Chapter 13: Her

Chaos In My MindWords: 1349

"She shouldn't be your role-model"

"Yourself is who you should be"

I know, but it doesn't feel that way

I know, but it's hard to see

A princess and a fighter

I'd always fight for you

We entered the world together

You know that it is true

You seem to me so perfect

You make me feel so weak

While your appreciation

Is all my heart does seek

I am not needed in this world

Don't know what life will be

But when I think about my future

Fear is all I see

You always stay so calm

I wish I was like you

Right now, admiring you there

Is all that I can do

I cannot be like you. But why?

I know that I can try

But you'll always be better

I know that I don't matter

To you now, if even ever

I wanna be like you

I will stop trying never

And all the things you do

Make me feel so weak

It makes me feel an idiot

I know I'm such a freak

Life as you so easy seems

I live as you, deep in my dreams.

But I know deep down it's not true

I have my own path to pursue

It's easy to get lost in somebody else's shine

But I must remind myself, that her path isn't mine

So I'll try to embrace my differences, my quirks

And pursue my own dreams, whatever the works

For even if we're connected by blood

My own journey is mine, my own unique flood

She may be my guide

But my own destiny, I must decide

I'll always love her, that's true

But my own heart, I must learn to listen to