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Divyansh and Innayat stepped into the pavement of Mr Ishan Verma,s farmhouse. And as soon as they enertered inside the property, they found interior small yet extiquisite, seems like owner made sure to display everyother luxury he got in this place.
It was success party in celebration of Verma,s previous project and since Divyansh was one of his investors, therefore he was also invited.
Most of the guests were well acquitted to Innayat since all these three years she attended everyone other ceremony with Divyansh and met many people belonging to his business circle. And not to mention it was fourth time she is going to meet Mr Verma as she had already seen him in previous gatterings in which they were invited.
" Welcome Mr and Suryavanshi. Why your hands are empty, Lemme ask waiter to bring champagne, maybe mocktail or wine would be best?? " Mr Ishan greeted them enthusiastically which Innayat reciprocated in same way, though Divyansh did with monotone.
" No thanks I,m not thristy and I don't consume wine as you already know, " Divyansh said impassively.
" Then why don't you join us, see everyone is there, " He pointed to man,s seated near bar counter. Divyansh looked at Innayat waiting for any objection but she nodded her head.
" I would be al right. They are just on their way. Divyansh, you should go, " Innayat elucidated him and Divyansh peerd into her eyes but she slightly pushed his shoulder urging him to go.
" If you don't mind Mrs Suryavanshi, I can ask my wife to give you company? " Mr Verma suggested
" No, it's fine Mr Verma, my friend will come over eventually, " Innayat answered because she would definitely feel bored when women only talk about expensive brands.
They proceeded to other side and Innayat,s phone screen lot up with call so she stroded towards garden area since it would be difficult to talk in such a commotion.
" Hello Innu, we are almost there. Where are you guys?? " Shivangi said from the other side.
" Ansh is with his colleagues and I am in garden area. I am thinking of staring at glinting stars in navy blue sky for sometime" Innayat chuckled
" alright, I will phone you once we reach the destination, " Saying this, she disconnected the call.
Putting her phone back, Innayat turned back, however her legs striked with tiny silhouette. She looked down only to meet big doe eyes with long lashes with mischievous gleam in them. Her hairs were styled into two pigtails and wearing floral frock with bunny sandles.
A huge smile crept on Innayt,s face merely having the glimpse of little wonder. It,s been three, they were trying for baby when they came to agree that both are responsible enough to have child.
" Aunty, Are you Rapunzel you've such a long hairs, " The little girl uttered in fascination. Innayat,s eyes held adoration when she knelt down to her level.
"Awwww thank you, but I am not rupunzel. What's your name dear?? " Innayat asked her with gentle tone.
" Meera Verma , age five years.You know I am very smart. I can spell my name correctly and always comes first in my class, " She chimed jumping on her place, proud of her achievements.
" Indeed you are very smart baby, " Innayat chuckled and ruffled her hairs.
" Aunty can you give me your hairs I want them because my hair is soo short, " She pouted making Innayat awed at her sight.
" I cannot but you would have long hairs when you will be grown up, " Innayat retorted with enthusiasm
" Really??? Then I will hair longer hair than yours , " Merra asked and Innayat nodded.
" Woah!!! Aunty do you've prince since you are princess. Will I get prince? If I became princess, " Meera questioned
" Yes, I do have prince and he is very handsome, " Innayat said in her head while thinking about Divyansh.
Innayat was about to answer but both fliched hard, hearing a lady marching towards them, shouting with anguish.
" Meera!!! I told you not to run all around. Why don't you understand now you papa will be upset at me for not watching out for you, " the lady effused
" Mumma, see Aunty is princess she has long hairs like rapunzel, " Meera chimped but her mother silenced her.
" I am Kritika Verma wife of Ishan Verma. I apologize for my daughter's behavior. Meera apologize to Aunty, " Kritika interjected.
" No, she is such a lovely child. She talks so sweet. And I am Innayat Suryavanshi, " Innayat remarked, while creasing Meera cheeks.
" Mumma I am hungry and want candy, "Â Meera grabbed her saree palu wiggling on her place.
" Now where will I find candy?? Wait till we reach home, " Kritika attempted to handle Meera.
" No, No!!! Candies I want candies mumma, " Merra threw tantrums which made Kritika furious and unhappy, knowing well that guest is watching them.
" Shut up!!! You are getting undisciplined dya by day!!! " Kritika gripped her forearm tigtly, making her immobile on one place.
" Please don't scold her, she is just a kid, " Innayat tried to pacify the heated situation.
