1197 Have you ever been more attracted to me than you are to me as a friend
hua miaomiao laughed and teased, â âWhat does this have to do with you? Are you the one who broke the news? thatâs not a smart move. You know Iâm not afraid of people calling me gay.â
however, after chu qing heard this, she became even more unhappy, â I didnât expose it, but it was because of me. It was Leng Kuang. I know that he did it all because of me. Iâm sorry, because of this, mother Hua is in the hospital!
âthatâs his business. why are you apologizing on his behalf? Tomboy, I really donât like the way youâre acting. The way youâre taking his place makes me feel like youâre no longer treating him as an outsider.â As Hua Miaomiao spoke, he looked deeply at Chu Qing and suddenly lowered his head.
he seemed to be trying his best to calm down. when he raised his head to look at chu qing again, his sparkling eyes flashed with a helpless smile.âYou still love him, donât you?â
Chu Qing felt that some things had to be made clear to Hua Miaomiao.
So, she nodded. thatâs right, I still love him. Iâve always loved him, but Iâve also always hated him. I hate that heâs so bad to me. I feel that itâs very sad to be with him, so Iâve always wanted to stay away from him. I feel that only by being away from him can I live happily.
Hua Miaomiao was rendered speechless by his fatherâs words.
Chu Qing laughed bitterly and continued, â Iâm a coward. After I was hurt, I was afraid of giving and being hurt. I loved without caring about anything but it ended badly. So I understood everything and woke up instantly. There are not many people in this world who can have such a great love. I canât say that those beautiful romance dramas are all fake. After all, the things between master Yu and Lili are right in front of me. Not every girl can become the female lead in a romance novel. Lili is the lucky one. even so, I donât believe that whoever leaves him canât live. I love him, but I feel that I should be able to live a happier life if I leave him.
I also believe that even if I didnât marry you, you wouldnât try to kill yourself. You wouldnât stay single for the rest of your life, and you definitely wouldnât jump off a building to commit suicide. Because youâre Hua Miaomiao, the best friend of the heartless Chu Qing. Youâre the best Hua Miaomiao, and also the most handsome Hua Miaomiao. Youâre the Hua Miaomiao that many women still like even though they clearly misunderstand that youâre gay. Youâre just so good, but Iâm not. Iâm not good enough for you. Once, I really thought about spending the rest of my life with you. I know your heart, but I pretend not to know anything and want to live like this for the rest of my life. I only want to get, but I donât want to give. You see how bad I am, Yingluo.â
chu qing mocked herself and laughed at herself. then, she said, â âIf I Could Turn Back Time, I would have let Leng Kuang go without hesitation. It would be best if I never met him in my life. It would be best if I never knew him. But time didnât turn back. We met again and are even more entangled. That will only make me feel more guilty. Please let me be selfish one more time.â
Hua Miaomiaoâs eyes were filled with hurt and sadness as he listened.
his gaze was dazed as he stared at chu qing. he took a few deep breaths before he asked softly, a question that he thought he would never ask in his life, â âHave you ever had any feelings for me? Just a little bit more than a friendâs heart?â