Flashbacks to their college days
OFF'S POV
I was struggling with everything I have on my plate at the moment, I was trying to juggle the small fan meets, filming, launch of my clothing line and going to uni. It has been 2 weeks since I ditched my project partner Gun.
I can say it was tough working with him, I kept chasing after him, when he agreed he was this nice Gun Atthaphan all of them were talking about but then as days pass by he seems to be changing... colder and colder until I couldn't reach him anymore because of my busy schedule.
I learned he was at the hospital so I went there to make sure he was okay but he didn't wanted to see me. I was ready to face the consequences of the things that has been happening to me that I will no longer be able to graduate next year because I'm gonna have to take this subject again.
Days passed easily when I got back to Uni, I barely got some rest with everything else I was juggling it with but then I got a message from Gun telling me to meet him...
"I'll give you another chance Off, I just don't want you to think I'm as bad as I already am" Gun told me
"It's okay, I was at fault too, I made promises I can't keep"Â I said with a bit of hope in me
We continued filming the project until one fine day came... Gun was such in a good mood and I enjoyed that day so much, he was so nice and all.
present time
OFF'S POV
I snapped back to reality when I was called for another take of my scene... It's another busy day for me. I wanted to get things done since Gun's cafe opening is 3 days away. I was a little bit on a time crunch since I still have to check on my own clothing line, that is still alive and fans are flooding me with messages about my comeback.
Everything suddenly felt like a few years back, I'm not gonna say I hate it but I also don't particularly like it. I felt the joy for actually being able to fulfill being a good child to my mom but something is also pulling me back...
another flashback from college days
GUN'S POV
I know I have been so hard to everyone lately, the only one keeping me sane is my best friend, Tay. He knows all the bullshit that has been going on in my life.
"Why aren't you talking to Oab?"Â Tay asked me.
"He's just been giving me a hard time as well, he doesn't really understand all of this like you do... and I felt like drifting away from him"Â I told him
"Gun, I see you almost everyday... It's not Oab, it's you now. He hurt you but you've fallen for Off, I can see it. You can't truly turn cold on him"Â Tay said
"I can't fall for anyone Tay, I have plans after this one"Â I sai to him
"Yes you are, but you need to sort those feelings Gun, it might pull you back"Â Tay said
Everyday passing was hell for me. I am slowly loosing grip of everything but I guess it was something that I need if I wanted to leave after this.
"You're still giving Off the cold shoulder? You're almost done with the project right?"Â Tay asked me.
"I'm just being me" I defended myself.
"You're being denial about your feelings"Â He said
"I am with Oab"Â I said
"Yeah and all the other hook-ups, let Oab go Gun, I know he hurt you but you keep making the damage bigger"Â Tay told me
I was planning to actually break-up with Oab, but I don't know if there is still something to break, the relationship is already in pieces and Oab knows I've been hooking-up with different guys, he caught me making out with someone else one time. I wanted him to hurt the same way I did all the time he invalidated my struggles and all I've been going through.
But who am I kidding? I wanted to give back to the earth all the hurt it has been giving me but what I'm doing is only hurting me more, I'm only destroying my life more. It seems to be headed nowhere at the moment but I am also tired of life to fix it.
Days kept passing and I merely survived everything, I barely go home now and I only go home to sleep and change my clothes. Today I have to film and edit clips with Off, he said we could film and just edit at his condo, he can't risk the exposure in coffee shops so I agreed rather than working on this alone again, and I don't feel like arguing, I wanna be happy today.
"Gun, can I play some music?"Â Off said as we sat down on the floor in front of his coffee table?
"Yeah sure, do you want something to eat? I'll order"Â I said
"I'll pay"Â He said
"I'll pay. I'm the one ordering"Â I said
"Toss coin?"Â He said and smiled
"No. I'm paying, I'm rarely good to you... you wouldn't want to let this chance pass"Â I said teasing him.
It was a few more minutes of teasing each other when we finally stopped and I finally convinced him that I was paying, we opted to take a break and watch a movie... and ofcourse it was something that we argued about as well.
"Off, why are we watching Home Alone, it's not even christmas yet."Â I said
"It's a good movie, we need a good laugh, life has been stressful lately"Â He said trying to justify his choice of movie
We agreed to watch the movie home alone but we continued playing music while we wait for our food delivery. It was almost dinner so I got some snacks and dinner for the both of us. Not gonna lie, I needed this rest after all.
I feel so close to you right now
It's a force feel
I wear my heart upon my sleeve, like a big deal
Your love bows down, I mean surround me like a waterfall
And there's no stopping us right now
I feel so close to you right now
The song started playing and we started vibing... this is something I've been longing for lately... freedom... happiness...
"You're a party person huh?"Â Off asked me...
"Yeah... It's fun, aren't you?"Â I asked
"I don't really have the time, but I don't enjoy it that much either"Â He said
"It's fun"Â I told him
When I got the message that the food is already at the lobby, Off insisted that he's gonna be the one to go down and get it since I'm already the one who paid for it. The night was fun, we took a mini break from the reality of our lives and right at those moments, everything cleared up for me. I do like Off Jumpol... and I'm falling...
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