Loving someone is a strange thing, there is no guarantee that they will love you back, they will love you the same way as you do. But still, the heart doesn't know that, it still loves a person despite every odd or even, keeping it in a vulnerable position to break many times by the very same person we tend care a lot about.
Anah's POV:
As Hammy was telling me a story about something i went into flash back of the incident happened today.
Mary actually approached me today . I had no idea how she got my number but when i picked it up i heard a familiar voice , so i kept the conversation going on.
She wanted to meet one last time and to apologize for whatever she made him go through in his life, according to her.
I freaked out and replied :
Why you want to come back into his life now, just because Hammy started getting noticed now with all the fame/money and being loved by millions of people doesn't mean that he still adores you or cant live without you .
He is very happy in his life now and let him be like that.
You wouldn't even cared if he wasn't famous or would have suicided earlier before.
He has moved on in his life and i warn you not to call me ever again.
But... ? (ignoring totally what she was about to say)
I cancelled the phone call and blocked her completely.
Did i did something wrong in here? or was it my selfishness to which i don't want to share Hammy with anyone but myself only.
Should i tell Hammy about this or not ? If yes , what if they both start talking to each other again and fall in love and get married happily.
No no no i cant let this happen that far.
I will keep it to myself and pretend like it never happened.
Yes it will be better for both of us , specially Hammy.
I can't see him suffer all over again .
People tell that love and pain fade away with time. It's not always true, the pain never fades but you just learn how to live with it. While in case of love, how can the heart forget that love which was its reason to beat?
Well that's in case of true love.
After each song .. each new show .. he started to know himself more .. last night it was a blurred vision but it's getting clear thinking about his dreams his passion.
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Anah's mind was twirling in thoughts she had no control of. She found herself lost in the unknown world her mind took her to.
"Anah, Anah" a hand clicked in front of her, dragging her back to the reality.
In front of her stood her love, the one her heart beats for. The one whom she loved unconditionally and unconventionally.
She smiled in haze looking at his hazel eyes. Even though for the world he seemed to have everything to be happy, she knew the pain hidden behind these eyes the girls would be longing to gaze at.
"Hmmm?"
"you didn't listen to anything I said, did you?"
Even though her mind had taken her on a tour, giving tips of loving someone, Anah had heard everything hammy said.
How can it be that Anah could ignore Hammy's words?
But the smile on her face didn't betray her feelings. Her heart had crumbled into pieces long ago, but the hope that was instilling in it, to become whole again, shattered with each word that left Hammy's lips in remembrance of his love.
Love is all about sacrifice for the loved ones, that was her definition of love. And that night, sacrifice she did.
"I heard everything hammy, I know you still love her."
Placing her hand on his chest, she could feel his heart beating,
"I know, this heart still beats for her, no matter what happened, what she did", her voice shook with emotions she tried very hard to keep it from surfacing.
Hammy smiled, his smile reaching his eyes after a long time.
"Will you help me find her, I know I can't have her, but I will have peace by seeing her, my heart will understand that she is happy with another providing the happiness that he could never give by loving her"
Hammy's reply was not a shock to Anah, he had always been like that, specially towards Mary.
"I think, I know where is she, and I will do the arrangements there for you. She would not miss the presence of this charming young man, now would she?" Anah exclaimed feigning excitement.
Hammy's eyes were wide hearing the news, spreading his arms to grab Anah and twirling her around.
Laughter resonating around the place.
A memory of them captured by the walls of the house.
" I know you are the best. Love you bestie" hammy rushed, his voice reeking the happiness he felt at the thought of seeing Mary.
A sad smile graced Anah's face which went unnoticed by hammy who was dazed.
"I know, I am the best, you are lucky to have me" Anah said mischievously.
"I know you are, if i wouldn't have ever met Mary then i would have definitely got married with you haah" Hammy replied facetiously.
Hammy threw a heart warming smile at her and went towards the exit telling that he would take all the details on his way to the airport.
When the door shut, all the walls she had kept to stop her flooding emotions finally broke.
The tears kept at bay broke their barricades. Her legs too weak to handle her weight, let her go crumbling to ground.
A heart wrenching sob broke through her, the feelings kept hidden for years surfaced, dominating her weak mind and heart.
No, strong heart, her heart strong to let her loved one go, to love another heart unconditionally.
Her hand flew to her mouth covering it, hoping to muffle the loud sounds of her cries that shattered the eerie silence of the apartment.
She let herself cry, get rid of feelings that were bottled within her for years together. Because she knew, it was time. To just let go.
Let go of her love. Let go, because that was never meant to be.
Love. The four letter word. A small word on which the world is running on.
It has many definitions, according to different people. Some tell its compromises, some trust, some respect, some decision, and some sacrifices.