Kyle Redmond P.O.V
My son's will turn four after six days. I overjoyed and excited for their birthday!
It will be the first ever birthday I will celebrate with them. God! I wish I wouldn't have made that horrific mistake, then I would have been able to celebrate all their birthdays with them and Paisley till date.
Just thinking about that mistake causes goosebumps to surface my body. The bump on her head, the limp in her walk, her tear stained face, the bruises on her arms are the things I can never forget and neither do I want to.
They are a constant reminder of what a bastard I had been to her that night, and I need to remember it, in order to strive hard to get her back and treat her right.
I didn't realise I had shed tears thinking about all that till I felt wetness on my cheeks. Sitting here in my suite all alone surrounded by darkness makes me feel dead!
Some people might think or say that I am fool to cry over such things, but it does not affect me.
For me, masculinity does not mean hiding your true emotions, it means being strong enough to express them freely. This was something Pasiley taught me and something that became a part of me when she was forced to leave. I don't mind going into the arms of my woman and cry my heart out. She is my strength and she always will be!
It's been almost two hours I have been crying and cursing myself for driving away such a wonderful woman away from me. But it doesn't matter now, does it?
I have crushed her! But I need her by my side, I simply cannot function without her! I know earning her love, trust, and most importantly her oldself back will be hard, but I will. I will try and strive hard to have her back. I won't stop!
My phone has been ringing for the last ten minutes, but that person get the message I don't want to talk and just doesn't stop. I got irritated and picked up without checking the caller ID.
"What the f*ck do you want?" I snapped at the person on the other side of the line.
"You don't give me that attitude, Kyle! Keep your celibate self under control!" Answered my best buddy Kevin from the other side. It's true, I haven't been sexually involved with any woman after I began my search for Paisley. Kevin Rhodes is a very successful hotelier. He and I have been best buddies from middle school. He knows everything about me, he was like an elder brother to Paisley. He had never been supportive of my devious plan, but I assured him I wouldn't do anything like that, but I betrayed him too. When he got to know what I had done he cut of all connections with me. For two years we never talked but after that when he saw me and my condition after I almost got into a deadly accident due to alcohol overdose,we started interacting again. He knows I have been looking for Paisley and he has been equally worried about her, but he dosen't know that I have found her along with our two kids.
"Shut it Rhodes! Tell me what you want!" I snapped at him.
"Where have you been, Redmond? Me and Liam have been worried sick about you. You just disappered! It's been two weeks bro, two bloody weeks! In which f*cking corner of this damn world are you?" He said sounding pissed. Liam is also a very close friend of ours. He owns several publishing companies.
"I am in New Jersey. I came here two weeks ago." I told him.
"Jersey? Why? I don't remember you having any important work there ever, so why?" He asked confused.
"Um.. Kevin..." I was hesitating to tell him about meeting Paisley again, when he cut me off.
"Just say it a*s!" Kevin barked.
"I have found Paisley, she's here in New Jersey.." I trailed off waiting for his reaction.
"What!? When? How? I mean why didn't you tell us? Are you serious?" He asked frantically.
"My P.I. informed me about it two weeks ago, he informed me about it at night and I just left my house that very second. I reached here and found that she wasn't alone." I said.
"Is she involved with someone else? F*ck! Kyle, now how will you get her back, did you tell her you both are still married?" Asked my bestfriend with concern.
"Relax Kevin! She isn't involved with someone else, by not being alone I meant that I am father, mate! I am father to, two very adorable boys!" I said with a lunatic grin as a picture of my children flashed in my mind.
"WHAT!?" He yelled from the other side.
"Yes! I am father, Kevin! I am so proud of my Paisley, she has raised our boys with so much of love, care and patience. They are very well mannered and considerate, fine little gentlemen they are! I am so glad they aren't anything like me apart from looks, from that perspective they are an exact replica of me from my childhood." I told him picturing my son's.
"Wow! That's fantastic brother. You are a father now, I am an uncle! Shorty has given birth to two wonderful baby boys. This is great!" He said and I could sense the happiness in his voice. Kevin always called Paisley 'shorty' due to her short height.
"I know, buddy, I know. Even I felt excatly the same, when I got to know about them. About my own family!" I said my voice getting thick with emotions.
"What are their names, Kyle?" He asked.
"Noah and Ryder, they are three and will turn four in the next six days." I said.
"Oh! That's amazing. Um..... did they know about you? Did Paisley tell them?" Asked Kevin.
"No, they didn't. Paisley kept my existance as a secret to them. At first I was furious about this, but later I did realise I didn't have the right to be. I am no position to object anything, I am so greatful to her she let's me meet them and sometimes spend the entire day." I explained.
"Well then, that it how Paisley is, right? Even if she is furious she won't let her kids grow up without their father when they have the opportunity and right to experience his love. You are a very lucky man, Kyle. You just failed to realise it earlier!" He said anger evident in his voice.
"I know! I am a pathetic man, no wife deserves the kind of misery I put her through. But I regret it deeply, Kevin. I want her back, I need her badly." I sighed.
