Kim Jung-hyun was, in many ways, a sheltered girl.
Having grown up as a delicate flower in the confines of a grand hanok, her experience in the broader world was severely lacking.
While her determination and ability to act decisively were impressive by any standard,
her privileged upbringing often held her back.
âThe quintessential rich girl, it seems.â
Her awkwardness and inexperience became evident whenever she ventured into the unfamiliar.
These qualitiesâher clumsiness and naivetyâwere what Kim Jung-hyun found most humiliating about herself.
For instance, her lifelong misunderstanding of the word Love was one thing,
but an unintentional confession of love? That was beyond mortifying.
As someone accustomed to being treated with reverence, she was conscious of maintaining her image as a proper "lady."
Thus, whenever her awkwardness resulted in unintended consequences, she would turn red with embarrassment.
Ha-eun, in her role as Kim Jung-hyun, had to embody this sense of shame.
âEmbarrassmentâ¦â
However, Ha-eun had rarely acted out such emotions before.
Perhaps it was because she herself had little tolerance for the feeling of embarrassment.
It wasnât until yesterday that she truly grasped this new emotion.
While Baek Tae-hoonâs praise confirmed she had portrayed the emotion effectively,
understanding it on a personal level was a different matter entirely.
Experiencing and understanding new emotions was never something Ha-eun found easy.
Whenever she found herself stepping into unfamiliar territory like this, it brought about a flood of thoughts.
The lingering emotional residue from her performance was stronger than usual this time.
Kim Jung-hyunâs embarrassment, which had taken hold of Ha-eun during the shoot, refused to dissipate.
âMaybe I got too into character.â
She shook her head lightly, trying to dispel the heat rising to her face.
The memories of the previous nightâs cringe-worthy moments floated to the surface like soap bubbles, taunting her.
Despite her efforts, the emotional turmoil refused to subside.
It seemed she had overextended herself while channeling this unfamiliar feeling for her performance.
By the time the next scene was set to begin, there was only one minute left.
Still tangled in her thoughts, Ha-eun finally made a decision.
Step.
She stepped in front of the camera, her emotions still raw.
She chose to portray Kim Jung-hyunâs ongoing turmoil as authentically as possible,
allowing her lingering embarrassment to shape her performance.
She aimed to fully embody Kim Jung-hyunâs inner turmoil,
while also using this opportunity to explore how far she could push her own limits in portraying embarrassment.
âIâll reward myself with cake later,â she decided,
knowing the strain of such an emotionally intense performance would leave her drained.
With the directorâs Action cue, the scene began.
âTsk, the old man who raged at every minor scratch is strangely silent about a gunshot wound.â
âHe thinks it was my mistake. Please donât reveal the truth you know.â
The official story was that Kim Jung-hyunâs injury resulted from a hunting accident, not an assassination attempt.
Her grandfather, Kim Ja-gyeom, used the injury as an excuse to confine her to the inner quarters of the hanok.
Even allowing Park Joo-ho access to her room was part of this strategy to keep her inside.
Better she read foreign books indoors than risk another incident involving an American firearm outside.
However, as Park Joo-hoâs "alphabet lessons" dragged on...
âWhy do you keep repeating the section on L?â
âI-I havenât fully mastered it yet. Itâs definitely not for any other reason!â
The time Kim Jung-hyun spent alone with Park Joo-ho in her small room continued to stretch on.
Haunted by the "Love" incident, she found herself stealing glances at him more frequently.
Over time, her focus shifted. The letters in the textbook began to matter less than Park Joo-hoâs gaze.
She cared more about what he was thinking than the words in the American books.
To Kim Jung-hyun, Park Joo-ho was an enigmaâsomeone whose significance she couldnât quite define.
Though he often appeared disapproving, he never cut ties with her or abandoned her.
On the day her injury worsened, it was Park Joo-ho who brought a skilled doctor to her side.
Perhaps that was why...
