the buzz of anticipation just beneath my skin. I donât know if Iâm excited about the idea of revenge, thrilled to be outside and doing something about what happened to me, or if Iâm just high on the intensity thatâs rolling off Gracin in waves. It doesnât matter. Iâm itching to get in there.
He doesnât answer my question, but he doesnât have to, the gun he stuffs in a holster underneath his shirt says enough. He hands me another, and I hide it at my waistband.
âJust listen to what I tell you to do, and weâll be fine.â I nod again, and he continues. âThey wonât know who I am here, so Iâm going to join the card game, and youâre going to sit where I tell you and be quiet until I speak to you, okay?â
I make a zipper motion over my lips. âWhatever you say.â
He considers me for a second. âWhy canât you be like this all the time?â
âWhat fun would that be?â I say and then open my door and hop out.
âIâm starting to think this was a bad idea,â he says as we walk to the front door.
The sign over the porch says simply, Rayâs, and the interior is as unassuming as the exterior. Since the only light in the place is coming from the backsplash behind the counter and a few ancient-looking fixtures above that must be on a dimmer, the inside is as dark as the inside of a cave. The smell isnât much better. Dirt, dust, man, and sweat assault my nose, making me have to work hard to keep from wrinkling it in revulsion. Peanut shells crunch underfoot as we cross the room to the bar where two lone men sit sipping their respective drinks. Music plays on low from an old-fashioned jukebox tucked in the corner.
A woman in a skimpy tank top with skin in desperate need of moisturizer sidles up to us and plops down a rag. âWhat can I getcha?â she asks around the cigarette clutched between her lips.
âBeer, whatever you have on tap, for me,â Gracin replies.
âThe same for me,â I say, pleased to find my voice is steady despite my nerves.
Gracin slides a couple crumpled dollar bills across the counter as she slams two chilled glasses down in front of us. I take a sip to keep my hands busy and twist in my swiveling chair to study the rest of the bar. Gracin keeps his back to a corner as he does the same.
There arenât many patrons this time of day, and those who are here seem to be solely focused on drinking as much alcohol as possible. I donât see anyone who looks like they would be involved with Danny, but what do I know?
Gracin leans forward and grabs ahold of my chair. It screeches against the scuffed tile floor as he pulls it over to him, so close that I can feel the heat coming from him.
I lift my brow in question, and he leans down and says, âPlay along,â in my ear, causing me to shiver then his lips brush against my skin.
His arm goes to the back of my chair, and he props one foot up on the rung underneath. I take a few deep swallows from my beer before leaning against him and glancing up. Iâm so close to him that I can see his eyes have flecks of gold in them. His eyes find mine, and before I can react, he leans down to kiss me.
This time, I donât fight him. I donât know if itâs the beer, though I only had a few sips, the conversation, or his closeness. The only thing I do know is it isnât a game. Every touch and taste is one hundred percent real.
His hand comes to my hair as he deepens the kiss and angles my head up to take everything he has to give me. My hands come up to grip his shirt, and I whimper against his mouth.
âThey just walked in,â he says against my lips. âDonât look, and laugh when I tell you to.â
He doesnât give me a chance to respond because his fingers tighten in my hair the same way they did that night in my hallway. Iâm so lost in the lust of the memory that I almost miss him whisper, âNow,â before he pulls away.
Feeling a little drugged, I laugh over the rim of my beer and down the rest to cool the heat rising within me. I wave at the bartender and use the opportunity to look around.
It would be hard not to spot them right away as loud as theyâre being. There are three of them who saunter across the bar to the pool tables. Theyâre dressed way too nice to be regular patrons, but the way the othersâ eyes slither over them like they arenât even there makes me think theyâve been here before and theyâre trouble.
Gracin toys with my hair idly as he covertly watches the three of them rack the balls and cue up a table. If I werenât as tuned into him as I am, Iâd never suspect he isnât focused on me. I remember getting the same hyper-focused impression from him when I realized he wasnât after me just to get some ass. Itâs like the cogs in his brain are turning at triple speed.
I take another gulp of beer because he may be focused on the men across the bar, but Iâm not. Ever since I got another taste of him, my bodyâs been clamoring for more, and all I can think about is getting another. Heâs situated us so my chair is positioned in the V of his legs. One of his hands rests casually on the bar, and the other is on the back of my chair, twisting around the ends of my hair.
âI love this,â he says as he runs his fingers through the length of it.
âDo you?â I ask dryly. âI hadnât noticed.â
âHmm. The first time I saw you with it wrapped up I wanted to take it out and see it all around you. I couldnât stop thinking about it.â
âWhy?â My voice sounds hoarse to my ears.
He makes a noise in the back of his throat. âIâm not sure. Maybe because you seemed so uptight. I wanted to loosen you up a bit.â
âYou have a funny way of doing that.â
âWorked, didnât it?â
I consider my current state of affairs. My limbs are loose due to my second mug of beer, and my hair is spread out over my shoulders. Even after all thatâs happened, Iâm out of Michigan and free, so to speak, of the relationship that was slowly killing me.
âI didnât mean to kill him,â I say, and I realize itâs true.
âI donât think the world is any worse off having lost him,â Gracin says, his hand coming to rest on my neck underneath my hair.
âIs that why you say you arenât sorry for what happened?â
âPartially,â he replies. I wish he would look at me. âBut mostly because I canât be sorry that youâre alive. I never planned on being a father. Iâm not sure Iâd make a good one,â he says ruefully. âBut I do know I donât know what would happen to me if you hadnât made it that day.â
My throat closes, and I take another sip of beer to clear the emotion weighing there. Maybe the drunks at the counter are onto something. I feel better than I have in a long, long time. Or maybe itâs the comforting feeling of Gracinâs hands now whispering along my back.
âItâs time,â he says and gets to his feet. He holds out a hand for me, and I take it without hesitation.
The three men are finishing their game of pool when Gracin pulls up beside them. I donât have to act drunk because after two beers on a semi-empty stomach and having a low alcohol tolerance to boot, Iâm buzzed.
ââSup?â one of the men says. His brows are pinched and wary as he crosses his arms over his chest, his discomfort with Gracinâs commanding appearance apparent.
Gracin jerks his chin. âWhatâs the buy-in for tonightâs game?â He starts digging in his pockets.
The one who must be the little ringleader says, âPrivate game, sorry.â
The first oneâs eyes bulge out of his head when Gracin extracts a rather large wad of money from his pocket.
âYouâre sure?â he asks with a cheeky grin at me. âMy lady and I are looking to have some fun tonight. Sheâs never been to a poker game before.â
The two guys look to their leader, who favors Danny enough in the color of his skin and bone structure that it makes me think they are distantly related. This one has about thirty pounds on Danny and a rounder face, but the eyes are the same. Iâd never forget those eyes.
Gracin wraps an arm around my shoulder and presses his lips to my hair to whisper, âStay calm, little mouse. Donât worry, Iâll take care of it.â
I could end it here. Reach for Gracinâs gun and put bullets in the three of them. Killing Dannyâs relative would send a hell of a message, and I like to think Iâm getting pretty good at being just as ruthless as the man beside me. But sending a message like that may cause Danny and Sal to go further to ground, so I relax and send him a sunny smile.
Breaking from his grasp, I brace my hands on the pool table to accentuate my cleavage and bat my eyes at them.
âSo, whatâs it gonna be, guys? Are we gonna have some fun tonight or what?â