Punguzhali Pov:
I again stood before mirror and kept checking on myself.
I adjusted the saree pleat.
"Shoot kuzhal, you are looking good, stop checking yourself" i says to myself.
Argh even i started to call myself as kuzhal instead of kuzhali.
I then walked down after sometime and waited for his car.
After 40 mins i heard the car honk.
My heart started to beat very fastly.
Soon the car stopped before me, there he get down from the car. I immediately walked towards him more or like runned towards him and hugged him dearly.
"Hy kuzhal." he shouts while hugging me back.
"I missed you so much" i says to him by crying in his embrace.
"Oh stop crying kuzhal am here now look." he says to me.
I wiped my tears, i wasnt readied for this at all. Shit.
Why the heck did i opened my dam. For sure he will pull my legs on this crying matter.
Arghh.
"It was just a dust nothing else" i says to him while wiping my tears.
"Yeah yeah dust on both eyes." he says while kissing my forehead.
"Y... Y... Yes"
With that we both entered into our room.
"Wow, finally my room" he says and lied on the bed.
"By the way kuzhal, when you started to be like a woman?" he asks me.
I looked at him.
'She is not a woman.'
'She is just a woman on name'
'She is a barren woman.'
'Do you think she can satisfy any man?. No she cant.'
"Kuzhal" i came out of ny shocking state.
"Amm. A.. A... Am sorry kuzhal." he says to me while hugging me.
"Am sorry."
"Am sorry." he says to me and maklde me to lean on his chest.
"I was just tried to pull your legs thats it. It was meant to be a harmless joke after seeing you in saree. 'he says to me.
He kept asking me the sorry.
" I... Its fine... Am.. Am sorry. I was just triggered. I u... Was, actually is still hearing these words which sometimes shows me the reality. I.. I.. These are like a bullying words to me." i told to him.
"Am sorry. Shit. I was just meant to say for you being in saree. You wont wear it usually. Today seeing you in saree so i just asked you casually. "
I nods on his chest
"Its fine. I.. Just got readied... As today is our 1st anniversary" i says to him.
"Shit am really sorry, am sorry. I totally forget. "
He wiped my tears and kissed my forehead.
"You are looking good by the way."
"Its because am eating good food unlike you." i says to him.
He glared at me.
"Okay from now on i will not take you to any restarants. Even i wont cook any of my specaial reciepe including cake to you." he says.
"No no... I.. I. Was just kidding" i says at him.
"No you shouldnt be having unhealthy foods right."
"Look i was just kidding"
"Okay, fine. Since its going to be our anniversary i will prepare the cake for you."
Till evenging he took a nap, then he took me to theatre, restaurant and finally we are here in our home we are preparing the simple cake around 11 clock in night.
" You sure you know how to bake a cake? " i asks him while licking the chocolate which he melted for preparing the cake.
"Will you stop eating the chocolate syrup meabt the melted chocolates ?" he angrily says to me.
"We are running out of chocolates." he says to me. I just sheepishly smiles at him.
"I wont touch hereafter." i says to him.
"What are you doing now?" i asks him while placing my hand on his shoulder
He looked at my fingers.
"What?"
"You ruined my favourite shirt" he shoits at me.
Then I looked properly only to see the chocokate stain on his shirt.
"i.. Oww. I.. Its your mistake."
"How could it be my mistake?"
"Its becayse of you, you only didnt allowed me to lick my fingers properly. Now see what happened?" i just came up with a lame excuse.
"You" he shouts by dippping his fingers on the syrup and looked at my end.
"No no.. What you are thinking is wrong thiraviam... Mine is designer saree. And it is my favourite. My mumma bought it for me..." before i complete it he stained my sraee w8th his fingers.
"Youuuu" i shouts and just grabbed the bowl with some flour and emptied it on his head.
"You kuzhal, stop there." he says while running behind me.
"No no"
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"I cant please... Pl.. Please" i says while kneeling down on the floor.
