"I think it's time Calvin, for you to go outside and wait downstairs for Hannah! I need to have a chat with her about how we behave in my home. I understand that you two are teens living in the moment, and I don't want to shame you. But I am only going to say this once. I never want to see you on top of my daughter again, understood!" Giving her best mom stare. Mom pointed her finger in our direction. Making us feel like elementary school children. Then graciously she opened the door for Calvin.
"Yes ma'am! Hannah, I'll wait for you on the stairs!" Calvin grabbed his hat off the coffee table, slipped it back on to his head, and walked out the door.
"Mom, it's not what you think! Well not completely what you think." I jumped at my own defense as soon as the door closed behind Calvin.
"First of all, Hannah, you told me Calvin was just your friend. Secondly, I thought you already had a boyfriend that lives down south! That you're always on the phone with!" Mom sat down in the lazy boy chair. Oh boy, this is one of those sit-down talks! You know what that means. Mom plans to take her time because this situation to her is serious enough.
"Ok mom you caught me, Calvin is my hometown boyfriend, and he does not know about Jared! So, we need to keep that on the D.L. Now let me tell you the good news. Jared knows about Calvin and honestly, we have a pact. We both agreed while we were apart, to continue to live our lives. We can date other people and keep in contact with each other. Then if either of us decide to visit the other's hometown. We would break up with said person and continue to date each other. Therefore, I am not cheating on my boy!" I thought it all sounded rather good. Telling the honest truth out loud to my mother. Until she looked at me bewildered as if she had entered the twilight zone.
"Hannah Raye Picozzi, what about this other boy that is waiting for you downstairs, what about him? Did you even for a second hear yourself speak? You're treating this boy like a pawn. In your game that he doesn't even know he is playing in, do you think that is fair? What about this poor boy's feelings? Have you even considered them, in all this?" Mom fired questions at me left and right. Without pausing to take a breath in between, for me to even answer her.
"Well first of all mom Calvin is not a saint or a poor boy in my game. He is trying to hook up with this Nina chick that just called me on the phone, because I won't put out. Nina and I were going to come up with a plan to teach him a lesson. Then I started to wonder about Nina, if I could trust her? Or does she just want to steal my boy away from me! I refuse to be taken for a fool!' Baring all my secrets to my mother.
"You're worried about looking like a fool? After the story you just told me young lady. Let's not forget what I just witnessed happening on my couch! From where I am standing, you already look like a fool! Hannah, do you like this boy?' Mom studied my reaction. Looking deep into my eyes to find the truth.
"Honestly, I am still trying to figure that out. Do I truly have real feelings for him, or..." Trailing off in mid-sentence. I walked over to the big bay window in my Living room. Gazing down at the front lawn. Checking to see if Calvin was still waiting for me.
Mom stood up and walked over standing directly behind me. Putting her hands on my shoulders. She pulled me into a loving embrace and whispers in my ear.
"The girl on the couch, looked to me like she had feelings for that boy!" Leaning her head on mine.
"Really? How do I know it's not just because of my teenage hormones. Truthfully mom that boy is so west coast fine! I broke out into laughter, realizing what I had just said to my mother. While enjoying the view through the window. Calvin was hanging out on the lawn laughing with Jenni having a good old time.
"Now, that's something you must figure out for yourself, sweetheart! Can I give you some advice, from a woman that has lived more life experiences than you?" I had to ask Hannah. After all it is her life! It has been difficult to watch her pining away for a boy that lives so far away. When she doesn't realize she is just missing the idea of a perfect boyfriend. That she's holding on to in her young naïve mind. I don't want to see my daughter get hurt. What am I supposed to do? When she refuses to acknowledge her southern boyfriend is the same hormonal teen boy as the rest of them. He lucks out because he doesn't live here for her to see his true colors. Does the girl have amnesia? It's as if she forgot about what he was like, when he first showed up in town.
"Always mom, but it doesn't mean I will always take your advice! I am interested in your perspective of things though." Hannah held her hand out for me to hold. Comparable to when she was little, before I told her news she wouldn't want to hear.
"Your southern boy is doing what he wants honey. You don't even have a clue what he is really doing down there. From what I see being an older and wiser woman, is two kids that really liked each other. Unfortunately, they live too far away from one another to have a real relationship. Lastly neither one of them knew how to say goodbye to the other.
These two naïve kids try to live this fantasy long distance relationship. Sending gifts, writing letters, and having long talks on the phone late at night. Did you forget how Jared acted when you first met him? Remember that whole ordeal that happened between Tia, you, and Jared?
You my daughter are like a magnet that attracts the drama! Regrettably it's been a family trait. My hope for you is to be the one to break the family chain. For your own sake." Mom won't let me forget my summer of drama with Jared. I know what she's trying to point out to me. God knows she is right! I would rather play with my fantasy perfect boyfriend. Then get into a real relationship where I could end up developing real feelings.
"It's easier this way mom! I couldn't handle getting hurt like you over and over again! Let's talk about this later. I can't leave Calvin sitting outside all afternoon waiting for me." I let go of her hand. Then ran into my bedroom to make a quick outfit change.
Off came the skirt as I put on my favorite pair of blue ripped jeans. Pairing it with a white belly shirt. Then to finish the look I topped it off with a blue and white men's flannel button up shirt. That I borrowed (stole) out of my stepfather's closet. Not wanting my feet to hurt all night long I slipped on my airwalks. These are my favorite shoes because they feel like you're walking in slippers. Now, my grunge outfit is complete for the evening.
Walking into the living room I stopped to give mom a quick goodbye hug and kiss on the cheek. Like I always do before leaving the house.
