AMELIA's POV
As I came to my room , I was in tears , IÂ feel so useless.
....so helpless.
I couldn't stop him .
Why ?!
Just because he has a title of being my husband.
No ! It's not like one day everyone force me and I say 'I do'
And he has every right to do anything .
I have a heart and feelings !
One 'I do ' doesn't give him that emmense power
I can't let him break me
I let him do that .
I would never let anyone insult me !
And yet , he behaved I like a beast with me , and I let him.
Why didn't I stop him .
I could have slap him right across his face but my hands were like out of my control .
I hate myself for this .
I am a girl strong , independent girl.
And yet ....
I don't know ,why ?! I did it .
It's all my fault , I let him treat me like a shit .
But I won't let him see me like this .
I can't show him , my weak side.
No !
I wash my face and head to dinner after some time .
Greta calls me , " where is Sam ?! Can you can him for dinner dear!! "
I shook my head " if he wanna eat ,he can come by himself or else you can call him "
She nods and calls him .
While I ignore him as if he didn't exist.
I was eating my food and I can feel his gaze on me.i avoided him for the whole time but it getting too much .
It's like he isn't even blinking and it's too intense.i was controlling myself not to look at him but my traitor body ....
As soon my eyes find his , I see him staring at my arms and when I follow his gaze I see red marks over my arm .
Yes ! It was him who did this.
But I see a clear guilt in his eyes. I dont know if is fake or not , but I wanna believe it ....but can I
I left the dinner and head to my room after having a bath...I get under the covers to sleep but couldn't get any.
As I close my eyes his screaming face was infront of my eyes.
How he shouted at me.
How he held me.
We were so close , he was just an inch away from me.... That was such a intimate condition but our conversation says the otherwise.
And the next second his eyes showing his guilt .
I couldn't get myself to believe on him .
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I woke up very late in the morning , maybe due to fact I was not able to sleep last night.
I rub my eyes to shedd off the remaining sleep that is ready to leave me.
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I was in balcony , it was a fresh morning ...he has so many plants.... gardening is my second love....I love the blooming flowers....and the lovely fregrence that they give you....it just makes your day....
I smile and get my hands into the pot without caring about my manicured hands.
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After I was done in the balcony I felt my stomach growling ....
So I moved to kitchen ....
Where is Greta ?!
Anyhow !!
I am hungry ....so look for food first.
In the fridge ,I found some leftovers from yesterday ....and then I reheat that and devoured that .
Greta is realy a good cook .I just love her food .
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I look at time , it was already 10:12 am .I think I should get ready ....
I am so exited , I'll finally meet my family , my friends .... atleast for a day I'll be away from Mr dumbhead and his thoughts which seems impossible to leave me.
Just when I was about to look for some clothes....Mr dumbhead appears infront of me.
I walk past him clearly ignoring his presence but the next moment I stop dead in my tracts ...
I never imagined I would ever be listening this from him
" I am sorry " he wisphers behind me and then he continued " for last night ,I should've behaved like that ...I was so angry and then i let it out all at you ....am sorry for being a beast , I really am sorry !! "
I see genuineness in his eyes ,he was really guilty .
" It's okay !" I smiled weakly at him .
" So you forgive me ?! " He questions innocently .
" You seemed genuinely guilty ....so I guess yea ! " I answer .
His smile widened .I head to the closet to choose a dress for myself .... While Mr dumbhead hot in my heel.
" Are you going somewhere ?! " He shoot as he found me going through my clothes.
A smile made her way to my lips
" Yes ! Am going to my home , they are having a friends time ! I got to know bout it yesterday itself ,Jenna invited me ! "I don't know why , but I explained him everything as I wanted to share it with him .
Amy you are really being wierd , it's not like you were normal earlier , you has always been weird but now ....you are on another level ....my subconsciousness taunts me.
He smiled at me weakly
Is he not happy for me ?!
" What ?! Are you not happy for me ?! " Words were out of my mouth before I could hold them .
" No . I mean yes! I am ,it's just I arranged a lunch outside today , yesterday you said you get bored so I thought "
I smile at him
" Thank you but you know I can't today ! " I said
He smiled slightly with a nod .
He was thinking something I don't know what .
Amy he planned lunch for you and here , you are leaving him here alone.
Don't be a mean bitch.
When I was about to offer
he spoke with me
" You know we are supposed to be together "
" If you want you ca-"
We both stopped
I continue " you go first "
" No , ladies first "
" Oh please ! I already speak alot and you are finally talking to me that too in sentences ...so I think I wanna listen to you .... so shoot ! " I smile
Seriously ,he is talking to me in sentences not in words , it's really a big moment ...and he is smiling too.
He give me an amused smile which was not broadening on his face but gleaming in his eyes.
" Okay ...so was saying that you know.... everyone wants us to spend time .... together ...and " he was speaking bit was slightly nervous.
" You don't have to be nervous ....we are in the same boat , I won't judge you ....I know the conditions we are in ....so just let everything out " I encourage him with a slight smile.
He sighed visibly relaxed
"You know , everyone wants us to spend time together and get to know each other...and mom called me today saying I have to spend my whole day with you ...so you know .....but I really don't wanna spoil you mood and I know today you are happy , you are finally meeting everyone you miss daily ....I really don't wanna be a obstac-"he was not stopping .
I think , he took my words way to seriously .
I touch his arm .
" I got it! I understand what you wanna say ! "
" Thank god ! " He mutter under breath but I heard it.
" So if you want you can come along ! "I offer.
" Really ?! " He questions
" Yeah ! I mean if you don't have any problem with that ! You can ...besides its a couple time ... everyone will be there with there partners ....Jenna told me to get you with me also bit I thought you won't be interested so I didn't ask ! " I explained everything .and now waiting for his response
" what is the time ?! "
" Well it's at 11 but as Jenna is the host then it'll definitely get late and start at probably at 12 or may be late " I laugh .
Yeah ! Jenna is like this !
She always freak out at the last moment .
It was me always who handles her and her function too at the last moment .
" So let's get ready ! " He says and goes through his clothes.
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