song for this chapter : the grudge by Olivia Rodrigo
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I said and I felt that I did not want you anymore
I said and I felt that I did not miss you
I said and I felt that it did not matter
But days pass by and I feel empty
I just wonder what I did wrong
When I was just trying to be the best version of myself for you
Thinking about you used to be beautiful but now it is sad
It makes my soul scream
I hate you for what you did but I love you
I love what we had
But I guess I cannot call it real
If you were lying about yourself all the time like you told me
I never really knew you
and that kills me
I guess I fell in love with a fantasy
Because you said that you were not being yourself
And you said it was my fault
How dare you ?
You broke more than my heart
You took away my self respect
You hurt me in the most painful and anxious way
You are unreal
You are hypothetical
We were hypothetical
We were a maybe
A dream
It was never stable enought
I was never stable enough
I want to scream and fight and tell you that all you did was wrong
I want to kiss you and bring you back to me
bring back the old you
You took away my light