The man drones on for what seems like an eternity. His gray hair is receding and the wrinkles on his face are deep as he looks at each of us somberly. But I guess thatâs what happens when your job is dealing with grieving families. It must take it out of you. And apparently ages you as well.
âHave you given any thought to flowers?â he asks, and the table collectively turns to me as if I have all the answers. I should. I have the funeral plan sitting in front of me, the failsafe our parents prepared for the event of an untimely death such as this one.
They meticulously planned their own farewell, better than I ever could have in their absence, and if thatâs not the most morbid thing about this entire ordeal, I donât know what is.
I look across the table and my eyes clash with Everettâs, a mixture of concern and sadness pooling at the surface. For someone who grew up without being allowed to show emotion, his eyes are the most expressive of anyone Iâve ever met. From the first moment we met, I saw everything he was thinking long before he said the words.
âLilies,â I reply quietly, tearing my eyes from the ones I once loved staring into, but now all the deep blue pools make me feel is pain.
Mr. Sampson nods and takes a note, his pen scrawling across the paper, the only sound in the huge, ostentatious house. Mom and Dad never liked the estate, but it was expected of them to live somewhere like this. Somewhere with walls around the property to keep us safe, more security than you could count, and so many rooms I still get lost even after living here throughout my teens and visiting at least once a week since I moved out to go to college. But it would be Stormâs now. As the head of the family, he already should have been living here, but he was putting it off, just as displeased about the prospect of living in the obscene estate as our parents had been.
âAnd will there be a color scheme? Some people like to have muted tones, and others prefer to make it more of a celebration,â he tells us, and I watch as Rayneâs eyes turn murderous.
âWhat exactly would we be celebrating?â he growls.
âI know this is a difficult time, but a funeral is a celebration of life, and it should be treated as such. People grieve in different ways, as Iâm sure you are aware, and some choose to do that with bright colors.â
Emerson takes Rayneâs hand in her much smaller one, stroking the back of it gently to soothe him. She may never know the man he was before she came along. The cold, harsh man that had grown up too quickly, who only showed kindness to his family, was gone. Now the enforcer of our business had a soft side, he helps people, cares about perfect strangers, all because she does.
I take a deep breath, ready to make excuses for my familyâs hostility toward him, but then I stop myself. Why should I make excuses for my familyâs grief? They have every right to be feeling the things they are, just the way he would if he lost someone close to him. Grief isnât linear, and thatâs something Iâm sure he understands. âIâm sure you can understand we are still in shock. Our parents died last night under suspicious circumstances. We are not in a place to think of this as a chance to celebrate their lives because we are still accepting that we have to live the rest of our lives without them.â I look to Storm, who gives me a small nod. âI think perhaps this is enough for today. I will send you everything else we want by email over the coming days, and if you have any questions, please reach out to me.â I stand from my seat, making it clear that weâre done here.
âOh.â He looks around at my siblings as they stand one by one.
I never should have organized this for today, but when I called the funeral home Mom and Dad had listed in their instructions and they said someone could come around this afternoon, I wasnât really in a place to argue the point.
âOkay, that will be fine,â he stammers as he gathers his paperwork from the table, taking several attempts to organize them into a neat stack and shove them back into his folder.
âThank you for taking the time to come see us today.â I force a smile to my lips, but they barely twitch in response.
We say a swift goodbye at the door before I move back to the living room, where everyone has returned to their seats. I sigh and take my own beside Snow, taking her hand in mine. Sheâs taking it the hardest, and sheâs never dealt with adversity well. Hell, when she was in high school and wasnât crowned prom queen, she had a three-week meltdown and missed her graduation. I canât see the loss of our parents being any better than that.
âWhat the fuck did that guy think we have to fucking celebrate?â Rayne slams his hands down on the table, but none of us startle. Weâve all been around for enough of his outbursts that they donât surprise us, even Emerson. She just takes one of his hands in hers again, squeezing it for support.
âI want to know what is being done about Russo?â I turn to Storm. âWe can plan a funeral until our hearts are content, but they wonât be at rest until heâs six feet under.â I can feel Everettâs eyes on the side of my face, burning a hole with the intensity of his stare, but I ignore him, too fired up with a new purpose. âI donât know about you, but Iâm not going to be able to rest until heâs paid for what heâs done.â
Stormâs head drops into his hands and he tugs at the ends of his dark hair. âIâve got Tommy on it. Heâs on Angelo, and heâs got all our best guys on Paul and Tony. Weâre limited on manpower because this place takes so much, but I think we all need to stay together.â
âWe are not just sitting on our hands, Storm,â Rayne growls. âFirst that fucker kidnaps my woman, and now heâs murdered our parents. We have to take the fight to him. We never should have let him live. They would be alive if Iâd killed them,â he whispers the last few words, the despair in his voice almost enough to break me.
âWeâre not doing the could-have, would-have game. We need a plan. We need to end this so we can grieve,â I tell them, my hands placed flat on the table as I lean toward them. âI want Angelo Russoâs head for what heâs done to this family.â
They all stare at me with varying levels of shock and pride written all over their faces. Iâm not a bloodthirsty person. Despite my extensive training with my brothers, Iâve never pulled the trigger and ended someoneâs life, but I could if the need ever came up. If I needed to kill someone to protect myself or my family, I wouldnât even blink before squeezing the trigger and walking away guilt free. You donât grow up as the princess of a crime family without knowing how to protect yourself and without the thought that someday that training may be the difference between life and death.
Everett stands from his seat and crosses to where his laptop is charging across the room, immediately coming back with it. âI couldnât sleep last night, so I started tracking Russoâs financial activity. Thereâs no way he used one of his own men to take out the founding members of the family. Not even Angelo Russo is dumb enough to think his team is capable of a hit of that scale. Thereâs been a lot of money going in and out of their accounts, both on and offshore, and if I had to hazard a guess, I think theyâve used the shipment they took to fund the hit.â
I nod slowly. It feels good to be using my mind so I canât focus on the grief threatening to overwhelm me every time I think of my motherâs smile or my fatherâs wit. Itâs always hovering at the edge of my consciousness, and somehow I think vengeance might be the only way I can sleep at night. âOkay, can you track where the money or the shipment are going? Who they might have hired?â
Storm clears his throat. âI have a couple of guesses, but at the moment, thatâs all weâve got. We canât prove that theyâre using the shipment. We have no idea who drove the car off the road. And I donât think itâs a good idea that you girls get involved.â
I stand from my seat and glare at my brother, anger simmering deep in my veins. âDo not tell me what I should and shouldnât be doing, Storm. You and I both know I am not someone who can sit on my hands and wait for things to play out. I want Russo to suffer for what heâs done to this family. For what he did to Emerson, and for murdering our parents. And Iâm going to be just as involved as you on this, whether you like it or not.â