07|Torn Apart.

"I swear I couldn't love you more than I do right now, and yet I know I will tomorrow."

- Leo Christopher.

Bree's pov.

I look up from my files when Stacey enters my office. She smiles at me and I return it with a fake one.

She wore a white blouse and black pencil skirt. I've been trying to divert my mind to anything or anyone I see cause I was thinking way to much about him.

I stand up from my seat , "They're here." She says and I take a sharp intake of breath.

You can't change it now cause you took the decision.

My inner voice reminds me. Yes it was my decision but I can't help the fear that's creeping up in me.

"I'll be there in fifteen minutes, " I say and she nods heading out. I look away and face the wall trying to cool down.

I hear footsteps as Stacey opens the door and I knew who would pass by right now.

I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

It's going to be alright. He probably moved on.

I keep telling myself and walk back to my desk. I grab the glass of water placed there an drink it up.

I take my phone and unlock it revealing the collage. I kiss the photo of Jayden and lock it again.

My phone buzzes in my hand and I see a message popping on my screen.

Ricky: you do not need to force yourself.

I shake my head ignoring the message and put it on silent mode . I even out my dress before walking towards the door.

I grab the handle and open it before walking out. I look at Stacey who had a guilty expression on her face.

"Stacey what wrong?" I ask her.

She looks at me and finally talks after a few seconds , " It's nothing."

"It's over alright and you never need to lie to me," I tell her and she nods.

I knew it was because of the guilt of almost killing Aiden six years ago.

"Thanks," she says with a small smile.

I nod and walk left towards the conference room.

Why the hell are you nervous? It's not like you're going to let him in.

Why wouldn't I be nervous? I'm going to face him and talk to him after six fucking years.

I stop myself from freaking out anymore and maintain my professional look.

I take a deep breath and push the glass door open.

Lot of deep breaths today , don't you think?

Shut up and concentrate on what you need to do. My eyes landed on Aiden whose looking at some file.

Swallowing , I look away and walk inside. The officials begin to stand up but I direct my hand for them to sit back.

"Don't let me interrupt, just continue with the meeting." I tell them with a fake smile and get to the seat in beside Ricky.

Jackson was onto my right and Ricky was onto my left. I look over to Aiden who's staring at me.

As I tried looking away , it was like his eyes were magnet stopping me from looking away.

For a second, I wanted to hug him and tell him everything but that's not what I need to do.

His eyes depicted so many feelings at once .

Pain.

Love.

Hurt.

Shock.

Maybe every feeling I dreaded to see in him. I look away as soon as possible.

My heart was clenching with pain. I feel Jackson take my hand and hold on tight.

Ricky does the same and I let him. I stopped every feeling and just put on my fake smile like a mask.

I concentrate on what the officials were saying instead of letting my mind wander about my personal stuff.

"Please sign here," the official asks Aiden and her takes the agreement into his hands.

Signing it , he hands it back to the official. My breath hitches when I see something.

The watch I gifted him.

"Ms. Adams please sign the agreement, " I look away from Aiden and take the agreement.

For the first time I signed an agreement without reading. I am going to work with him for six months.

I hand the agreement to the official and try not to look at Aiden.

Why couldn't he just move on?

Maybe he still loves me. I ignore all the stupid thoughts and stand up as the meeting ends.

"We all shall meet post lunch at four pm tomorrow to talk into the details of the project . Thanks for coming, " I announce and step away from my seat.

I feel Aiden's gaze on me but I concentrate on walking out of the room.

The dark grey walls were contrasting my mood. Every step I took was reminded me of the situation when I walked away from him and he never showed up.

I ignore anyone who was looking at me and walk straight into my office.

My legs felt weak and I walk up to the sofa to sit down. I run my hand through my hair trying to forget all the feelings eating me up.

A tear rolls down my cheek and I wipe it off.

Why are all the feelings I ignored all these years coming back?

When I walked out of the conference room, every step I took felt like I was being torn apart .

A knock on my door snaps me out of my thoughts . I retain my posture and stand up.

"Come in ." I say wondering who it would be.

Cole Grayson.

"I'm sorry to disturb you but I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm Cole Grayson, " he says extending his hand.

"It's nice to meet you Mr. Grayson ," I say giving him a shake hand.

"We could go out for a coffee someday," he offers.

Seriously? This guy is flirting with me.

"I'm quite busy so that may not happen but thanks for offering ," I politely decline.

My door opens revealing Ricky. Thank God.

"Mr. Waters is waiting for you Mr. Grayson ," Ricky informs Cole and I I breath out.

"It was nice meeting you both. I'll see you tomorrow, " he tells me and Ricky before leaving .

"Thanks for coming on time," I say and sit back just the sofa.

"Are you alright?" Ricky asks me while sitting next to me.

"I...I don't know ," I confess resting my face in my hands.

"I need some time alone Ricky. I think it's better if I go back home," I tell him and stand up.

"Just take care and call me if you need something," he says and I nod.

I walk up to my table and grab my phone and purse. I really don't know how long I could hold back my tears .

I walk out of my office and don't bother to talk to anyone. I ignore all the looks and walk straight out of the building.

Camera flashes and paparazzi invite me. My bodyguards come to my rescue and make way for me.

I quickly get into the car and my driver shuts the door behind me. He gets into the drivers seat and starts the car.

"My house, " I tell him and he drives.

A lump forms in my throat as I think of him. I was feeling emotionally week and I couldn't hold back my tears.

I take deep breath and I finally see my mansion. The car drives inside the big gates and stops right in front of my house.

I get out of my car instead of waiting for my driver to open the. I impatiently ring the bell twice and my maid opens it.

"I don't want anyone to disturb me and your shift ends for the day." I tell her and she nods.

I storm up into my room and shut the door , locking it in the process.

I take off my heels and throw it aside . I take of my dress while walking to my closet.

I was rushing myself to change and put on a pair of shorts and his t-shirt. Before I could think of anything else I walk back into my room.

My legs give up and I fall down with tears rushing out of my eyes.

Why is it so hard to ignore him?

I love him and that's the reason I can't let him in. Every thought of him was like a stab in my heart.

Nothing is left of me except for the pain .