Kai
I was walking down the hallways of the school with Liara. Charlie was taking his stuff at his locker while we decided to wait for him at the cafeteria. There have to be reasons as to why Charlie wanted to take his stuff because he purposely wants to leave me alone with Liara.
After yesterday, after what happened between Stan and I. After knowing that he likes me as much as I like him, I tried to contain what I wanted to reveal to everyone. That someone I like liked me back. Yes, with Liara knowing about us, I do want to tell her about it but since I left back for my home that night, I had no energy left to call or text her about the incident. Stan had taken a majority of my energy to just tell someone about us.
I had a great time at his house. Even when I saw him doing his stuff that was a sight to my eyes, that time when he sang for me just something that overpowers everything and especially when he told me he likes me. I thought back for a while thinking that I could be hallucinating but I wasn't. It was real life itself and the magical feeling of it brings me to a deep slumber sleep, dreaming of the two of us walking down the streets of love, taking in the serene in our presence, completing each other.
When I came to school this morning, his face was the first I laid eyes on. The first that we did? We smiled at each other, showing dimples of beauty that we had. I wanted to walk up to him and hug him right there. But maybe that would mean I was going too far in us. Also, it would be weird for me to do in public... what would the others think? This society was blocking in the way of my true freedom that I always want. But how could I change that when I am against a hundred voices. So I shut my actions and voice, only to show that I am here for him by showing presence. It was a small gesture but I hope it meant a lot to him as it is for me when I instantly feel happy as I saw him in front of my sparkling eyes.
"We... talked," I said out of nowhere, having the sudden courage to tell Liara about Stan and I as we sat down at our usual place in the cafeteria.
She looked at me with wide eyes, but then her lips grew slowly into a smile while she takes in the information I gave her. "Yeah? What happened? Do tell me," She said, leaning closer to have me speak in a lower volume to avoid other people sneaking in our conversation.
I tap my fingers on the table, holding back my smile while looking at her. "Well... the tutor who's teaching me is actually Stan's sister...," Liara gasped, putting her hand over her mouth, her expression just made me cackles.
"You're joking!" She complained, still her hand over her mouth.
I laughed so hard at her, she was so dramatic. "I'm not! It's true. Hear me out," I chuckled, shaking my head at her.
"Okay, okay. Go on," She spoke, gesturing her hand for me to continue my story.
I clear my throat, preparing myself for the reaction she would give me. "So... we met at his house and then...," I continued to talk about how Stan would check up on me in his sister's room... to the moment where I saw him doing his dirty deeds, to when he saw me looking at him doing his deeds and that he invited me to help him. As I finish that part of the story, Liara's face paled as ghosts could get. Her hand, yes, was again over her mouth for the second time.
"Oh my god... you s-saw... you saw? His um junk?" She asked, trying to confirm what she heard was right.
I blushed. "Yes... unfortunately and luckily," It was handsome as well.
"Dude! What?! That's...,"
"I know, I know... let me continue," I laughed, wanting her to calm down at the situation. She nodded, then I continue my story. I told her about how Stan confessed his likings towards me, and how we were basically teasing each other during dinner with his family to when he just surprised and froze me in place with his words about my name. I still remember it.
'It's a name that I like and that I have strong feelings for. She's the one for me'
If only the 'she' could be changed to 'he', but anyway, I don't mind it all. It was enough for me to know that he was talking about me.
"Cute!!! Why didn't you invite me as well?! I wanna see you two," She questioned, wiping away the non-existent tear that left her eyes. As much as I love sharing this with her, she was totally making a big deal about this. "You don't have tutoring, why would I invite you? Plus, I didn't even know that the tutor was his sister,"
"Fine... hmm. Well then, go on," She continued.
After that, I tell her everything that happened in Stan's bedroom. I was a blushing mess just talking about it. It was just made to be real, even when it's wrong. But I felt that it was right. I loved every second of that moment, from when he turns to face me to when he touched my fingers lightly.
Liara was about to make a comment about it until Charlie came to us, stopping whatever says that she wanted to say to me. Charlie flash at both of us, with an amused smile on his face. "What did I miss? What were you guys talking about?" inquired the brown-haired male as he sits down next to me as usual. Liara took a glimpse at me whether to tell a lie or just tell him about my truths, but I shake my head slowly to let her know I wasn't ready for Charlie to know. It was risky for me to tell him about it. I don't wanna lose him.
"Nothing, we were just laughing about a meme," I mentioned, chuckling at Liara. She joins in the chuckle, making sure to make the situation more real. Charlie smiles at us, raising his brows at us. "Oh yeah? Hey, I found this meme and it is golden, look," He said, taking out his phone to show us the meme that he was talking about.
When I saw what the meme was about, I paled. It was a meme where this girl was eating a salad while two men were silently having sexual intercourse behind the kitchen counter. My mind exploded in just utter speechlessness because this was just so random of Charlie to be watching this kind of meme. He does know what it is about, does he? Even Liara was in shock.
"Um, Charlie... you do know that those men are...," She started.
"Gay? Yeah, I do. What? Are you both not okay with it?" He asked back, looking at both of us who were in confusion.
I coughed. "No, of course not. I mean, if you're okay with it then yeah, we do too. Hell, I watch tons of gay meme,"
"You do?" Charlie asked.
"You do?" Liara asked as well, making me facepalmed because she knows that I am gay.
