Levi.
I stared up at the ceiling, watching the fan smoothly glide in unbroken circles. Since arriving home three days ago, Iâd been so fucking lazy. Sleeping in until noon. Spending days on the couch. Iâd pulled my head in, or more or less Will had, to get me through the last week of school, including two games, before we broke up for Christmas break. Theyâd been some of my best games. Turns out channelling my emotions into the ice paid off. The Assistant GM from the Eagles had called after my second game, praising my performance. If I couldnât have Grace, at least I had hockey. Yesterday sheâd uploaded a photo with her brothers. Home was the caption. She was still managing to crush my heart from the other side of the world. When it had popped up on my feed, Iâd been lounged on the couch, dressed in a hoodie and sweats with a blanket over my lap and the fire on. Seeing her dressed in a bikini top and wetsuit rolled around her waist was another reminder how far apart we were. How far apart we would be, for the rest of our lives. Fuck. My. Life. My bedroom door was thrown open. Lana sauntered in, still dressed in her silk pyjamas.
âWake up, Levi. I want to do presents.â
She stilled upon seeing I was awake. And angry. After a pause she jumped onto the bed, kneeing me in the leg as she did.
âMerry Christmas, big brother.â
âYeah,â I ground out. âYou too.â
She rocked back, rolling her eyes.
âCome on. Perk up. I know youâre heartbroken, but thereâs presents to be unwrapped. And food to be eaten. And alcohol to be drunk.â
I grimaced at the latter. My hangover from the night Ryker and I drowned our sorrows was still too fresh.
âHas Grace text you back yet?â
âNope.â
Iâd filled Lana in on the whole scenario. I hadnât had much of a choice. Sheâd persistently asked where Grace was until I cracked and told her the truth. Dad and mum didnât know as much. Only that Grace was home for Christmas. And indefinitely I reminded myself. I pulled the covers over my head, sliding until I couldnât see any light. Lana wasnât having it. She snapped the covers back, staring down at me with annoyance.
âMoping isnât going to do anything. Come open presents. Itâll take your mind off things.â
âDoubt it.â
âI donât care.â
She jumped off the bed and opened my curtains. It didnât cause much light to come in. It was gloomy as hell out there. Even more reason to stay here.
âThereâs a teal box with my name on it and dad and mum wonât let me have it until weâre all downstairs.â
Groaning, I sat up and rubbed the sleep from my eyes. If I was getting between Lana and a Tiffanyâs box, there was no chance in hell she was going to let me lie in any longer.
*
Christmas morning was the same as always. Exchanging gifts. Drinking hot chocolate. Spending time with the family. I hated to admit it, but Lana was right. This was a nice distraction. For a few hours I found myself slipping back into past habits. Talking about hockey with dad. Helping mum make breakfast. Annoying Lana. But when I stepped onto the back deck to have my morning coffee, I couldnât draw my eyes away from the hot tub. I hadnât even attempted to visit the inside pool. Reminders of Grace were everywhere. I unlocked my phone and pulled up Messenger. A green dot told me she was online now. That was a first. Each time Iâd gone in the red dot had taunted me. Fuck it. The chances were low, but I had to try. I hit the video call. What did I have to lose? Every message and call had gone unanswered over the past few weeks. I doubt today was going to be any different. But she was, kind of, right there. Hereâs hoping for a Christmas miracle. When the call connected, I completely froze. And when her face filled the screen, my heart literally stopped beating. Her blonde hair fell softly over her bare shoulders, and she was wearing a red bikini top that instantly woke up the rest of my body. She was somewhere loud. Background music filtered through the speakers.
âHey,â I said, surprise in my voice.
âSup.â
I frowned. Sup? Behind her someone jumped into a pool, which was filled with people. And there was a large crowd playing beer pong beside it, either clad in swimsuits or bare chested. Grace lifted a drink to her lips and took a long sip. So thatâs why sheâd answered. She was drunk. I did the calculations. It was midday here, which meant it was nighttime where she was. The day after Christmas.
âAre you drunk, Hughesy?â I asked.
Grace squinted her eyes, squeezing her fingers close together.
âA lil bit.â
That wasnât ideal, but Iâd take it. A drunk Grace was better than no Grace. Itâd been over two weeks since sheâd left me outside her dorm. Talking to her now was both like no time had passed and like it had been an eternity. I set my coffee down on the outdoor table, which was covered in a layer of ice.
âHow are you?â I cautiously questioned.
âFine.â
âGood to be home?â
âThe best.â
That stung, but I shook it off. I couldnât believe I was actually talking to her. There was so much I wanted to say.
âGraceââ
I stopped midsentence when a guy moved into the shot beside her. It wasnât one of her brothers. This guy had brown hair. He wrapped his arm around her shoulder. He was shirtless and tanned, and if we werenât in different countries, heâd also be dead.
âWho are you talking to?â he asked.
âLevi,â Grace answered.
He nodded as though he knew exactly who I was. That wasnât reciprocated and I hated not having the upper hand. He looked at the phone, smiling.
âHey man. Iâm Luke.â
Luke? The fucking high school boyfriend?
âMind if I steal Grace? You get her back in a few days.â
I did? Screw saving face. If Grace wasnât going to talk, Iâd get the dirt from the ex.
âSheâs coming back to Philadelphia?â
âYeah,â Luke answered, not picking up on my surprise. âShe only came home for Christmas.â
That one sentence caused everything to change. She was coming back. To me? To school? To swimming? I didnât care. Iâd see her again. Thatâs all that fucking mattered. When I beamed, Grace seemed to sober. She sat up straighter.
âIâll be there in a minute, Luke.â
Luke took the hint and left. Iâm not sure where there was or what he wanted to steal her to do. Either way, sheâd be back soon. That was more than Iâd hoped for. Iâd literally thought I would never see Grace Hughes again.
âStop smiling,â Grace said seriously. âIâm not coming back for you.â
âUh-huh.â
âLevi.â
âGrace.â
She sighed, which was brutal. Her chest rose and fell. I couldnât pull my eyes away from the bikini top. From her tits. I missed her, and them, so fucking much.
âIâm sorry Iâve ignored your calls and messages,â she said.
I stopped her right there.
âYou have nothing to apologise for, Hughesy.â
I walked to the edge of the deck. I couldnât stop pacing. Fresh blood pumped through my body. It was the best Iâd felt in weeks.
âWhen will you be back?â I asked.
âThe morning of New Yearâs Eve.â
âCan we talk then?â
I held my breath. After a pause, Grace nodded. I had to stop myself from fist pumping with excitement. Six days. I could do six days. Movement inside caught my eye. Will was standing at the glass door, waving.
âWillâs family just got here,â I told Grace.
Her forehead pinched, then understanding took over.
âItâs Christmas there,â she realised.
She was ahead. Christmas had come and gone in Australia. Iâd tried to call her yesterday. Of course I had. But when she didnât pick up, Iâd settled for a message.
âMerry Christmas, Levi.â
âMerry Christmas, Grace.â
It was definitely better now. As much as I wanted to keep talking to Grace, to dive into the conversation we needed to have, it wasnât the right time. Talking in person would be better. But I was glad to have spoken to her just now. So fucking glad.
âI should let you go,â I said.
I may have been optimistic, but it looked like she was disappointed by that.
âIâll see you in a few days. Call me when youâre back?â
She nodded.
âAnd Hughesy?â
âYeah?â
âI like that bikini.â
She rolled her eyes, the faintest smile tugging at her lips.
âGoodbye, perv.â