âWe need to tell her.â
Katyaâs eyes widen at the words I just spoke, disbelief flashing across her face as she closes the book and sets it on her lap.
I hold her gaze, unyielding, as if to remind her that this isnât up for debate. Weâve had this argument before, and I made myself perfectly clear: Sofiya needs to know who her father is. I wonât be robbed of this time with my daughter. Not by Katya, not by circumstance, not by anything.
Sheâs mine.
Theyâre both mine.
Sofiya and Damien are my family. The only good left in this ruthless, blood-soaked world Iâve carved out for myself. And Katya? Sheâll have to figure out where she fits in. She can stand with us, or she can remain on the outside, glaring at me with that stubborn defiance that only fuels the fire between us.
I reach over and adjust the covers, tucking Sofiya in tighter. Katyaâs sharp green eyes track my every move. I ignore her, focusing instead on Sofiya.
Her little face is blank, her glassy blue eyes wandering between me and Katya as if sheâs trying to solve a puzzle too big for her small mind. No smile, no frownâjust silence. It guts me.
Damien is the opposite. He crawls out from under the covers, his tiny hand landing on my thigh. Heâs eager for my attention, unafraid to take it. I brush my hand through his soft hair, pride swelling in my chest at his unflinching love for me.
But Katyaâs still watching me, simmering.
âIâm aware Iâll need your help to tell her,â I say, my voice low and firm. I let my words sink in, holding her gaze until I see the flash of irritation in her eyes. âDonât mess this up for me, Katya. I will know if you lie to her.â
Her fingers drum against the book in her lap, sharp and deliberate. âThis isnât the time,â she snaps, her tone clipped and sharp enough to cut.
A low snicker rises from my throat before I can stop it. Something about those wordsâthe defiance, the sheer nerveâmakes something snap inside me. Iâve heard plenty of excuses and empty protests in my life, and while this one doesnât technically fall into either category, it grates on me all the same.
I glance down at Damien, who is still fidgeting with his shirt. His innocence grounds me, softening the edge of my temper. Gently, I pinch his cheek. âHow do you like having Sofiya around?â
âSheâs fun,â Damien says immediately, his little face lighting up. âBut she doesnât talk a lot.â He looks at Sofiya with a shy grin. âBut thatâs okay because she likes the same games I do.â
He pulls out a coloring sheet from the nightstand drawer, showing it to me with a proud smile. I glance at Katya, catching the slight nod she gives him. Sofiya, though, remains quiet, her piercing gaze locked onto me, studying my every move. Itâs unnerving how much of her mother I see in herâsilent, calculating, defiant in her little girl kind of way.
âGood boy,â I say, ruffling Damienâs hair before turning my attention back to Katya. âItâs time. Tell her.â
Her eyes narrow, and the disbelief mingling with fury is impossible to miss. Sheâs furious, yes, but sheâs also processing the bomb Iâve just dropped. She starts slowly, her voice soft, her hands moving in sign language as she locks her attention on Sofiya.
âSofiya, sweetie,â Katya signs and speaks, her tone warm and full of affection, âyou know I love you, right?â
Sofiyaâs face softens immediately, her small hands reaching out to wrap around Katyaâs neck in a hug. A tiny smile breaks across her lips, and for a moment, it feels like the world stops spinning. The love Sofiya has for her mother is so pure, so unconditional, it almost hurts to watch.
Katya chuckles softly, kissing the top of Sofiyaâs head before pulling back a bit.
âGet on with it,â I murmur, careful to keep my voice low. The last thing I want is to startle Damien, whoâs watching us intently.
Katya meets my gaze briefly, her irritation flickering like a spark before she turns back to Sofiya.
âThis man,â she continues, pointing to me, âis your papa.â
The words land like a stone in the quiet room.
I watch Sofiya carefully, waiting for her to process what sheâs just been told. Her blue eyes widen, darting from Katya to me, and back again. Her hands start to tremble slightly, her little body frozen as the realization begins to sink in.
Damien, however, reacts immediately. âSo youâre not my papa anymore?â he asks, his small voice trembling with a mix of confusion and sadness.
I shift my focus to him, gently cupping his face in my hands. âIâm your papa, and I always will be,â I tell him, pressing a soft kiss to his forehead. âBut Iâm also Sofiyaâs papa. I hope youâre happy to have a baby sister.â
His wide, sad eyes search mine for a moment before his face brightens. âYes!â he exclaims, throwing his little arms around my neck.
I chuckle, ruffling his hair as relief floods through me. âGood boy,â I murmur, kissing the top of his head before glancing at Sofiya. âNow letâs see what your sister has to say to this.â
But Sofiyaâs reaction is⦠different.
Her hands fly into motion, signing so fast it takes a moment for me to register the sharpness of her movements. Her little face twists in confusion, her gestures frantic and almost angry. Itâs like watching a storm build inside her, the weight of her emotions too much for her small body to contain.
âWhat is she saying?â I ask, my voice clipped as I turn to Katya.
Katya reaches out, gently holding Sofiyaâs trembling hands. âCalm down, honey,â she says softly, signing the words as she speaks them aloud. âYour hands are shaking. Heâs not going to take you away.â
I let out a low breath, my patience fraying as Katyaâs words do little to ease Sofiyaâs turmoil.
âWhat is she saying?â I repeat, my tone sharper this time.
Katya finally meets my gaze, her lips pressing into a thin line. âSheâs not happy,â she says bluntly. âShe asked if Aleks could be her papa instead.â
The words slam into me like a fist to the gut.
âYouâre lying,â I growl, my voice low and venomous.