"I swear kids are such a bother, " Kritika effused to Innayat in grimace. Innayat was taken aback by statement that too coming from lady who herself a mother.
" Why are you saying this? I know Meera is energetic but she is pure hearted therefore can't blame them entirely for her actions. Even we were immature kids once, " Innayat smiled.
" I had Meera, because my mother-in-law pressured me to bare child within one year of marriage. Mrs Suryavanshi, It's headache to have child. And now I am again pregnant, " Kritika exclaimed wearily.
"Mumma!!!! I don,t know b-but I w-want candy!!! Candy!!! " The girl cried but the mother slapped her face again.
" Meera I told you, no candies!!! Is this you behave infront of guests!! See now You are embarrassing your mumma in front of aunty. Now, stop crying!!! its your mistake!! Why you disobey mumma?!!! , " Kritika ranged, pointing her finger at kid scolding her without any mercy.
Innayat felt like crying herself, seeing the kid in hysterical state, yet five year old trying her best to control her sobs and she moved forward shielding Meera " Don't scold her she is just a small kid. "
She tried to calm karitika and turned around rummaged out a mango flavored candie from her purse. Fortunately she had two candies left inside her handbag.
" Here, kiddo see this mango candy is delicious. It's my favorite but I am sharing with you since you don't look cute while crying, " Innayat chirped, kneeling in front of Meera having candy on her palm.
Meera paused her cries and looked at Innayat with big doe eyes which were red from crying. It broke Innayat,s heart, she never saw her parents lifting their hand on her, let alone slapping in front of stranger.
And here she witnessed a five year old getting slapped by her own mother simply asking for a candy infront of guest. The child is small with underdeveloped brain but adults have senses yet they choose to deal with children through violence. Even a tiny child has self esstem and hurting it won't always be in their favour considering future circumstance.
Innayat smiled and urged her palm, Meera,s lips twitched into huge grin and she took the candy " Thank you very much Aunty!!!! "
Meera kissed her cheeks and ran towards her mother who grabbed her hand dragging her back inside the party.
" Wait till all guests leave, then I will punish you. And how could you accept candy from stranger??? Huh?? I restricted you before but you are being mannerless day by day, " Innayat stood there rigid, able to hear her words properly. From her peripheral vision she could see Kritika snatching candy from Meera,s tiny hand.
Innayat felt agony, her heart crushed by whatever she heard and whatever she witnessed. Isn't it ironic? The one who doesn't need something, get blessed with it while the one who is desperate for it, is empty handed?. Wasn't she being more affectionate with child then Kritika. Wasn't she being genuine, reading each and every the text publish regarding child care.
" Then why my womb still remained void whereas the one who treats those precious flowers like a dirt is blessed with another one, " Innayat muttered sadly as if complaining to God about it.
Thinking about all this wasn't helping Innayat, the more she delved into this topic, the more her life began centering on it, to the point Divyansh was getting concerned about her emotional well-being. Her jaw clinched and warm tears begans welling up in her eyes.
Innayat blinked her eyes vigorously as soon as she saw Shivangi approaching her.
She doesn't wanted to bother her sister when she already had idea that Shivangi had gone through many personal problems that she wouldn't share with her.
" Innu, why are you standing here? I called you numerous times, " Shivangi asked her
" Oh, I was with Mrs Verma and my phone was on silent so.. " Innayat said looking at her who was wearing creamy saree with only nuptial chain on her neck and sindoor on her partition.
" Wait... Is something wrong? What happen to you? Did someone said something?? " Shivangi asked her eyes immediately getting darkened in anger by the prospect of someone bullying her sister.
" No Shiva, I am absolutely fine. You and Ansh both are same, always reacting too much when it comes to me, " She remarked with feigned chuckle.
" We don't overreact. It's experience of reading your face which help us to know if something is wrong now tell me, whom I need to kill, " Shivangi sterly asked making Innayat let out chuckle indeed she has best soul sister she could ever wish for.
Innayat inhaled a deep breathe before speaking " Shiva, I met Mrs Verma,s five year daughter. Her name is Meera and you know she had this adorable crooked teeth smile. "
Shivangi didn't interuppted her, allowing her continue talking. She has seen Innayat being sensitive over children topic nowdays especially whenever she sees other women's at her age carrying their own kids.
And her face fallen, whenever some relative advice them to have children now or question about why they didn't had child by now.
" But... she slapped Meera, " Innayat mumbled sadly making Shivangi narrow her eyebrows.
