Want You

Ryder

"I just love seeing your reactions" Scott chuckled bitterly.

"Are you messing with us?" I asked.

"I am totally serious"

How could she do this? I thought she was a nice girl and I trusted her with Amara. I trusted her with my life. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to Amara.

I looked at Gordon. He seemed crushed. He was staring at the ground with disappointment written all over his face.

"Do you have her?" I asked feeling defeated.

"No, not yet. I don't need to capture her, Ryder. She already hates your guts right now. I would say I feel bad for you, but oh well.."

"Why does she hate me?" I asked trying to keep my voice steady.

Why do you hate me so much? Why can't I ever get you to feel anything other than hate for me?

"She doesn't just hate you. You're always making it about you" He said, "She hates both of you"

"Why?" Gordon asked.

He must feel pretty bad right now. He wanted to be a good brother for once.

"She found out who you really are. Did you think you'd be able to keep her in the dark forever? You should have told her from the start"

I was angry. I was angry at myself because what he was saying was right and yet he was supposed to be the bad guy. Maybe I was the bad guy. Maybe they were saving her from us. Maybe I should have let her marry Jason.

No. No way I would be able to accept that.

"I'm sorry-"

He was interrupted by someone barging into the room.

"Dad, Amara-" He trailed off once he saw us. My heart started beating loudly at the mention of her name.

Jason.

I hated this guy with every fiber in my body. Maybe it was the fact that this was all his fault, or maybe I was just jealous that he almost married her.

"Who are these people?" He asked.

He was scared. He had escaped all the havoc outside only to be trapped in a room full of us.

"Don't worry, what were you about to say?" Scott asked him with a stupid grin.

"Amara is here" He said.

I didn't know if I felt relieved or even more panicked.

"I know"

"Why is she here?" He asked confused, "What's happening?"

The boy looked completely clueless. I almost felt bad for him.

"Go to your room. We'll talk about it later" Scott ordered him.

"But dad-"

"I said go to your room" He said harshly.

Jason lowered his head and let out a quiet 'okay' before leaving the room. He seemed intimidated.

"What do you want to leave her alone?" I asked desperate, "Do you want fame? Financial help? Men? I'll give all of that to you. I'll even find a good bride for your son, just please let her go" I pleaded.

I'd never done that again in my life with an "enemy". I always tried negotiating and I was the one with the advantage. I could still kill him right on the spot, but that would probably end up badly.

He laughed, "You could easily kill me right now and you're trying to bribe me into giving her to you? Even if I did, she hates you" He said emphasizing the word "hate"

It hurt to hear it but I couldn't believe it until I saw it with my own eyes.

I raised my gun, but Gordon stopped me by putting his hand on my arm.

I glared at him and he gave me a questionable look.

"Don't do it. He's making it seem easy. He wants you to fall into his trap" He whispered.

I was torn. I didn't know if I had to trust Gordon or my gut.

"Alright" I said and put my hands down.

"I'll give you a chance to talk to her and then I want you out of my house. There is security everywhere so if you try to kill anyone, you won't live long enough to get her out of here" He said.

Gordon was right after all.

He and some men that were outside led us to the living room, where she was supposed to be.

She hasn't noticed us yet. She was talking to Jason, smiling. When she looked at me her smile fell.

I felt like the whole world was ending for me.

"What are they doing here?" She asked.

"They tried something funny. They'll be out in a few minutes. They just want a few last words with you" Scott said with a consistent grin on his face. I wanted to punch it off.

"I don't want to talk to them"

I was doing so well. We were doing so well. I guess I had to be thankful that I even got to have her for a few weeks. I got to talk to her, hold her, kiss her even.

"Come on, it will be the last time. I promise" Jason told her patting her back.

Get your nasty hands off of her.

She sighed and stood up.

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Gordon spoke to her for about ten minutes and he came out smiling for some reason, but stopped as soon as he saw me, clearing his throat.

"Your turn" He said.

I raised my eyebrow and walked towards the room. She was sitting on a bed, I am guessing her bed now.

"Hey" I said.

"Hey? That's all you have to say?"

"I'm sorry-"

"You lied to me. You called Jason a criminal when you're not any better. You told me I could trust you"

"I would tell you after" I said.

"You should have been honest from the start. I wouldn't like it, but I would appreciate the honesty" She said.

I'm so stupid. If only I could go back in time..

"Are you really staying here?" I asked.

"Yes and don't even think about coming to "rescue" me or any other of your stupid shit" She said.

I looked down. I hadn't felt this sad in years.

"You really hate me, don't you?" I chuckled bitterly staring into her eyes.

She hesitated at first. That hesitation gave me hope.

"No" She answered surprising me.

I saw her puckering out her bottom lip and her eyes were glossy.

"Because I still can't believe you're that monster they claim you are. I can't see that in you"

"I am" I admitted feeling ashamed.

A tear ran down her face and I held myself back from running towards her.

"I don't want to believe that"

"Then why did you come with them?" I asked.

"Because I was scared and you weren't even there"  She said sobbing and burying her face into her hands.

I slowly walked towards her and kneeled in front of her. I gently put her hands away from her face and replaced them with my own.

"I promise you, if you give me some time I can come get you" I said frowning. I couldn't see her like that.

"I can't do this anymore. I want my family back. I want everything to be normal. I am so overwhelmed I keep making stupid decisions and saying stupid things. I d

on't know what to do Ryder"

"It will be okay I'll fix it" I said wiping away her tears. I couldn't see her like that anymore. "I'll come get you and take care of them and then everything will go back to normal" I gave her a hopeful smile hoping she would give me a chance.

"What about us?" She asked quietly.

"Us?"

"Where will you go after everything ends? Will you leave me? Will you keep me captured?"

"Of course not!"

"You kissed me. Why?" She asked.

I'd been waiting for that question for a while now.

I paused and thought about what to say, knowing how much this would affect her decision. I knew what I wanted to say, I just didn't know how.

"Because I wanted to. I still want to. I want you"

I could tell she was shocked by the look on her face.

"I've given you too many chances" She said after a long pause, "You always said you'll take care of it and you never did. You weren't even honest with me"

"One last chance, I promise" I whispered stroking her cheeks.

Her hands were on my shoulders and she lightly shook her head, "No, I'm sorry"

"So what are you going to do? Marry Jason?" I asked with disgust.

"Yes, he's not even a bad guy-"

"He is"

"And you're not any better" She said harshly.

She was right, but I couldn't live knowing she was married to him, I couldn't live knowing she hated me, knowing I wouldn't see her again.

I leaned closer, so close our lips were almost touching.

"If you think I'd let you be with another man when you don't even want to, you're mistaken" I smirked. With every word my lips brushed against hers driving me crazy and she didn't pull away.

I pressed my lips against hers lightly, giving her time to pull away if she wanted to, but she didn't. She leaned closer.

"See you in a couple of days" I whispered and stood up walking away.