âEnough about the alphabet. Why donât you tell me about yourself today?â
Deciding to confront her growing feelings head-on, Kim Jung-hyun resolved to learn more about him.
She turned her head slightly, her cautious gaze fixed on Park Joo-ho.
Her eyes briefly dropped to her hands, noticing how her fingers fidgeted unconsciously.
Finally, she let her tangled emotions spill forth.
âLooking back, Iâve only ever asked things of you. I never tried to learn about you.â
Her voice, tinged with a faint tremor, carried a mix of guilt, curiosity, and affection.
The rawness of her feelings, unfiltered and laid bare, seemed to ask Park Joo-ho for guidance.
But Baek Tae-hoon, embodying Park Joo-ho, responded with icy detachment,
reinforcing the emotional distance between their characters.
âItâs not an interesting story.â
He recounted the hardships of fleeing to America as a child to escape those who pursued him,
and the struggles of surviving in a foreign land where he didnât even speak the language.
Kim Jung-hyunâs small voice finally broke the silence.
âIâve reopened an old wound, havenât I? â¦What can I possibly say to make it right?â
The embarrassment she conveyed this time was of a different kindâsincere and apologetic.
For a moment, Park Joo-hoâs steadfast gaze wavered, caught off guard by her genuine remorse.
âIn the end, itâs all my fault for rejecting your help back then. Youâve been so patient with meâ¦.â
Her flushed cheeks and trembling voice mirrored the embarrassment of her earlier mistake,
but this time, there were no excuses. No justifications.
âFrom now on, do as you wish. You donât have to come here again. Iâll speak to Grandfather myself.â
With those words, she relinquished all control to Park Joo-ho,
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His unwavering resolve, forged by the tragedy of his parentsâ deaths, began to shift ever so slightly.
Not long after, Hanson Arnold, a missionary and Kim Jung-hyunâs confidant, began visiting her regularly.
This, too, was orchestrated by Kim Ja-gyeom, a calculated move to keep her tethered to the hanok.
âEveryone admires you, Miss Jung-hyun. Mr. Kim, in particular, has spoken highly of you.â
âComrade Kim? Really?â
âYes.â
As a missionary who genuinely cared for Joseon, Hanson was a vital ally to the independence movement.
His presence also bridged the gap between Kim Jung-hyun and her fellow freedom fighters.
Meanwhile, Park Joo-ho watched from the sidelines, his expression unreadable.
Though he respected Hanson for saving his life as a child,
he couldnât help but feel uneasy about the growing connection between Hanson and Kim Jung-hyun.
âWhy are you so eager to throw yourself into danger? Wouldnât it be easier to stay under your grandfatherâs protection?â
âSomeone has to do this.â
âIt doesnât have to be you.â
âNor did it have to be any of the others. They acted because they believed it was their duty.â
âAnd so do I.â
Her quiet determination deepened the complexity of Park Joo-hoâs expression.
Despite being given the choice to leave her behind, he continued to stay.
Though he wished she would abandon the path of resistance, he knew her resolve was unshakable.
So, on the day news arrived that her comrades were in dangerâ¦
âI donât care what happens to me, but could you help them?â
Her voice quivered, her head bowed in shame.
Even so, she dared to ask him for help once more.
The girl, who was ashamed of her past, now carried the burden of shame for the sake of freedom.
In the end, even Park Joo-ho, once disillusioned with Joseon, couldnât help but look toward the ideal of liberty.
Finally, on that fateful night...
âHaa.â
Click.
With Kim Jung-hyun confined to the hanok,
Park Joo-ho set out to rescue her comrades in her stead.
For the first time in years, the empty revolver he carried was loaded with bullets.
***
âYour performance was sharp today. Good work.â
Baek Tae-hoonâs satisfied voice followed the sceneâs completion, which had wrapped up flawlessly in a single take.
Catching her irregular breaths, Ha-eun returned the sentiment with a polite, âThank you for your hard work today.â
A little while later, Joo Jung-yoon approached, holding the small slice of cake Ha-eun had asked for earlier.
