Eight letters

If all it is, is 8 letters, why is it so hard to say? If all it is, is 8 letters, why am I in my own way? Why do I pull you close, and then I ask you for space. If all it is, is 8 letters, why is it so hard to say..

-8 letters, why don't we

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"You're so ugly." Ally says while scrunching her nose at me. I glare at her and then go back to doing my makeup. Ally is dragging me to go shopping with her today. All I want to do is sit in bed and watch Netflix. Is that too much to ask for?

I slip on my shoes and walk out the door with Ally just ahead of me. We both get in the car and she drives us to the mall.

"Ooo this is cute!" She says while throwing a pink sundress at me. "I'm not wearing pink." I say, putting the dress back on the rack.

"You're so picky." She exclaims picking up jewelry from a stand. "I'm not picky. I just don't like that dress." I state shrugging my shoulders.

I walk around the store aimlessly for a solid 10 minutes before something caught my eyes. I turn to look at the skirt and matching top and immediately look for my size. I quickly pay for it and run to show Ally.

"Oh my gosh! It's beautiful." She gasps. I laugh as we walk back to the car. Ally drops me home and I change into shorts and a tank top.

Suddenly, the door bell rings. I skip towards the door and open it.

You guessed it. It's Caleb.

"What do you want?" I say crossing my hands across my chest. Mainly to hide the fact that I'm not wearing a bra right now. He steps into the house and walks towards the couch. Great, now my hands have to remain across my chest until he leaves.

"What are you doin here?" I scoff watching him take a seat on my couch. "Dani, I love you." He says and my jaw drops. "You what?" I ask still in shock.

"I love you. The more time I spend a part from you, the more I realize it. The way you make me feel, I have never felt it before. You're my home Dani. I really could not imagine spending my life with anyone else." He says looking directly into my eyes.

I look away and shake my head. "You need to leave Caleb." I say trying not to make eye contact.

"I'm not leaving Dani. I know you love me too." He says and my eyes widen. "Love you? Are you crazy!! You broke my heart after you promised me that you wouldn't." I state.

"I know I messed up but I've apologized so many times. I'm sorry Dani, I really am. But, you do love me. You're avoiding eye contact." He lifts my chin up to meet his beautiful brown eyes.

"Tell me you don't love me." I try to tell him but I couldn't. I don't know why but I just couldn't.

He inches his face closer to mine and whispers, "when we're this close, tell me that you don't feel anything." I gulp and look down but he lifts my chin up again.

He brings his face closer towards mine until they're no space left. He smashes his lips onto mine and they move in sync.

I wanted to push him off of me. I wanted to stop and tell him to leave but I couldn't. I wanted to keep going. I wanted more because I knew in my heart that I loved him too.

My hands travel to his hair and he goes down my back and holds my waist. Our kisses grow in passion with every touch. His hands go up to my tits and he squeezes them. He pushes me down onto the couch without breaking the kiss. I wrap my legs around him and kiss in deeper.

My hands move all around his back and on his torso. He kisses my neck deeply surely to leave marks the next day. I let out a little sound and then return the favour. My hands move down his chest and my lips contact his again.

He stops kissing me and gets up. I fix my hair embarrassed that this just happened. "You still don't love me?" He kisses my lips again and pushes himself off the couch, heading for the door.

I freeze up and think back to what just happened. He knows I love him. I know I love him. I just don't think that my mind is ready to accept what my heart already knows.

My heart knows that I want Caleb and I'll always want him. I smile to myself about the mini session we just had.

His kisses were so soft and perfect. The way his lips felt on my neck was a feeling that I could not describe. The way his hands travelled throughout my body, sent shivers up my spine.

Even though I hated him for what he did to me, I still loved him with all my heart. I honestly don't think I'll ever stop.

I grab my phone and send a text to Ally. She responds in seconds, just as shocked as I thought she would be.

Allycat:

You did what!!!

Danicakes:

He just showed up to my house and kissed me.

Allycat:

And you let that happen???!!!

Danicakes:

I know. I think I love him Ally. Even he knew it. The look on his face, it seemed as if he loved me as well.

Allycat:

I love u Dani, but please don't do anything stupid.

Danicakes:

I won't. I promise

Allycat:

Alrighty. Sweet dreams <3

Danicakes:

Sweet dreams :)

Ally has always been super supportive of anything I did. She was like the sister I never had. She's seen it all: the crying over boys, the laughter, the movie nights, my red hair phase, the monopoly wars...

Seeing Ally in a happy and healthy relationship with Brian did make me jealous. Don't get me wrong, I'm soooo happy for Ally, but I wish that I had something like that as well.

Out of all the boys in the world, I have to fall for the one who has a psycho father, a huge reputation, and the most beautiful smile.

I know that I love Caleb. I also know that once I stop holding myself back, I can love Caleb so much more.

A.N

Hey ya'll! I hope you guys liked this chapter! I'm super sorry the updates have been slacking, I've just been super busy with school. I love u guys so much! Thank you for being so supportive and patient with my book. Mwahh

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