chapter 22

Weber at age of 18 years,Weber's POVs, I stood in front of the mirror.  I saw my reflection.  I looked so good, I took extra care on today as today is the day I am going to marry love of the life ,hellen.Helen is 5 years older than me. She is most beautiful in and out for me .she made my day and night with her laughter sound. I cannot describe my feelings whenever I saw her. From my first glance, I attracted to her.She was my senior in my college.  I proposed to her in front of college.  She accepted my proposal immediately. From the day, the college crush girl became my girl.Even I knew her 1 years,  I knew to conclusions. She is the one I can spent my rest of the life.My dream is to have peaceful life with beautiful family like me and my parents.  I knew everyone told I am so young to Marry and I still don't have proper jobs I am still working as trainee. She just respect my decision and ready to take risk for Me. She is famous model now. She accepted me and also like to marry me.Yes,love is blind which makes her to hid every disadvantage like age gap, she is popular figure in country.  She is ready to marry me when she is in perk of her carrier.I wore my white suit . I looked so young than before.  I combed my long hair. I looked like idol. I smiled and told " the girl I love will be mine forever ".                   Today's media attention is on our wedding. I walked down at corridor.  I went to hall in church. Everyone took pictures of me . I smiled widely .my heart pounded by as minute passed by.My brother,  piers and her girlfriend, Ava looked at us with big smile.  They looked perfect for each other. My parents opposed our marriage.  While my brother supported me . I smiled at him. My heart hip hop in christ. While my eyes on direction of the entrance.As minutes passed , I became more excited. I expected her with her father.A butler ran into church with a piece of paper in his hand. Butler: young master, Weber.........ms. hellen eloped and ran away with her lover.My eyes widened.  I grabbed my butler's shirt. My jaws clenched.  My mind and mind told" it is nightmare or just little game of bride to fool me".I looked at butler at red eyes. I told " what are you blabbering? I am Helen's lover . You are making rumours ".Butler looked down at floor . He averted my eyes. I shouted " answer me ".Everyone started to take photos of me.I clutched my hands tighter on his shirt.Butler: here is letter which left in desk. She addressed this letter for you, young master. I left him . I took the letter from him. I recognised the hand writing. It is definitely written by len . My eyes widened as intake of every words in Letter." my dear Weber, I don't love you. I like you as my friend.  When you proposed me to be your girlfriend .I accepted it as it was dare given to me by classmates. After I came to knew you, I know one thing you are good soul.I felt sorry for make you fell in love on me daily. I knew I should tell about my feelings. I cannot tell anything in front of your samoyed eyes.it is impossible to refuse. I just acted like your girlfriend...so I gained many opportunities as I am your girlfriend  .Actually I love a boy named vin. He is my childhood love. He returned from aboard after long time before 6 months ago. I don't how to tell you. I just used you ....as u are innocent. When you proposed me to be your wife, I accepted it in afraid whether you will not help me in my career.  I just need God your fame and money so I took advantage of you. Everytime I acted to you about my feelings, I felt pain and betraying you . I knew I ruined your dreams and your ideal marriage. I am so sorry for everything I done. You can think me gold digger or bitch. I admit I am selfish  My love for him made me to do this. If I marry you, I cannot live in fake love life. It will ruin my ,you and his life too I am so sorry for breaking your heart as first love. I don't deserve you. You have a loyal heart. Just find fairy for you. Sorry for running away from you. The decision I made now is good for me Nd you".I felt for first time.my world turned upside down. I just put my knees on my ground and clutched the letter . I torn the paper like how my heart torn. My brother called off marriage. I stood there in tears. My heart felt insufferable pain and hurt ....I lost faith in everything around me even me. I started to hate wedding and love.I heard whispers around me as if it is my fault .she left me as she found I don't deserve her .she had right choice.I put my hands on my forehead.  I felt like hell. I filled with camera click sounds.Pier:I will sent men to search her.My heart broken into pieces.  My whole face become messy like day.I shouted " just leave her. It is life she chosen now I feel like bastard make her put in tough suitation .as everyone told I am fool thought she loved me. It is all my hallucinating, piers"Piers: it is okay. I am here for you.I ran and embraced him. I cried a lot he took me to his room .After next few months, I became hot topics at first. Next they totally forgot me.I locked my room . I filled myself with alcohol To forget my pain. Everyone tried to cheer me up. I lost myself. I stayed in dark.My mind filled with suicide thoughts. I felt like I lost my life. I lost my live .....also I don't got chance in any band .When she is with me, I thought I can achieve anything.  Now I felt like I should die.I took my bike key after 3 months.  I went to parking area and toon it.  I drove on street aimlessly.  I had flask of alcohol on my coat. I don't have any money or Wallet. I don't what to do If fuel emptied.Suddenly I stopped the bike in front of the bridge. I put keys at bike.  I don't found a soul in bridge. There is no vechile or anything. I went to bridge at brisk. I sighed and wiped my tears. Still my heart have wounds and torn apart. I felt like my soul burning in pain. While on other end, hellen and her husband have good life at personal and professional too. I stood there like a messy one.I went to bridge.  I stood up on the bar. I looked down I found deep lake below me.Weber: I am so sorry, piers. I don't have courage to live . I am gonna meet my end .everyone has end, today is mine. Please take care of parents and you.I don't have any reason to live I felt like that.I depend on you now. In next, you will also move away. It will be better i move away from earth. Let's see in another life.I recoreded the words in phone .I kept in bike top. I shouted " let's find peace which I cannot see here.....5....4....3...2...1. Shoot down yourself on water. "I knew swimming. I told myself not to swim.