Only after taking a bite and savoring the soft sweetness melting in her mouth did the tightness in her chest begin to ease.
However, it had been a long time since Ha-eun had requested something sweet.
Naturally, this piqued Jung-yoonâs curiosity as to why she had pushed herself to such an emotional performance.
And so, the question came.
âDid you just confess your love to Baek Tae-hoon or something?â
As Ha-eunâs manager, Jung-yoon was aware of the on-screen relationships in The Sunshine, so the question wasnât entirely out of left field.
Still, Ha-eunâs response leaned more toward denial.
âI was a bit flustered during the shoot, but no, I havenât confessed anything like that.â
âThen whatâs the deal?â
âWell⦠letâs just say I kept sending him âlove callsâ until he picked one up.â
Ha-eun reflected that she might have let her emotions get the better of her.
But before she could elaborate further, Jung-yoon cut her off, telling her to finish her cake first.
As someone who knew Ha-eun well, Jung-yoon understood that sweets helped calm her down.
The conversation shifted away from The Sunshine and onto the upcoming recording of Infinite Challenge Song Festival,
an effort to redirect Ha-eunâs focus as they climbed into the managerâs van.
âThis time, all the mini-games involve a lot of movement, so dress comfortably,â Jung-yoon advised.
âCan I wear sweats, then?â Ha-eun asked.
ââ¦Not that comfortably. Letâs keep it reasonable.â
Jung-yoon explained the outfit guidelines for the recording day:
flexible enough for physical activities but stylish enough to reflect Ha-eunâs charm as a female singer.
Of course, knowing Ha-eunâs boundless energy all too well, Jung-yoon felt compelled to add:
âIf you tear your clothes, itâll be a total disaster. Donât overdo it, okay?â
ââ¦Fine.â
âWait, why the hesitation? Keep this up, and Iâll make you wear a dress.â
âOkay, okay, I get it! Iâll be careful!â
Determined to prevent any wardrobe malfunctions caused by Ha-eunâs enthusiasm,
Jung-yoonâs nagging persisted right up until the recording day of Infinite Challenge Song Festival.
The dayâs line-up was packed with popular idols and solo male singers, each boasting massive fanbases.
While the regular cast of Infinite Challenge was accustomed to the chaos,
Jung-yoon was particularly concerned about guest singers like Ha-eun accidentally overwhelming the competition.
âIn my day, if a male idol so much as brushed against a female guest, fans would show up at their doorstep to throw insults.â
âNo way, thatâs a bit much⦠isnât it?â Ha-eun replied skeptically.
âItâs true.â
About an hour later, the recording of Infinite Challenge Song Festival began.
The showâs host, Sung Yoo-seok, recapped amusing anecdotes from the preparations so far.
Meanwhile, in the back of Ha-eunâs mind, Jung-yoonâs repeated pleas of âPlease, take it easy!â kept replaying.
âOkay, rock-paper-scissors, winner takes allâletâs go!â
The game to determine the performance order at Gocheok Sky Dome had begun: a hammer game with colorful plastic hammers and steel bowls.
Still somewhat distracted, Ha-eun faced off against a male solo singer who quickly realized he had lost the round.
Clang!
The singer hastily donned a stainless steel bowl as a makeshift helmet.
But the moment Ha-eunâs toy hammer struck the bowl, the sound reverberated through the set.
Thud!
The sturdy bowl dented slightly at the center, despite supposedly absorbing the impact.
Yet Ha-eun frowned, dissatisfied.
âHm, I think I need to swing it faster next time.â
Her comment, devoid of any awareness of wrongdoing, sent a chill through the male singer.
âTime out! Can I request a substitution, please?!â
Desperate, he called for a teammate to take his place,
having seen stars flash in his vision the moment Ha-eunâs hammer connected.
Jung-yoon, watching from the sidelines, buried her face in her hands.
She had warned Ha-eun repeatedly, but now it seemed like the only thing she could do was pray the rest of the show would survive Ha-eunâs enthusiasm.