I briefly wonder if I would have, and how Dakota would react if I did.
Chapter Twenty
DAKOTA IS STANDING IN THE kitchen, her eyes on me and her mouth set in an angry frown. Her hair is down, wild ringlets running loose over her shoulders. Sheâs picking at her fingernails, and I really donât like the way sheâs behaving, acting like weâre in high school.
Scratch that, sheâs acting full-on elementary, and the tutu sheâs wearing isnât helping make her look like an adult.
âWhat was that all about? Whatâs up with you?â I ask.
Well, it came out more like a demand, but I need some answers. None of this makes sense.
And of course sheâs immediately on the defensive, glaring at me as though Iâm the one acting like a jealous child. Dakota doesnât say anything, she just stares at me, and suddenly her gaze softens. Her lips pout out and she leans casually against the kitchen counter as if nothing just happened.
I decide not to let this one go. âWhy did you just chase Tessaâs friend from our apartment?â
Dakota looks me over. I assume that sheâs using her silence to buy herself time to decide what to say.
Finally, after a few more seconds, she sighs and begins to speak.
âSheâs not just Tessaâs friend to me, Landon. Sheâs my roommate, and I donât want her hanging around you. Sheâs not good for you. And Iâm not going to let her attach herself to you.â
She pauses a beat, then adds, âI refuse to let that happen.â
I donât know whatâs worse: the tone of her voice or the jealousy and possessiveness that thread through her words, but my skin prickles and adrenaline builds in my chest.
âOkay, first of all, I had no idea you two were roommatesâso Iâm still processing that. And second, you donât get to decide whoâs good for me, Dakota,â I say.
She blanches like Iâve smacked her across her face.
âSo you actually do like her!â Dakotaâs mouth twists into a grimace as she hurls these words at me.
Iâm getting angrier at her by the second and I can feel the tension between us building with every rise and fall of her chest.
âNo. Well, I donât know what I feel about her, honestly.â My answer sounds like Iâm avoiding the truth, but I truly donât know.
Iâve always been honest with Dakota, save for those rare moments when the truth was better left unsaid.
What I do know is that Dakota doesnât get to be the one who decides who gets to âattach herselfâ to me.
Dakota walks across the kitchen to me, her glittery tutu swaying with every step. âWell, try to figure it out, because I donât want you to be confused about how you feel about me either.â She rolls her eyes.
I recognize this tone, this guardedness.
âCut it out. Turn it on,â I tell her.
She knows exactly what I mean.
Dakota is good at turning her emotions off and completely detaching herself from any danger of pain, and throughout the years Iâve been good at reminding her to turn them on and lower the guard. Only when itâs safe to do so, though . . . Iâve always wanted to keep her safe.