"You kuzhal" he says while taking me in his arms and hugged me to transfer the flour on me.
"Please.. D. Dont" i says in between my breath and tried to escape from his hold but i couldnt able to becuase my knees are paining like hell as we bith runned all over tha hall and kitchen.
*Notification tone*owen stopped.
"Cake is ready" i shouts at him.
"Yes" he says with a heavy breath.
"Come" he says and grabbed me along with me.
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"Wish for something" he tells me.
"Even you wish" i says to him.
With that we both blow the candles and then cut the cake in our bedroom onlu us.
"Happy anniversary." he says to me.
"Happy anniversary"
With that he showd me the cake piece near my mouth. I opened my mouth and he feed me a piece of his cake.
"How was it!" he asks me.
"Wow, better resign your VP position and open a bakery." i says to him while moaning.
He laughed at me.
Then i made him eat from my hand.
"Thank you" i says to him.
He kissed my forehead.
"Am sorry for ruinuing your day partially." he says to me while referring the morning incident.
"You are a very good person. Am glad i accepred for this marraige and most importantly am happy for asking your friendship. This happiness is all becauss of you." he says while hugging me.
Even i wrapped my hands tightly over him.
I kept looking at him, who was now started to tell so much which was happened inhis work place fir past 1 and half month. But i stopped hesring him, instead i keot seeing him.
My heart started to beat really fast.
This closeness, on our bed really stirring something inside me.
To be with him forever.
'Its not out of friendship'
'Its more than that.' i sighed.
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"Here have this." swapna says to me.
"Eat kuzhali" she says to me.
But i kept fidgeting.
"What happ...." before she complete.
"I think i love him" i told to her.
She first looked at me confusedly.
Then her face broked into a smile.
"Hy kuzhali why are you crying?" she asks me, i just wiped my tears and nods as no.
"I dont know."
"He will not accept me"
"He is just se.. See.. Seeing..... *Hiccup* m.. Me.. *Hiccup* as.. *Hiccup * fr.. Friend" i says to her who is now hugging me whereas i cries.
"Shhh stop crying kuzhali" she says to me.
But instead of stopping, my tears were kept falling.
After sometime
"Are you feeling okay now?" she asks me, as my tears are dried by now.
"Now tell me kuzhali, what happened that you are now saying me that you are loving your best friend aka husband?" she asks me.
"Until ysterday you was not accepting it."
"I was just trying to protect my heart. But it seems it was already captured it from me."
"I was just trying to lie myself for past 1 month. "
"But yesteray... Y.. Yesterday.. Wh.. When i seen him after a month and half i relaised that how much i love him. I have never ever felt that much emptiness just because of not seeing a person for a period of time. Our long distance, showed me that how much of lie i was telling to myself to protect my heart from breaking as soon as i met him yesterday. "
" I havent seen a huma being who supported me like this swapna. "
" He. Ie.. Is someone who i never ever dreamt off "
"I wasnt dreamt for a mariage. But i got married . And i havent ever thought about my better half, but i got him as mine. Who is nothing but down to earth. He was nothing but a gentleman."
"He is not conversing with his parents because of my issue. But he never even once bringed it up with me."
"I feel terible for separating. "
"H.. He took me to many places, he took with him to trip. He took me to his favourite place, he took me to his and his late wife favourite place. He shared his every secrets. He talks freely. He acts freely. To be honest he is just a kid himself who is thriving for care, time and love. "
"I want to be the person to show him the care. "
" Even love. "
" But"i stopped .
"What happened kuzhali?"
"He will not accept me. "
"Why are you saying like this kuzhali?"
"Because he still clearly loving his late wife, swapna. He will never see me as his wife, but only as his best friend thats it. "
"But i want more than being his best friend. " i cries at her chest without Knwoing what to do.
"Maybe just open up kuzhali with him." she says.
I nods as no.
"He will just simply walk away and stop speaking with me. He accepted this marriage because i was also not looking for anything in the marraige."
