song for this chapter : love is embarrassing by Olivia Rodrigo
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In june a wave of my past made us talk more
Talking to you was always a hidden desire
There was always a part of me that wanted it
But I never thought about it
Maybe if I needed you earlier
Things would be better now
Maybe you would see me the way I see you
I am not asking for a date with flowers
I am not asking for a kiss
I am not asking to be your girlfriend
I just deeply appreciate your company
And I want to actually get to know you
Sometimes you disappoint me
Maybe it is because you are not corresponding to what I thought you were
to what I thought you could be for me
Sometimes you make me feel stupid
Or maybe I have the need to feel a little less sane around you
Can I blame you ? No