Hey guys so I decided to update early as I had the whole afternoon free so enjoy!
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There was a minute of silence, no one daring to move. For some reason I wished Damien was one of those superhero's in those movies where they miraculously make it out. As good as that sounds, I know I'd be a lunatic to believe that. There was no way anyone could make it out of that. Absolutely no way. And I hated myself for knowing that.
I stared in disbelief at the warehouse in flames. No he couldn't. He can't.
Dead.
Gone.
Forever.
There was a sudden hope and determination in me.
"We have to leave, before the cops arrive" Xavier's cold tone sliced through the air as I heard the car door slam.
I didn't want to leave, but Xavier was right. We were all a part of this murder investigation.
I wiped a tear that rolled down my cheek and hoped in the car.
Xavier started the car and sped off. I took a last glance at the scene. My last glimmer of hope fading.
I couldn't believe he was gone. I've only known him for a few weeks but he seemed like a genuine guy and possibly the only person that cared for me.
The car ride was filled with complete silence and I knew it was the wrong time to bring it up but I couldn't help the words that tumbled out of my mouth.
"Ok what was that?" I asked mainly to Xavier.
"Here we go again" Steve mumbled taking out his phone mirroring Richard.
"Damien just-" Xavier started.
"Yeah I know what just happened, I was talking about what happened before that" I snapped having enough of this. I know I'm taking my anger out on Xavier but I couldn't help it. He's dead.
"We made a deal with a company, and it was to sell you for money" Xavier said.
I couldn't believe how cold he was being. Someone close just died and he just blocks everything out. It's as though he doesn't have any emotions at all.
"And why didn't you just sell me? Why go through all the trouble when something like this could happen?" I asked.
I knew I was directing all of my anger at Xavier. I knew it was wrong because it wasn't his fault. Yet for some reason I blamed him.
"Because then I would've lost my property" He replied blankly.
"Your property?" I asked angrily.
Xavier squeezed his eyes in frustration regretting his choice of words. "Not like that"
"I'm gonna go get some food" Xavier said pulling up at a convinent store.
He took his seatbelt off and was about to get out when Richard slid Xavier's seatbelt back on.
"Steve and I are gonna go get some food and you two are gonna sort this out" Richard said slowly as if we where babies trying to understand him. He looked at us sternly waiting for us to agree.
"Fine" I agreed not entirely liking this idea.
Richard shifted his eyes to Xavier.
Xavier looked angry. "I am your boss you know that"
Richard wasn't affected by this. "And I am your friend doing you a favour"
There was a pause. "Fine" He mumbled.
"Good girls" Richard said smiling, making sure to ruffle Xavier's hair.
Xavier death glared at him but Richard ignored him and shut the door.
"Property" I mimicked venomously.
We then sat there in silence.
Xavier sighed. "Look, I'm sorry for saying that. You're more than just property. Truce?" Xavier asked holding his hand out.
I stared at him like he was crazy. "Truce? Are you serious. Your acting like we're primary school kids playing a game of tigi"
"What do you want us to be then?"
"Friends maybe" I offered.
He sighed and repeated the lines. "Look, I'm sorry for saying that. You're more than just property. Friends?"
I couldn't help but burst out with laughter. "Yo-you ju-just ap-apologised" I sputtered out. I swear one day I'll record him saying that. I wiped an invisible tear away.
"Look, I'm sorry for saying that. You're more than just property. Friends?" I mimicked in a high pitched voice.
"I do not sound like that" Xavier replied.
"I never said you did" I replied laughing at him again.
"Ha-ha, so funny" Xavier said in a girly voice which was so high pitched.
"If you're trying to be Isabelle, your doing a great job at it" I said thinking about her girly voice. I remember when she had a perfectly normal voice and then the next day she had an awful girly voice. Probably got it from Lacy. I shuddered at that thought.
I soon realised that Richard and Steve were walking out of the convenient store.
"Lock the car" I said quickly to Xavier looking away from them.
Xavier gave me a confused expression but locked the car.
He followed where I was looking and finally got what I was saying.
I started looking elsewhere. The only thing that I could find to do was to do my shoelace.
I heard the car handle opening and closing but to much luck it wouldn't opened. I started to snicker but stopped when I realised that it would give it away.
I heard bickering around. Then there was knocking on Xavier's car window. I kept doing my shoelace. But I looked up and caught a glance to see Xavier on his phone not daring to look up. Smart move.
About a minute later the knocking stopped. Then it started again but on my window.
I took my time sitting back up and stretched. I then looked out the window and saw Richard standing there impatiently. I saw Steve standing behind him leaning on a wall enjoying the sunlight with his sunglasses on.
I tried to look surprised as I waved at them.
"Open the door" Richard said.
I squinted my eyes and mouthed I-cant-hear-you. But in fact I could. He was literally screaming.
"OPEN THE DOOR" Richard yelled slightly raising his voice and saying it slower so I could understand.
"What?" I mouthed again.
Richard sighed in anger. Steve put his hand on Richards shoulder and shook his head. Richard looked at him in confusion.
"Please open the door" Steve said calmly, in the right tone and at a normal pace.
I nodded my head acting like I understood. I reached over Xavier and unlocked the car door.
"You could've just said to open the door" I said in a duh tone which received an annoyed groan from Richard.
When the amusement died down I sat in silence trying to push the pit in my gut away. I closed my eyes trying to compose myself.
You're okay, I kept saying in my head. I tried to stop thinking about Damien but the thoughts kept running back.
Every time something bad happens to me, I push away everything and everyone. I just forget about the issue like it never happened. It's a habit; my dad, the bullying at school and the issues with mum. I did this with everything and it's not good, because it always comes back later and hurts me the hardest.
But thinking about Damien pained me so I did the same thing I do with everything. The reason I shut off to everyone and the reason why I'm so damaged. No wonder why my dad didn't want me and sold me.
"Are you okay?" I turned my head to Xavier who glanced at me slightly worried.
I gave him a small reassuring smile, having mastered it from every other time I've had to fake it. "I'm fine" I lied smoothly and stared out the window.
Yet I knew Xavier's lingering eyes meant he could see straight passed it and I hated it. If he knows I'm lying and can see straight through it, then he can surely see how broken I am.
I took a deep breath, you're okay.
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