" You know what Shiva, Sometimes our diamond is just a stone on street for some else, " Innayat exclaimed, eyes filled with agony and desperation.
Shivangi remained silent for a moment staring at Innayat who was looking at nothingness with her sour expression. Shivangi could sense the lingering worry for Meera in Innayat but since she wasn't her mother thus she has no right which was stinging her already bitter heart.
" Innu, always remember my words. Not everyone deserves a child and still they get blessed, because ruining one life seems easier than facing the society, " Shivangi asserted, stepping near Innayat and embracing her.
Shivangi rubbed her back, indicating she underatand her, after sometime Innayat broke the hug and Shivangi rubbed her shoulder in comfort " Should I call Jiju? You don't seem fine, "
" Please call him, I want to go home, " Innayat whispered, without meeting her gaze.
Shivangi immediately dialed Divyansh,s number and as soon as he picked the call Shivangi said " Jiju I found Innayat near fountain, Could you please come here?? Yeah, she is fine but she wanted to go back home. Okay, we are waiting, "
She disconnected the call and after sometime Divyansh came outside the door, running towards them. Divyansh came across and examine Innayat,s face whose eyes looked into his but she quickly averted them.
Divyansh gazed fall on Shivangi before saying " He is waiting for you inside, you go. We are taking our leave. "
Divyansh extended his palm infront of her and she gave her hands. They were driving back and the utter silence prevailing them was making Divyansh uneasy. Suddenly he ask the chauffer to stop the car.
"I am getting ice cream for us? Which one you want " Divyansh effused to Innayat in hope.
" I am tired.IÂ want to go home, " Innayat dismissed the idea giving a plain response.
"Okay I got it. We are getting sealed one you can eat after reaching home " Divyansh uttered in optimism but she didn't gave any reaction.
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As soon as they arrived to their mansion, it was already midnight and all servents were inside their quarters. Innayat laid down on bed covering the blanket till her shoulders. Divyansh noticed her unusual actions but didn't interuppted her instead began removing his Rolex.
Innayat at once sat up on bed removing the blanket as if it was suffocating her. She licked her lower lips rocking back and forth in same posture then rose up from her bed abruptly.
Innayat began walking back and forth on floor for a minute. Before Divyansh could say anything, she punched the cushion in frustration.
He didn't understand from where so much agitation is coming. She was quite cheerful
this evening when he was removing knots from her hair for party. When Divyansh saw a lone tear escaping sleekly from the corners of her eyes, he stepped across bed and grasped her face in his rough hands.
" Hey, what happened to my Sugar?? Did someone said something which hurted you, " He asked softly as if talking to a child.
Innayat looked into his eyes like a child who wants to complain about the world which is being unfair to her. But she knew unlike other situations he couldn't bring her what she desired because the thing of her desire is beyond his own grasp.
" I-I..a-am I barren??" She wasn't asking an answer from him but the question itself was enough to shake the ground underneath his feet.
" Why are you asking this.... " Divyansh,s words trailed off as he gulped. His throat felt dry all of sudden.
" I-I f-fear I am....but I am not so why?? Why we are not having our baby?? " Innayat asked him a question which left him speechless. Her words pierced his heart like an arrow. Divyansh couldn't believe what she just said.
" A-Ansh Why she has a child she doesn't deserve??? Why?? Just why?? " Innayat wept bitterly.
" I-I wanted to snatch her from Kritika!!! H-How could she s-slap her soft cheeks?? How c-could she?? Why S-someone like h-her has child and why not me?? Am I worsen than her?? " She wasn't even aware of what she was uttering. It was all sheer range and desperation speaking in it's own language.
Divyansh,s brain registered that she was talking about Meera and her mother Kritika. He realized how worsen her emotional health deteriorated and how sensitive she has became. He blamed himself since this wasn't inevitable if he had observed her yearing over baby properly.
" A-Am I l-lacking somewhere Ansh?? P-Please tell me?? I-I will change it. I will change myself so God will give me baby, Right?? Tell me??? please Ansh???, " Innayat was hysterically weeping.
Divyansh slowly drew her in his embrace and she deepened her face on neck as warm tears falling on both of their skin. His pulse was throbbing loudly along with her loud cries which was making him anxious with each passing second.
Out of sudden she lifted her head and he was horrified by her miserable state but she pulled him into kiss. He was taken aback by her unexpected act however kissed back in an attempt to divert her mind. After few minutes he broke the kiss to stable their breathing, his eyes were closed.
