I had remained on that seat. I noticed everyone leave till it was just I and my family.
Slowly, all the guests were leaving as the party ended. I needed to go talk to Mason, at least before I blow up in my mind.
As I got up the chair, I made my way to where I figured he'd be, the kitchen.
But I made a pause before walking in it as I heard Ned's voice.
"You take care okay, I've got to go. Carrie is almost drunk and asleep in the car"
"So what do I do after all this?" Mason asked.
His voice made him sound confused but I had no idea what they were talking about.
"When Avey had that baby for me, I had thought of only one thing, to bring her in as the mother of my kids. I couldn't buy her, she'd be worth more than it all. I saw an opportunity when I brought her into my life. I was not ready to be committed, not even a bit. I realized she could be the mother of my kids, without getting attached. I didn't have to have those kids from separate mothers and at that point, she was the best fool. Thought I was sincere about my care for her, didn't see nothing else to it. After Ellie, it took us two years to get Jason and I must say, I had nothing on her"
"But everything went wrong along the way. You're truly not ready for this mate. You need to let go of whatever's holding you back" Ned said.
I had the chair sound as it scratched the floor and few seconds later, Ned had gotten to where I stood.
"Avey.... What are you doing here?" he asked.
I tried to fake a smile and I succeeded.
He smiled back.
"I came to get Mason. You really should get going cause of Carrie" I told him.
"Yeah, it's true" he said as his brain jump started and he instantly walked away.
I immediately walked away following him from behind, this time around with tears filling my eyelids.
I walked in the sitting room as I walked to sit. I was directly in front of the TV and my face was glued on it.
The kids were seeing a cartoon show.
I was shattered. So many thing ran through my head after hearing his confession. I had lied to myself. Given this man seven years of my life, had two kids for him, only for it to turn me a fool. If I wanted to let go, where do I start from. I had wasted precious time with someone who didn't even want me, someone who was never ready for a complete family.
My parents walked in the sitting room as they took their seat staring at me. I looked away and that moment, mom could tell everything was wrong.
"Baby are you okay?" mom asked.
That moment, Mason walked up to me as he caressed my arm continuously kissing my cheek.
"Lemme see you for a moment" he whispered in my ear.
I stared at him and he could see it, the bitterness in my face. I was disgusted with this man.
"Are you okay?" he asked me as he walked in my front.
"Were you ever gonna make things right?" I asked almost in tears.
"What's wrong?" he asked trying to give a smile.
"I've wasted so long trying to wait for you. I've been waiting for you to realize that family is everything. But it's taken you this long, and so if I remain with you, it's going to take forever" I told him.
"I didn't ever think you were using me. To have this kids and make you feel like a father. Mason, really you were never ready to get attached, what did you bring me in your life for? You could have let me go the moment I had done what you wanted..."
"Avey..." he tried to call.
"Don't interrupt me Mason. You have no reason to" I said on top of my voice.
"You're a thirty year old man, you live with a woman, but you can't call her your wife. You go around calling her the mother of your kids cause that's what she is to you and what she'll ever be. You really are shameless, aren't you?" I questioned.
"I bring us up and it all ends with sex. Really?" I asked.
He had his hands over his forehead as he stared at Josi where she stood.
"Help me take the kids up, please" he told her.
"Let them stay. Let them listen to how shameless their father is. How less of a man he is cause he can't give them a real family" I said getting up my feet.
"Hey! Common, let's get you guys upstairs" mom said as she and Josi moved closer to the kids raising them up the chair.
My dad too got up as he walked away, leaving I and Mason in the sitting room.
"I'll walk away, I tell you. From this illusion before it gets too late for you"
"Nothing's ever gonna get late. It's not. I'm not less of a man though. I'm the best father and trying to be more than that to my kids. And yes, I'm really sorry I've not been able to give them a complete family. I'm sorry I made you go through this, but I promise, the love I have for you is real.
I looked at him with complete hatred and anger. I had every right to yell at him, say out everything I had bottled up in my head, but I couldn't. I still loved what we shared but I was tired of being a nobody.