After I was sick and the intense conversations with Gabriel, things seemed to have calmed down.
Itâs been a week since he gave me his permission to like him, but I havenât seen much of him.
Every day Nisa teaches me how to make something, and in the afternoons, I either sit and knit with Alya Hanim or we walk through the garden.
I no longer rush to clean the house as fast as possible but take my time with each room.
Standing in Gabrielâs room, I dust all the surfaces. When Iâm done, I pick up his laundry basket to take it downstairs. His woodsy aftershave wafts up from the basket. I take hold of the shirt at the top, and bringing it to my face, I take a deep breath.
He smells so good.
As if my imagination conjured him from thin air, he appears in the doorway, catching me red-handed sniffing his shirt.
Dear God, now you look like a stalker.
I shove the shirt back in the basket and walk to the door. Gabriel doesnât move out of the way, and my eyes dart to his face as I squeeze by him.
His fingers wrap around my arm, stopping me from making a quick escape.
âWait here.â He lets go of me and walks to his closet, pulling a dress shirt off a hanger. I watch as he squirts some of his aftershave onto the fabric, then he brings the shirt to me. Thereâs a hot as hell smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âAt least this one is clean.â
âAhâ¦â I take the shirt, bunching the fabric to my chest. âThank you.â
He leans his shoulder against the doorjamb and watches me as I walk down the hallway.
Iâm not sure what to make of the interaction, but I feel it was a good thing. Right?
Stopping by my room, I place the shirt on my bed, then drop the basket in the laundry room so I can do the washing first thing tomorrow morning.
I keep seeing Gabrielâs smile while I help Nisa prepare everything for dinner. As we carry the trays to the dining room, the thought hits â does Gabriel like me?
Iâm stumped.
He hasnât said anything like that. Heâs always talking about my emotions.
Frowning, I unload the dishes onto the table.
âWhy are you frowning?â Nisa asks.
I quickly shake my head. âNo reason.â We set the trays aside as Alya Hanim and Emre Bey come to take their seats.
âCome sit across from me, Lara,â Alya Hanim says.
Not questioning her, I pull the chair out. Itâs only when Gabriel walks into the dining room and sits at the head of the table, that I realize Iâm now seated next to him.
I give him a tentative smile, and wait for everyone to help themselves to food before I load some onto my plate.
âI found a new pattern we can knit,â Alya Hanim says. âBaby socks. Theyâre so adorable.â
Gabriel almost chokes on the bite he just took, and I quickly push his glass of water closer.
Once heâs taken a sip and clears his throat, I turn my attention to his grandmother, who has a wide smile on her face. âI canât wait to try knitting them.â
She gives me a curious look. âHave you ever thought about getting married?â
Huh?
âBabaanne,â Gabriel mutters, warning laced in the word.
Nisa sets her utensils down. âWhatâs going on that I donât know about?â
Emre lets out a chuckle.
This is weird.
âAhâ¦no,â I answer Alya Hanimâs question. My eyes dart around the table to try and figure out whatâs going on.
Nisa gives me a questioning look, and I shrug to show I have no idea.
For the rest of the meal, Alya Hanim talks about the changes she wants to make to the garden, and I forget about the fleeting weird tension.
After I help Nisa clean the kitchen, I finally get to retire to my room. I take a quick shower, and once Iâve dried off, I stand and stare at Gabrielâs shirt.
He gave it to me so I can do with it what I want.
I pull the fabric on and button it, then smile at my reflection in the mirror. I look silly, almost drowning in the shirt, but Iâm surrounded by his scent, so I donât care.
I roll up the sleeves as I walk back into the bedroom, and throwing the covers open, I crawl into bed. I let out a happy sigh because today was another good day.
With Gabrielâs woodsy aftershave hanging all around me, my thoughts turn to him. I switch off the bedside lamp, and once darkness falls in the room, I allow my feelings for him to surface.
Itâs becoming a habit to think of him until I fall asleep, one I like very much.
I think back to the swimming pool and how good he looked without a shirt. I remember the feel of his muscled skin and the strength in his body as he kept me afloat.
And that V running down from his hips.
When thereâs a knock at my door, Iâm ripped out of my thoughts. I sit up and switch the light on. âYes?â
Iâm surprised when Gabriel comes in and shuts the door behind him. When his eyes land on the shirt Iâm wearing, a smile tugs at the corner of his mouth.
âI wondered whether youâd sleep in my shirt.â He walks closer and sits down on the side of the bed. âI like it.â
I pat a hand over the fabric, glad heâs not upset that I chose to sleep in it.
For a moment, Gabriel stares at me, then he says, âI apologize for my grandmother. She saw us at the pool, and now her imagination is running away with her.â
âShe didnât do anything wrong.â
He turns his body toward me and gestures for me to come closer. Obeying, I move out from under the covers and kneel a couple of inches away from him.
âCloser,â he murmurs. I move until my knees press against the side of his thigh, then he smiles. âThatâs better.â His eyes drift over my face. âIâve been busy the past week, so I couldnât check in on you. How are you feeling?â
âAbout?â
âEverything.â
I shrug, just happy that I can have a conversation with him. âIâm fine.â
Gabriel tilts his head, his eyes sharpening on me. âHave you thought more about how you feel about me?â
I nod, then lower my eyes as I admit, âI still like you.â
âHow much?â
How do I explain that to him?
I take a deep breath as I try to gather my thoughts. âI think about you all the time.â Like ALL the time.
A pleased smile forms on his face. âWhat kind of thoughts?â
My cheeks flush, and I glance down at my hands. Gabriel takes hold of one and brushes his thumb over the back of mine. âYou can tell me anything.â
I lift my head, meeting his gaze. âI think about what happened by the pool. You really look good without a shirt on.â
A chuckle rumbles from his chest. âGlad to know you like what you see.â
âVery much.â
Our eyes lock again, then he asks, âHave you been kissed, Lara?â
I shake my head, nerves starting to spin in my stomach.
âDo you want me to kiss you?â
Without a doubt. âYes.â
He nods but doesnât make a move. Instead, he gets up and pulls me off the bed. When Iâm standing in front of him, he lets go of my hand.
âClose your eyes.â
I obey him and donât have time to wonder what heâs doing because his hands frame my face right before I feel his breath on my lips.
My heart explodes in my chest, my stomach fluttering like crazy.
Gabriel brushes his lips over mine, once, twice, then he lifts his head. Stunned by how intense a three-second kiss felt, I watch as his eyes drift over my face.
Then he chuckles, âBreathe, Lara. I canât have you pass out before kissing you thoroughly.â
I fill my lungs with air, the anticipation making me feel overwhelmed.
His thumb brushes over my cheek, the expression in his eyes both predatory and tender. Again, he closes the distance between us, and this time when his mouth meets mine, he doesnât just brush his lips over mine. His tongue licks at the seam of my mouth, then he demands, âLet me in.â
I part my lips, and the moment his tongue strokes hard against mine, it feels like Iâm leaving my body and floating on clouds.