But then he felt her clunching on his shirt as she began kissing his neck and he tried retrived his body back from her in reflex as she was not in her right senses. At once he realzied what was happening and he wanted to stopped whatever she was about to do as she was in triggered state it is not appropriate to engage in intimacy.
He somehow managed to separated her but her fist was tightly gripped on his collar. She was again overwhelmed by emotions.
" P-Please " Her voice broke out. " I-I really w-ant baby. W-Why you are not u-understanding me??? " Numerous tears pouring down her eyes uncontrollably.
Divyansh laid both of them on bed, stroking her forehead in comfort. He didn't know which word would ease her suffering hence he wanted to put her sleep. It worked when she got tired of crying and eventually fall asleep.
Divyansh separated himself when he was certain that she is asleep. He adjusted the blanket properly over her, the dried tears and red cheeks were evident on her fair skin. Slowly his own tears began to stream without any sob, the more he watched her, more it poured down his cheek.
There are rare moment in his life when he felt hurt or more possibly cried" ut in her case, he always feel helplessness, don't know how to alleviate her pain away.
The horror of night subsided as morning greeted both of their faces. when she woke up from her deep slumber and found Divyansh,s side on bed empty. Her face scrunched in surprise only to find him seated on chair with his face sank in his palm
It reminded her the whole thing happen yesterday and she stiffened on her place, unable to speak, only stared at him. As if he realized her gaze, stood up from chair, looking straight into her eyes.
"Innayat, Am I not enough for you? " Divyansh stuttered, his voice was filled with pain.
Innayat looked down in mortification " I am really sorry "
" If I am making to you feel complete then why do you want baby to the point you are hurting yourself and me " His own voice broke out causing Innayat shed tears. In her eyes he was as strong man as her own father and now he was on the verge of breaking out.
Divyansh,s heart was aching seeing her tears but he wanted to address the situation because he couldn't bear her suffocating herself from inside anymore. Divyansh cupped her cheeks, whipping the lone tear with his thumb.
" Baccha look into my eyes, " She heard him and compiled. He kissed her forehead tenderly.
" I don't want you to cry over a child who isn't even born yet, " Divyansh lovingly effused, this time kissing her eyes.
Innayat looked into his eyes then observed his face who was trying to remain strong for both of them but the face was crumbling and the reason of his suffering was her own. His bloodshot crimson eyes were telling the tears he poured silently yesterday night after seeing her devastated state.
Without wasting time, she dropped kisses on his whole face. Oh how could she complain to God when God had already blessed her with best husband anyone could ever get.
She forget the fact that the reason she is free to desire is because she knew there is someone who takes her everyother wish like a oath for himself which he wants to complete no matter what.
" I-I am sorry Ansh. I didn't realized I was being selfish all this while. I hurted you unknowingly by my actions, I am soo sorry, "Â She mumbled her cries subsided long time ago.
" It's all right but please don't stress alot on conceiving. Now will you eat your favorite ice cream, " She nodded with smile. Divyansh breathed out tiredly, kissing her forehead before walking out of the room to fetch her breakfast.
After their breakfast Divyansh went to his office whereas Innayat rested in house since she didn't need to go office today. She had already made her design and need to sent her designs to department head.
When she finally recieved response from department head, she closed her laptop. Without wasting anytime Innayat arrived straight to kitchen. She wanted to cook for Divyansh and seeing her determination once again was giving Daren asthma.
" Can,t you stop her?? " Daren whispered to the headmaid.
" How dare I?? It is her house and don't forget she is our boss. Be quiet, we need to follow her instructions no matter what, " Headmaid snapped at him prompting him to remain quite mentally preparing himself to witness the destruction again.
Innayat thought to make hazelnut banana shake with Aliszzu soÉk to lift Divyansh,s mood. She knew that unlike her he isn't foodie but when it is your favorite meal, it does comfort a person after stressful day.
Innayat found the recepie on internet formus " Okay so for Elisa sabut we need to marinate half mushrooms in yogurt then heat it above fire. Three baby tomatoes and chopped broccoli sauté them in coconut oil until it is golden yet still crunchy. Then put cardamom, pink salt, oregano in one full cup thick curd and mix it in half cup of coconut milk. Put sauteed vegetables and heated mushrooms inside the mixture. Then serve it on pate, garnishing boiled watercress along with few pumpkin seeds and cashews "
Innayat pouted and said " Hmm.. Daren it seems easy. Maybe I can make it at once, "
Hearing her words staff exchanged looks being worried about their lady, though more about the kitchen which wouldn't be in exact state when she is done making meal.