"Now if i.. I.. I.. Go and say that am... Loving hi.. Him means he will just leave me and he will not speak with me. What not he will not even see me he will just like that leave his home and start to stay in some other place rather. "
"Shh, stop crying. " she says to me.
"Why i even love him?. Why cant we be friends. Why didnt i stopped my heart from falling for him. But i did tried though, i tried hard. But he didnt left any chance to let me hate him. He is such a charmer. Any girl will fall for him. Shreya was one lucky woman who got his love."i says with a laugh.
" Am his wife just in papers thats it swapna "
" Am feeling terrible. "
"I need him."
"I neee him."
"I think everyone is right. Am not meant for love, marriage, anything. My dad is right. My dad is right."
"Stop with your bullshits kuzhali. Who knows kuzhali, he will also love you. Please stop crying."
"Everyone is right, am not a woman. I shouldnt be loving anyone. I shouldnt, as am. Not meant for love. I think am going to ruin my friendship too. " i kept saying watever comes into my mind.
"Kuzhali please stop crying." she says to me.
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Thiraviam Pov:(Time skipped)
"Hy kuzhal" i calls her as i just walked into our room.
"I was waiting for you on the hospital only to get to know from your friend that you already left to home. What happened kuzhal, I messaged you right saying that i will pick you up then why?" i asks her.
She just looked at me. She looks really tired for some reason.
"Are you not feeling well kuzhal?" i asks her.
"No a.. Am fine" she says while standing on her feet from bed.
"Tell me kuzhal..." i says and tried to grab her hand but she just walks into the bathroom.
What happened to her?
Did someone said anything?.
I sighed.
With that i walked to the kitchen to prepare a coffee.
"Here kuzhal" i says and showed her the coffee.
"I.. I... Dont want i... It." she says to me
"Kuzhal, if you are not feeling well. I think we should be going to hospital." i says to her.
"No...n..no its nothing... Just.... Tired. Thats it.. I will be sleeping." she says and lie down on the bed leaving me in pool of questions .
I kept standing before her without knowing what happened. After sometime i just covered the quilt prpperly on her and started to work.
By morning, i just woke up only to see the empty on her side.
She is not here.
What happened to her?
'Is she having some heavy work?'
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Its been a week, she is not at all speaking properly. Leave about talking, am not even able to meet her peoperly.
I messaged her, even i tried calling her. But no she is not at all responding properly.
She is driving me nuts.
With that i drived to her hospital and gone to reception and asked for my wife.
"Sir she is in operstion theatre. It will take more hours." receptionist says.
I sighs.
"Thanks" i says and walked out.
"Atleast i should meet swapna to ask about her. Atleast she may aware." with that i walked inside only to meet kuzhal who is talking to receptionist.
"Thanks selvi." she says to the receptionist, her eyes gone big after seeing me.
"Will you follow me now?" i asks her in gritted voice.
She shockedly nods at me.
I speedily drived to the beach. All through the drive, she did tried to speak but i asked her stop.
After reaching i just grabbed her near the water .
"Tell me why are you purposely avoiding me?" i shoutingly asked her as soon as we both reached.
"I..ai..aint avoiding you... I... I.. Had some work... I.. Am not avoid..."
"Stop with your bullshit lies." i shouts at her.
"Did i did any mistakes?" i franfically asks her. This one week was really tough to me without her talks.
"Tell me kuzhal"
But she tutned away.
"Stop crying and tell me god dammit. What have i done to you?. Why are you crying?. Tell me god dammi...." she cut me off.
"Am not able to act before you" she says in her low voice.
"What acting kuzhal?"
"What happened to you?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Because am not just looking you as my best friend."
I confusedly looked at her.
"What are you mea..."
" Am looking you more than as a friend."
"Am not getti..."
"Am loving you." her words dropped like a bomb on my head.
"What are you sa..."
"I said i love you."
"I love you so much." she says by looking into my eyes.
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