the long awaited...
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"sam." i cooed lightly, attempting to wake her up. she was laying right on top of me and i had to pee.
i got a low groan in return, but no movement. i sighed and looked around my room, as if i would find a solution that way. i obviously did not.
"sam i have to pee." i whispered, nudging her torso. she stirred a bit and soon after her eyes fluttered open. the sunlight peeking through the windows made her wince and close them back.
"g'morning," and sam looked up at me, smiling faintly.
"g'mornin."
we both sat up and i shimmied from underneath her. the cold tile in the bathroom gave me goosebumps as i stepped in. i went to the toilet to release my bodily fluids, flushing and washing my hands afterwards. i headed back to my room where i found sam stretched out in the bed. i joined her, cuddling into her side and entangling our legs.
"are your parents up yet?" sam asked. i looked over at my clock for the time.
8:07
"they're probably getting ready for work, we'll go down there in a minute...", and my eyes trailed down to her stomach "you need to ice your back later." i countered.
"that's gonna hurt." she replied plainly.
"it started hurting bad?" i asked.
"yeah, it's throbbing." she replied, giving me a weak smile, the cut on her lip completely visible now.
"i'm sorry your dad did this to you. this is not ok at all..." i trailed off, tracing the bones of her her rib cage. sam didn't say anything, but after a minute her jaw fixed to speak.
"i know you are, but it's really nothing anyone could've done to stop it. shit could've gone way worse than it did, but i'm ok ." she told me calmly. i took hold of her hand and rubbed her knuckles, placing a soft kiss on them.
i wanted to say something else but the words wouldn't formulate in my head. so, i'm giving her the best non-verbal comfort i know how.
we both settled into the comfortable silence. i let my heavy eyelids close and listened to faint sound of sam's heartbeat. speaking of her heart, something else came to mind.
last night she said "i love you", or at least i think she did. i could one hundred percent just be delusional, but it does make me think. i feel a strong connection with her, and i have love for her like i've never had for anyone else. i do love sam, but am i in love with her? i think she's a beautiful soul, and i am inherently attracted to sam. my heart knows it before my mind does. not only physically, but mentally, romantically and sexually. i want to know her on all levels, as deep as i can get, and i hope the feeling is mutual.
i glanced over at the clock again.
8:31
"bubba, they're probably in the kitchen now, come on." sam sighed and sat up, bringing me with her. i pushed myself up from the bed and made my way to the door. sam got up but stood awkwardly by my dresser. i looked at her with a blank expression, obviously in confusion.
"i need a shirt..." it was then i noticed she was almost half naked.
"right," and i hurried over to find her a shirt in my dresser. i grabbed the biggest one i could find and handed it to sam. after slipping it on, the both of us headed downstairs.
my mom was grabbing her lunchbox from the fridge and my dad was talking her head off about some sports game, the usual. at this point she's mastered the art of tuning him out.
sam and i made our entrance into the kitchen and both of their heads turned to us.
"g'morning mama, dad." i went to give them both hugs.
"good morning, mr. and mrs. jordan." sam greeted them also. my mom gave her a comforting smile, gesturing for her to come closer.
sam hesitantly walked up to her and my mom analyzed her face, no doubt seeing the cut on her lip. she glanced at me with a look that said "is this what i think it is?"; i nodded curtly. a look of sadness and anger crossed her face, putting two and two together. sam broke her sympathetic gaze and grabbed her hands.
"thank you for letting me stay over last night, the both of you," and she nodded over at my dad. he shook his head, waving her off.
"sam you're welcome anytime, ok?"
"ok." sam grinned and my mom squeezed her hands once more before turning back around to tend to her work bag.
"we'll be back around the same time tonight, you two be at this house before then, unless you've asked and we said otherwise."
school was in today, but given the circumstances, i'm assuming my parents weren't making us go. we woke up late anyways so it was really no point in going now.
i gave her a salute, "yes ma'am."
she playfully rolled her eyes at me and grabbed her things from the counter, my dad following suit. they said their goodbyes and we walked them to the door, blowing obnoxious kisses until they got in their cars. once they pulled out of the driveway i closed and locked the door.
sam and i had the house to ourselves.
"sooo, you wanna go watch a movie or something?" sam asked, sticking both of her pointer fingers together and swaying back and forth.
i giggled at her, "yeah we can watch one later, but right now we need to ice that back."
i grabbed sam's hand and dragged her to the kitchen with me. i didn't think we had ice packs so i went to the freezer and grabbed a frozen pack of string greens.
sam assumed the position and lifted herself up on the counter. i stood between her legs and held the ice pack against her lower back; my arms instinctively wrapped around her.
"you know i can do this on my own, right?" sam asked, messing with my nose ring.
"yes i do, but i want to." i simply replied. sam just shrugged and let me continue.
"you're mom is really nice, even though i know she knows, i can tell she's not doing it primarily out of pity," and i nodded in agreement.
"yeah she's not like that. she's really kind and usually believes everyone deserves the best, regardless of their situation at the moment. i've never really seen her do anything out of pity." i replied.
"i can tell."
we sat silently as i iced her back in five-minute intervals.
"... can you take this shirt back off?" i asked, avoiding eye contact. sam looked like she was going to question it but didn't. she slid it off with ease and brought me closer in her arms, her breathe against my cheek.
i could feel the warmth radiating off of our bodies, just like last night, and i had that same fuzzy feeling in my tummy.
"this, skin-to-skin, i think was one of the reasons i slept so well last night. your body is just so, body-like? i'm sorry, that doesn't even make sense." she chuckled sheepishly and i shook my head.
"no it makes sense, i feel the same way. it's just hard.. putting words to it." i said.
sam suddenly reached and removed my hand with the frozen bag from her back. i raised my eyebrows in question and she just avoided my gaze.
"i told you i loved you last night. i don't know if you had already fell asleep or not, but incase you did, i'm telling you now." she said, grinning down at her fingers. i glanced at her shyly, trying to control the smile that wanted to surface.
"yes i heard it." i started, "and i thought about it this morning because i know i love you, but i'm not sure i'm in love with you yet. i don't wanna tell you something i don't mean." i told her honestly.
there was no point in sugar coating it or lying. communication is a big part of a relationship and if i don't tell her what i feel i can't expect her to know.
said girl nodded at my response.
"that's absolutely fine. i don't wanna rush you to feel things that you don't feel. i just wanted to make sure you knew it, because i really do love you," and she softly grabbed my chin. we glanced back and forth at each other's eyes, then lips.
"kiss me?" i asked. she responded by pressing her lips against mine.
my hands traveled subconsciously, making their way up the back of her shirt. one of hers stayed on my chin and the other went to my lower back. we pulled each other closer and closer, until there was no more space to close. our lips moved in sync and the rest of our bodies went along.
i felt myself running out of breathe and she was too, but neither of us wanted to let go. i started to pull away but sam let out a low "no," and my knees buckled. she tightened her grip on my lower back to steady me, and we finally pulled away.
the only sound throughout the kitchen was us panting lightly, trying to catch our breaths. once we did, i couldn't even make eye contact without feeling myself get flustered.
"your moan is pretty." she commented.
"sam, shut uppp."
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