I sighed quietly. "Yeah! They're funny, and... very... interesting,"
We laughed about it later on. I was trying so hard to make everything seemed natural because I don't want that kind of topic makes the three of us awkward, especially with Charlie since he doesn't know about me and the idea of it. We enjoyed the recess session, throwing chatter about how Charlie would get another counselling session for his game addiction to how Liara would look like if she wore more pink.
At some point, I heard my phone buzz. Excusing myself to check the notification that came in, I was met with a message from none other than the king of my heart himself, Stan. Opening my phone, I immediately went to messages to see what he sent, he sent me a picture of his food with a caption 'if you were a food, then I would just eat you for all my life,'. Talk about kinky, this boy was the epitome of kinky and hot.
K: That would hard since I'm the stock left (^_~)
S: Well, maybe I could just lick you instead
K: You're so desperate
S: Of course since you little me yesterday
K: (OoO)
"Who're you texting with?" Charlie asked, looking into my phone. I quickly move my phone away from him, because these texts are too private for him to see.
I shake my head vigorously. "No one. It was my mom, she was checking to see if I was fine,"
"Really?" He questioned again. I glance towards Liara to get her to help me. This was an immediate emergency. "Hey Charlie, would you mind accompanying me to buy drinks? I'm thirsty," said the girl as she stands up and dragged Charlie away from me. I nod a thank you to her, feeling calmer now that that was settled. Why do I keep being this obvious? Maybe because you are in love, Kai. Who knows?
Shaking my head, I turn to look back at the message. One last message he sent me before he went offline.
'Can't wait to hang out with you at my house later on. My family's out'
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Opening the door to the house, I went inside to search for anyone. Stan was right, all of his family were out. Natalie messaged me to just study in her room but I don't feel like that was going to happen when Stan was here all alone with me. I walk to the stairs to get to her room, at least I was doing a little of what I am being told to do. That would be believable for when she asked me about it later on. I know that she gave me time here to do what I want after knowing my parents' intentions, but she wants to make sure at least I'm acting like I'm studying.
Opening the door to her room, I was then suddenly being pulled back into his room instead. His hand were on my mouth with his other hand around my waist. I gasped loudly at the sudden touch, startled that he would do that towards me. Now that I was in his room, he closes the door then push me against it, locking me in between his arms.
He grinned at me, moving his face close to my face. Our nose touches each other as we played with them for a while. I laughed softly at his actions. It was not the Stan that I used to but it was making me falling deep into feels for him. With every time we play we each other noses, he went closer into my face. I close my eyes, preparing myself for the surreal feeling that I would have for the first time in my life. A gesture which I was yearning to have since I knew about relationships and love.
Then it happened. He kisses me slowly, moving his lips gently on mine, treating me like I was fragile and delicate. Our breaths were the only thing that filled my ears at that moment. His kiss was made to bring my sparks flew even further into the blue sky. It was lovingly, sweet, so much tenderness in them that I can't even describe what feeling I was having now.
His kiss felt like enchanted. It was more than ever imagine for my first kiss. I was begging to have this moment being captured or recorded so I could cherish is forever in my mind.
His kiss felt like daylight. It gives me a new shine upon my heart of what I came to know about kisses and butterflies because I wasn't feeling the usual hunger but I was feeling something that speaks affection and true romance.
His kiss was romanic. Romantic in the sense of romance in the ancient times of the roman where I could feel it until now even when it was there for more than centuries. It was always there.
He pulled away from the kiss, but not before pecking my forehead. Then he stares at me, with dark eyes that seemed brighter now, it illustrates his semblance in manners that I could not have words with. It was that I am really speechless at his actions, it took me off guard and now I am just hypnotized by him. "You like it? The kiss?" He asked, braiding his hands with mine.
"I love it," I smiled, chuckling at him. We were so blindly in love, it was the only thing that we see. It came unseen and it stayed there visible to just us.
He took my hand with him, taking me to the windows. I didn't ask questions at all to him. I just go wherever he goes. We went to go to the other side of the window. Honestly, I did not know what his plans were but I still followed, until he brought me up to sit there at the rooftop of his house. The views were beautiful as it was always, with the sun being covered by the grey clouds, I felt safe. I sat beside him, as he takes my hands in his again.
Bringing my hand upwards, he kisses my hand, planting soft tattoos of his lips there. I giggled, feeling ticklish. As the wind blew through us, I sat my head onto his shoulder, feeling happy and joyful than I ever was years ago. This was new for me, and I never knew I needed this in my life.
"I really enjoyed being with you. Seeing you here just makes me content," He spoke, looking ahead onto the lanes of houses in front of us.
I close my eyes, breathing slowly. "We are so foolish," I chuckled, having him chuckling as well.
"For what it's for, it was worth since that day when I saw you falling to your chest in front of your house," He smiled. Now I was surprised.
"You saw me fell?"
"Yeah, that was when I fell too," He turns to face me. "And I knew that it was more than just liking you,"
That was the kind of words that speaks me to me that words are louder than actions sometimes. Sometimes it's stronger than just falling in love because it's how I know I was truly in love. Love languages that spoke for me that I could express my love for someone.
But sometimes my emotions couldn't be replaced with words because it's hard for me to know, what stage of love I was in to ever tell him how I love you was nowhere near the highs of my love of only I, myself knows. One thing I could say... we are in love. Lovers of how I knew that we were bigger than mentality and prejudice that would be thrown against us.
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