"You can't just expect her to run to you after what you did, Kyle! To be honest, there is no forgivness for your actions! I know I may sound off very rude, but I don't want to keep you in any kind of illusion. I am not saying that you shouldn't try your best to prove yourself worthy of her, but this will be very difficult. More difficult for her than for you! If you can be patient enough to deal with it, then go ahead and never give up! There are surely many men out there better for shorty than you. I am not degrading you but telling you the bitter and true reality!" He said truthfully.
"Of course, I know it! I will wait and try for the rest of my life. I will work hard to earn her faith and love for me, even if it means it takes me a lifetime for it. I WILL NOT GIVE UP EVER! I love my wife more than life itself, I will even kiss the ground she walks on, if that means I will have her back. As far as the things about other men are concerned, I know it very well. But I will not let anybody take her away from me. She is mine! She will always be mine! No matter how long it takes!" I growled in the end.
"Wow! Still going all alpha male over her! You bastard! She is not a piece of property you own. She is a human being who has emotions, that you played with. Now please get some sense in that head of yours! Treat her with love and care, not by going all possessive over her. If you treat her your way, you will cause her to run for the hills. You have a chance, make sensible and full use of it, but mind you if this time you hurt Paisley, I will have your throat for it! DO NOT RUIN YOUR LAST AND FINAL CHANCE!" Threatened Kevin.
"I understand it man, I do. But what am I suppose to do when that bloody Luke Dawson has been like a shadow of my wife for the past years? He has been by her side always, he has been like a father figure for my children. All three of them trust him blindly! I am scared to lose Paisley and the twins to Dawson, Kevin!" I expressed my fear.
"Has he confessed his feelings for her yet?" Kevin asked.
"It doesn't seem as if he has. He hasn't, I can say." I told him.
"Then do whatever you have to before he does it, if he will do that he will make the matter more f*cking complicated for you!" Kevin said.
"I understand that very well." I told him.
"Uh.. Kyle if you don't mind, can you tell me everything that has happened between the two of you from the day you had arrived." Asked Kevin.
"Um.. sure!" I replied and proceeded to tell him everything.
For the next hour and 45 minutes, I told Kevin everything from the day I had arrived. How I explained things about our divorce papers not being filed, my visit to the the twins school, spending days with them, fight with Dawson and how I had sent him back to London, our meeting at the café where I got to know that Paisley tried to commite sucidie, me shifting near her, asking Mr.Brown for her transfer, her being cold and distant towards me and everything else. I left the details about the time I kissed her or tried getting close to her.
"That's alot of shit to deal with man!" Kevin said.
"Thank you Einstein! I didn't know about it, how enlighting that is!" I said sarcastically.
"Okay fine chill!" He said chuckling.
"Kyle, look I know all this is very difficult for you, but for once think of the misery you have caused her, the hell you have put her through from her view. Then only you will truly feel her pain, if you do, then you will know how to handle things. Be considerate and feeling towards her. Make her feel loved and respected. Put her back piece by piece with patience and affection." He said his voice now absolutely serious.
"I will. I definitely will!" I said tears pricking my eyelids.
"Okay then. I leave you to think about all of this in peace. Goodbye brother, all the best!" Kevin wished.
"Sure man. Bye!" With this I cut the call.
After my call with Kevin I felt lost. I just have been handling our situation in a very amateur way.
By tomorrow morning I can shift in my new house, once that happens I will woo Paisley again with patience, respect and affection.
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Paisley Redmond P.O.V
After crying for I don't know how long I went to check up Ryder and Noah.
I walked upto their room taking my time, wiping away my tears and patting my hair in place I entered her room.
"What's happening little monkey's?" I asked them.
"Look mommy me and Ryder mwade these!" Noah said lifting two papers with drawings on them in the air.
"That's great sweetie! What is it that you and your brother have made?" I said walking close to them moving away from the door.
"You see mommy, it's a surpwise!" Ryder said giggling with excitement.
I was a the drawings and surely they were a very big surprise for me, that caused fresh tears to gather in my eyes. The drawings were of two little boys holding hands with an older looking man and woman. In short what they had drawn was, a picture of them, me and Kyle together.
"What is it babies?" I still asked them holding back a sob.
"It's you, Rywder, daddy and you mommy!" Noah said excitedly waving both the drawings in the air.
"That's really nice darlings, but from where did you get the idea to make these?" I asked them.
"We wanted to make it for you and daddy, mommy! We wanted to make it as a gwift! Do you like it?" Ryder said.
"Of course! They are really lovely." I cooed hugging them.
"Mommy is daddy here?" Noah asked.
"No, he has left for the time being. He will see you both soon, when he comes then you both can give these to them." I told him smiling.
"Okay. I am hunwry mom." Ryder voice out.
"What do you both want to have for dinner then?" I asked.
"Noowdles!" Noah said.
"Piwzza!" Ryder said.
"Okay. I'll be back in sometime with the food. You both want to watch some T.V till then?" I asked.
They nodded and went to watch T.V in my room.
After two hours of vigrous cooking of two very different dishes I was finally done. Perks of being a working mother to twins is that you learn how to be efficient.
At the time I was cooking I was thinking if I could really trust Kyle and give him a chance for my children's sake.
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I wanted to show Kyle's insecurities in this chapter and his relationship with his friends. As for Paisley the last para was just a thought nothing that can accurately indicate her final decision. So, please don't get confused about it.
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