Chapter 33: Chapter 32

(Selina)

Noah was abnormally quiet during the dinner. He looked a lot at me but didn’t say anything to me. He was acting weird. Or maybe it’s me. I was still thinking about my meeting with Fynn and all the things we shared. I feel sorry for him because he never asked for that and he is the one who will have to live with their mistakes. He is the one who suffers the most because of her. There is also what he told me about Noah. I don’t know what to think about that anymore.

“Good evening princess!” Tom says joining me in the garden.

“Sir Thomas. What are you doing here? Does your mate is not waiting for you?” I reply.

“She does but you were acting weird tonight, so did Noah. Did something happen?”

“No, not really.”

“Not really?”

“I was just lost in my own thoughts tonight. I just need some time alone.”

“Okay... You know you can tell me everything.” He replies knowing me.

“I met Fynn before dinner. He asked to see me and I went to meet him.” I finally confess.

“It was to expect. He has contacted me too.”

“Did you meet him too?”

“No. I’m not ready. I’m scared to say something I will regret later.”

“ You should. He is not fine and needs your forgiveness. In the end, he’s the one who’s paying the highest price for that. He’s eating by his guilt and his self hated. We need to offer him peace of mind at least.”

“It’s too easy no?”

“If you see him, you will realize it’s far from being easy for him. He is suffering a lot, more than he should.”

“People died because of him.” He says.

“And we both know it’s was not him. The real him.”

“So he came to say sorry and you forgave him.”

“He didn’t come to have my forgiveness. I think he was hoping for my anger. To be punished again.”

“If you say so...”

“Actually, I think he also came to defend his brother.”

“Noah?” He asks surprised.

“No his other brother!” I mock him and he sticks his tongue in response.

“Wow, what a grown Lycan’s reaction!” I tease him.

He laughs: “Talk about the pot calling the kettle black!”

It’s my turn to stick my tongue making him laugh even more.

When he stops to laugh, I add: “ They drugged Noah with a kind of “Viagra potion” and one of Serena’s friends agreed to help them. She had a crush on him.”

“Wow. That’s explained this!”

“Develop, please?” I ask confused.

“Noah was a virgin before that. I never understood how he could lose it like that. He always said the first time will be with someone special. When I asked him why he did it this night, he was not able to explain why he did it.”

“Noah was a virgin? At 23, he was still a virgin!” I say skeptically.

“Yes, he was. He was waiting for the special girl.”

“And we all the girls he had, no one was special?” I add still not believing it.

“You’re his special girl.”

“Yeah, me or his destinate mate.”

“No, only you. There no one else but you for him.”

“Hmm.”

“Trust me on that. And give Noah a chance to prove you he is the right one for you.”

“I will think about that if you think about forgiving Fynn.”

“Deal. I will forgive Fynn when Noah will have a real chance with you.”

“Fine!”

“Good that means I have time! A lot of time.” He teases me. I gave him a finger and he snores.

“Go to your mate, Thomas!”

“Your wish is my command, princess!” He says bowing.

I start to walk in the garden wanted to clean my mind. Five minutes later, I’m surprised to see another figure walking in the garden. As I hide myself to see who it was, I’m surprised to see Noah and he looks troubled. Really troubled. I don’t know why but the sight of him like this hit my nerve and I need to check on him.

“Hey, Noah.” I say joining him.

“Selina!” He says surprised.

“Are you alright? You didn’t speak much at dinner.”

“Why? you missed it?” He replies smirking.

I roll my eyes if he can be so cocky it means he is fine.

“Sorry. Don’t walk away, please.” He says catching my arms when I turn my back to him.

“It’s just I don’t know what to do anymore to win you back. And before you say something, no I will not give up. Not this time, not anymore. I just wish to know how I can have a chance with you. Every time I’m doing something, I’m doing it all wrong. Like earlier, I was not expecting you to upset with what I said. But I said the true, I would give up everything to have a chance with you.” He adds when I don’t say anything.

“Can I ask you a question?” I ask.

“Anything.” He replies.

“What did I do for you to reject, to not want me.”

He sighs: “I didn’t reject you!”

“Still you were avoiding me like the pledge all your life.”

“It was not against you. Every time my parents or someone was speaking about my future, everything was already planned, being your mate and becoming the king. And they all used to speak about my life like I wasn’t even here or like I didn’t have a word to say about it. I felt so trapped! I wanted my freedom and while Fynn and Lila were free to do the job they wanted and to choose their mate, I was just stuck. I hated this feeling and if I’m honest with you I still hated it.”

“I can understand that. It’s the same for me. All my life I was taught to become the Queen and to reach other person expectations before mine. It’s part of my life. Like you, I’m stuck. The difference is for me, you were my salvation, not my prison.”

“You’re not my prison.” He protests.

“Of course I’m, I’m the future Queen by blood. I have no choice about that. You’re destined to become the King by being my mate. You still have the choice you know. You can walk out of that. Sometimes I wish I could.”

“And giving up on you. Never!”

“Why? Why did you change your mind? What made you change your mind?”

“You. It’s all you. Who you are. You’re just perfect. I was so stupid, so blind by my wish of freedom, that I never took the time to look at the right direction, to look at you. You are the most beautiful being I have ever known, inside and outside. You’re smart, kindhearted, fair, forgiven, hot, feisty. I love your smart mouth and all the small things about you. Like when you’re biting your lips when you are nervous. You look so sexy that it’s driving me crazy! The light in your eyes when you have a new idea takes my breath away every time. You fight for the one you love and you try to be fair even when it’s not possible. My heart stops to beat every time you’re smiling and I’m in awe when I see how you shut the mouth of assholes with coolness and class, which makes me want to kiss you by the way. Hey ”

Wow, I wasn’t expecting that. He took me by surprise here. My heart is beating wildly for the last few minutes. Goddess, don’t make me regret this!

“One chance. Only one so don’t mess it up.” I say with a finger up.

“What?” He replies in hope.

“You hear me, one chance.”

“Go on a date with me tomorrow.” He says right away.

“What? no!”

“You said you are giving me a chance.”

“Yes but not date right away. You have to court me before.”

“Fine, then spend the day with me tomorrow.”

“But it’s the same.”

“No, not a date. Just spending time together for me to court you.”

I groan: “Fine.”

“Great! I will pick you up at 10:00!” He says looking happy.

“10:00 it’s.” I nod.

“Thank you! You won’t regret this!”

“I hope not.”

“Good night Sunshine. See you tomorrow.” He says kissing my forehead before walking away.

“Night Noah.”

Goddess, I hope it’s the right choice.