DIVYANSH,S POV
I was driving back home in my Porsche, the speed was in lesser pace than usual. Even after doing my best and indulging myself entire day I was still affected by whatever took place yesterday night. She seemed to understand my words, but I couldn't take out her teary eyes from my mental vision.
That's the fault of having strong long term memory, indeed you don't forget anything. However, you also don't forget the things you want to. I noticed how I am almost past the gateway of mansion and moved car backward. I am worried that she might,ve cried once I was out of house.
I am not someone good in comforting people. The only thing I can do well is giving logical reasoning and throwing reality check. I am failing terribly despite all my attempts to ease her insecurity with my actions and words.
I walked inside the mansion only to hear enormous chaos around whole living area. Bodyguards rushing here and there, carrying stuffs from kitchen.
" What's happening in my mansion???" I roared causing one Bodyguard to halt on his steps.
" Sir actually fire alarm wouldn't stop from beeping, " One Bodyguard stopped after caughting my pressence and explained.
" What??? Where did the fire break out?? " I was shocked hearing this and they didn't bothered to inform me.
" In the kitchen... Actually Ma'am was cooking so......" He retorted back and I understood whose orders they were following.
"What the hell?? She was cooking then what Daren was doing??? " I shouted frimly, about to summon our Chef.
" Boss, actually Daren fainted as soon as he saw kitchen,s condition " Bodyguard instantly answeted, sweating in fear.
" Why did you even let her cook, " I gritted out how dare they allow my wife cook knowing very well she may get injured.
"She ordered only she will cook dinner and she accidentally burnt the kitchen amid so now she is preparing food on electronic heater in backyard, " Bodyguard hesitantly replied in nervousness.
I proceeded towards backyard to search for her, while passing through kitchen I saw it,s condition were terrible. I saw smoke coming out of microwave and slabs full of vegetable peels and oil spilled on floor. Atleast it's a relief that it didn't blasted otherwise my Sugar could've been hurted.
As I reached backyard I was astonished by table arrangement of candle light dinner with a narrciuss flower vase placed on it. Red petals were spreaded in circle around the whole set up with miniature candles on four corners, little far from table.
" Welcome back Ansh, " Sugar came forward engulfing me into hug and I reciprocated it by wrapping my arms around her waist. She moved her head back after a moment, facing me.
" Ansh we will have baby, " my heart plummeneted. It felt heavy enough to carry the weight of her words.
She looked at me, smiled, pinching my cheeks " So what if it's not now. "
I got perplexed by her statements and titled my head in questioning. She broadened a smile and her curled index finger sliding over my nose bridge.
" Duffer~ we are not in hurry so please don't get worried about me. Now I am absolutely fine, " As soon as she said I felt relieved.
I creased her cheeks lovingly, she does care about me as much as I do and this effort is evidence of this.
" Now, let's have our romantic candlelight dinner. You know I made your Aliszzu SoÉk and hazelnut banana shake, " I raised an eyebrow in amusement.
" Aliszzu SoÉk?? Huh?? Not Elisa Sabut?? " I teased and she rolled her eyes
" Obviously now I know how to pronounce it after spending whole day in cooking it, " She answered and I was surprised to know that she spend whole day just to prepare my favorite dish.
She led me towards table and I could see two covered plate and one big glass of shake infront of our chairs.
As we opened the cover, I began digging it inside my mouth and immediately astonished by the taste. It tasted exactly how it was supposed to be. I do agree about little bit far from perfection but the fact she didn't gave up despite soo much blunder is so heartwarming.
" You know it's not necessary to eat if you don't like it, " I assured her who was trying her best not to scrunch her nose while eating dish.
" You never complain once whenever I make you eat my spicy cuisines or sweets. So how can I step back from giving you same treatment. And why shouldn't I? Am I forbidden to taste my own cook skills, " She effused playfully while piercing tomato in fork.
I looked down at my plate, corner of my lips curled into tiny smile. So she did noticed and never forgets even the tiniest actions I do for her. Her appreciation and words of endearment is indication that exchange of feelings among us is same, not less, not more, but equal.
TO BE CONTINUED
â Was about to only summarize this aspect but didn't did so after reading Kim_naami84 comment. I wanted to devle more into emotional turmoil.
â Would try to complete this book before my final exams.
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