I am certainly trying to heal or cope with the pain
Because sometimes I feel like I cannot be ok again
like there is no cure
Like I am incurable
I feel a void
I feel lazy
Tired mentally and physically
I wonder if this is a terrible addiction to tears
I feel like I do not have the capacity to make people happy
Maybe I am not a safe space
Even my best traits are starting to get erased
Maybe I am disobbeying my essence
What if being sad is my comfortable spot?
I cannot analyze this
It is a cicle
I feel like I do not fit in anything that is stable because I am the opposite
Sadness is the most common and frequent thing I feel
I feel like my mistakes are my personality
I guess a part of me chooses to live in pain
It seems easier
I am now a big dark wound
And I never let it become a scar
I am an emotional mess