âIâm not,â Katya says, lifting her chin in defiance. âSheâs five, Igor. She doesnât know how to process this. I told you we should give her time to adjust.â
Her defiance only fuels my frustration, but I force myself to remain composed. I glance at Sofiya, whoâs now clutching Katyaâs hand while reaching for Damienâs with the other. Her small frame seems to shrink, and the sight of itâof her withdrawing from meâleaves something hollow and heavy in my chest.
âThis isnât over,â I say through gritted teeth.
I rise from the bed, my movements stiff as I turn and leave the room. The door slams shut behind me, rattling the walls.
My daughter doesnât know it yet, but she needs me.
And so does Katya, whether sheâs ready to admit it or not.
âOh, hey,â Aleks says, his tone awkward as we nearly collide in the hallway. He looks at me, clearly unsure how to gauge my mood.
âNot now,â I snap, brushing past him. My fists clench at my sides, but I donât look at him. Instead, I force myself to focus, to redirect the anger brewing inside me. âWhat are we going to do about Montoya? Do you have a plan to fix this mess? Because apart from kicking Mikhailâs ass, Iâve got nothing.â
Aleksâs expression sharpens instantly. Heâs good at thisâshifting from casual to businesslike in the blink of an eye. He knows exactly whatâs at stake, exactly what needs to be done. Because the truth is, the weight of this situation falls squarely on us, and without a doubt, one of the first tasks waiting for him will be tracking down the missing shipment.
Montoyaâs threats are not a joke. The Colombians donât bluff. Everyone knows their reputation is carved in blood, and the fact that the shipment disappeared under our watch doesnât just make us look incompetentâit makes us look weak. And weakness? Thatâs something theyâll exploit without hesitation.
Youâd think a decade of working together would count for something, that theyâd give us the benefit of the doubt. But thatâs not how the Colombians work. If anything, theyâre stricter with their so-called allies. Itâs not enough to pay them off; theyâll want revenge. The thief, whoever they are, is already as good as deadâthey just donât know it yet. But if we donât find them fast, weâll be the ones to take their place in Montoyaâs crosshairs.
âYes,â Aleks finally says, his tone clipped. âIâve got a plan. But firstâ¦â He hesitates, his gaze flicking to mine. âIs everything okay with Katya and the kids?â
My lips press into a hard line. I donât answer. I wouldnât even know where to begin if I tried. What am I supposed to say? That Iâm a stranger to my daughter? That the sight of Sofiya reaching for Katyaâor worse, for Aleksâmakes something inside me twist in a way I canât even put into words?
Even to my own ears, it would sound pathetic.
So I stay silent.
I look away, focusing on the anger churning in my gut instead of the ache pressing against my chest. This is bullshit. Sofiya shouldnât think Iâm a temporary fixture in her life. Iâm her father.
âWhatâs the plan?â I demand, cutting through the silence.
Aleks doesnât press for an answer. He knows me too well, knows when to back off and when to push. Instead, he nods and switches gears. âI made an appointment to meet with Boris Olenko. A lot of people pass through his strip clubs. If anyoneâs heard anything about the shipment, itâll be him.â
âItâs a good place to start,â I say, forcing myself to focus. âBut thereâs just one thing.â
Aleks tilts his head, his brows furrowing slightly. He runs through the steps in his head, trying to figure out what he might have missed. Itâs a habit of his, one that usually makes me roll my eyes, but right now, itâs the reason I trust him. He doesnât leave loose ends.
âWhat?â he finally asks.
âIâll be the one going,â I tell him, my voice firm. âNot you.â
Aleks raises a brow, his confusion obvious. âI thoughtâ ââ
âIâll stop by after Sofiyaâs doctorâs appointment,â I interrupt, cutting him off. âThatâs the priority right now. And Olenko? Heâs mine to worry about.â
Aleks studies me for a moment, and I can see the hesitation flickering behind his eyes. But to his credit, he doesnât argue.
âIf thatâs what you want,â he says slowly.
âYes, thatâs exactly what I want,â I reply, holding his gaze.
I give him a short nod before turning on my heel and heading straight for the sanctuary of my room.
By the time I reach the liquor cabinet, my anger is boiling over. I grab the nearest bottle, pouring a shot with shaky hands. My headâs a fucking mess, and this is the only thing that will take the edge off.
The first shot burns, sliding down my throat like fire. It doesnât help, so I pour another. And another.
But no matter how much I drink, the thoughts keep coming. The anger, the frustration, the emptiness. One sip does little to ease the tension spreading through my limbs, and by the time I down the third shot, the burning in my chest feels more like punishment than relief.
I slam the bottle on the counter, gripping the edge with both hands as I steady myself.
Alcohol might blur the edges of reality, but it never erases it. The truth always comes back, sharper and more painful than before.
I stare at the bottle for a long moment, my reflection warped and distorted in the glass. My mind drifts, the haze of the vodka giving way to memories Iâve tried to keep buried.
Six years ago.
Katya.
My volchitsa.
I close my eyes, letting it wash over me. I can see her standing in front of me, her green eyes blazing with defiance, her sharp tongue daring me to claim her. Sheâs never made anything easy for me, not then and not now. But thatâs part of what drew me to her in the first place.
She wasnât scared.
Not of the Bratva, not for her reputation, not of the violence.
And now she looks at me like Iâm a threat.
I grab the bottle again, pouring another shot.
This isnât over. Not with Katya. Not with Sofiya. Not with Montoya.
Tomorrow, Iâll deal with Olenko. Tomorrow, Iâll fix this mess.
I raise the glass to my lips, my mind racing even as the vodka dulls my senses.