"Keep an open mind about finding something real, remember you're not me. My mistakes should not define your life! Go have fun with your friends, my girl my world, I love you!" Mom opens the door for me.
"I will mom! I can't promise you anything. I love you, see you later and page me if you need me!" I Hollard at mom, as I jogged down the stairs of the apartment building.
Jenni was standing in front of her apartment door, just about to walk through. When she stopped me to talk for a minute.
"Whoa, where you heading off to in such a hurry girly? Just kidding, I kept your boy company for a while as you were getting chewed out by your mom supposedly. How did that go, everything good?" Jenni is such a good friend, checking up on me as always.
"You can't have him! (Laughing) Calvin must have told you about what happened. Yeah, she had a good talk with me. Thankfully she didn't freak out on me. She said her peace and gave me some things to think about. which confused me more than I was before our talk. However, she did manage to shed some light on a lot of shit that I need to digest. You know what I mean?" Jenni looks at me as if I had lost her during my rant.
"Hey, you, me, and the stars later, we can talk all about it then!" Jenni said in an upbeat tone trying to cheer me up. We both liked to sit outside at night and sit on the hoods of our parents' cars. If they get mad, we switch it up and sit on the trunk. Jenni and I loved looking up at the stars and talking all night about nothing and everything.
"You got it, sounds perfect! Hey, what do you think about Calvin? Tell me what vibe did you pick up on from talking with him!" Asking one of my best friends, whom I trust, to answer honestly.
"Have fun with him but be careful girly, that boy has player energy! Also, it's as obvious as the nose that sits on my face, that boy has it bad for you. He is conflicted though, because he likes to fool around, and he knows you don't." I knew Jenni would get a good read of his energy. Good to know we have both come to the same conclusion.
"What do I do? On one hand I don't want to give him up, but on the other hand I can't trust him?" Shaking my head at her. Feeling overwhelmed with the emotions hanging out with me.
"You and Calvin right now are a direct match, and you know Hannah the universe doesn't make mistakes. Hate to break it to you girly! The reason you two are attracted to each other so strongly is because you both are harboring the same patterns you're trying to escape.
Simply said girl you two are alike. You are mirroring each other to a tee. I think he's just like you Hannah. Scared of being in a relationship with real feelings and getting hurt." Wow Jenni is on point! I have been too close to Calvin lately to be able to read into his feelings. Although I sense he hides his feelings most of the time from people.
That would explain that look he gave to me earlier today. When he thought I didn't notice with all our friends around.
"Sometimes having you as my friend can be scary, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I like knowing you will always be truthful with me. Even when I can't be with myself." I gave Jenni a big hug. Then ran down the stairs, to the apartment building's front door.
Standing on the other side of the glass door was Calvin. Being a gentleman, he opened the door for me to walk through. Flashing me a smile that would make most girls hearts melt. Mine knows better or at least I've trained it too. I have a heart made of titanium so that shit doesn't melt for anyone!
"My lady, how did it go with moms?" Calvin asked sweetly with concern in his eyes.
"It went. Saw you talking to my friend Jenni. How did that go, did you guys gossip about me?" I asked him. While I repeatedly poked him in the shoulder teasingly.
"No! Your friend threatened me first. Then we played 20 questions, which was fun!" Calvin answered mockingly, arching his eyebrows.
We walked across the parking lot toward the green belt. The green belt is a path that cuts through town. People enjoy walking or biking through its scenic views of the ocean harbor. Along with the beautiful trees, flowers, and greenery.
"So, where are we heading?" I asked. Looking over at Calvin.
"I have to stop by my house first and make a quick call. After we can go over to Tom's and meet up with the guys. On the way we can grab an ice cream if you want!" Calvin reached his hand out for mine.
"Ice cream yes please! Who do you have to go home to call? Why can't you make the call at Tom's house?" I'm excited about getting ice cream. Also suspicious, wondering if ice cream is a way to appease me.
"Now don't get mad at me! I'm going to call Nina; remember I told you we have a project due. There are a few loose ends to tie up. Hopefully, it won't take too long. You can hang out and watch tv. Or you can head down to Tom's or Janet's house, and I will meet up with you after. It's all up to you." Lies, he is trying to manipulate me to leave him alone. That way he can schmooze Nina. I guess my consolation prize is ice cream, it better be good!
"Trying to get rid of me so soon, are we?" Giving him shit. I'm not happy about the latest information that I was just given. It's beginning to feel like this Nina chick is my new frenemy. How does that saying go again? Oh yeah, keep your friends close and your enemies closer.
"Never! Don't forget Hannah I was the one that showed up at your door today, not hers!" Calvin stops in his tracks and pulls me closer to him for a soft kiss. My mind goes blank and all I can hear is the sounds of the ocean waves crashing into the rocks behind us.
Pulling away from his embrace. Silently we continued to walk along the greenbelt. I turned my head to look up at him to ask him a question.
"Then who's door do you plan on showing up at tomorrow, huh?" This was not me teasing him. I made sure my tone sounded as serious as it could be. Calvin stayed silent and kept walking along. This boy is driving me insane! It's frustrating because I have become someone I didn't know or understand.
Admit it, this boy has me feeling something and I hate it! I get Jealous seeing him with Nina or the thought of them in my mind. Why should I care, Jared is dating other girls and that doesn't seem to bother me at all. What is wrong with me?
Here I thought, I was going to teach Calvin a lesson. Could it be, he also is teaching me something about myself as well?
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In the Next episode we will find out how Calvin answers Hannah's question?
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