chapter 29

Ishq mera , dard mera🔹🔹🔹Spruha's POVI couldn't see him anymore. Stomping my foot I moved from there , crying. I didn't stopped for anyone. I took an auto for home. Tears weren't stopping and they kept flowing , making me remember him more. As soon as I was home , I threw the bag and shut the door. I was a crying mess. I was hurt! I sobbed and sobbed. It was hurting me more because , I am falling more for him and I fear I can't come over this. He is mine. I cannot see him with anyone else. I want him for myself. It was supposed to be me , at her place. I don't want us to be this way. This hurts!  I don't want it to be like this. I was sobbing till my eyes were rim red and my body went weak. The constant fear of losing him was within my mind. I drifted to sleep crying. When I woke up , my eyes were paining and I was headache. Thank god , aai baba weren't home. I saw the time , it was 7:30 pm. Bhai would come home soon. I woke up and went to have much wanted warm shower. I stripped down my clothes and stood under the warm shower. His thoughts were slowly creeping mymind. And yet again , I cried. I fucking hate this! After shower , I dressed in comfy sweat t-shirt and shorts. I looked in the mirror to check. I was very bad at hiding. Bhai could get to know it easily. He was always this way. Soon the door bell rang. It was bhai. I hugged him as soon as he came in. That was comfort. I stopped my tears from falling and looked at him. "Hi bhai!" I greeted him and took his bag keeping aside. "Hi meri sona!" He said kissing the top of my head. It felt so good and protected. I don't know if I was PMSing or what! But these tears just couldn't stop 😭"Here's your favourite ginger tea!" I said handing him the cup of tea. He always had after returning from work. We talked for a while and he went to freshen. I was back in my room. I wanted to cry , but I couldn't. I rested on my bed but I became more restless. I had no appetite. "Sona , what happened baby!?" Bhai asked as he sat besides me on my bed. "Nothing bhai" I said in heavy tone as a lump formed in my throat. "Are you fine!!?? Or is it your periods , disturbing you?" He asked as he rubbed my forehead. "No bhai. They're not" I said and took his hand in my and turned to him keeping my head on his lap. "Then... Studies stress!?" He asked stroking my hairs. I was silent. After a pause I nodded. He kissed the top of my head assuring me. "Not to worry! Papa ki pari!!!! Sab kar legi tu , meri Sona!" He said and we both giggled. When I decided to become a Doctor , he was the one who always supported and encouraged me. I was so lucky to have him! "Come now! Let's have our dinner. Aai baba will be late." "Umm.... I don't want to have anything bhai" I said. "Areee.. no no. Eat something. Otherwise if aai comes to know that her sona slept without eating anything , poora ghar sar pe legi woh!! Pata hai na😂" he said and we both giggled. After much pampering , he agreed to feed me. This was rare! Although , he did when I was small... We had a good time today😌I hugged and kissed his cheek biding him a good night. And I was back in my room. Alone.I couldn't sleep. I plugged headphones and started my sad songs playlist on Spotify. I let myself drench into the emotional pool, letting me flow with the pain I was feeling with song in the background. 🎶                            🎶                             🎶Oh, love of mineWith a song and a wineYou're harsh and divineLike truths and a lieBut the tale ends not hereI have nothing to fearFor my love is yell of giving and hold onAnd the bright emptinessIn a room full of itIs a cruel mistressWhoa oh!I feel this unrestThat nests all hollownessFor I have nowhere to go and I'm coldAnd I feel so lonely yeah...There's a better place than thisEmptinessAnd I'm so lonely yeah...There's a better place than thisEmptiness, yeah!Tune mere jaanaKabhi nahi jaanaIshq mera, dard mera, haaye!🎶                             🎶                            🎶...Varad's POVI know it was her! It was her! Instead of knowing it was here , I still kept playing with Sonu. I could feel her standing behind the net watching me. I just did what she did with me. I know she was jealous seeing me with Sonu. She should also know how it's feel. She should feel it! I have gone through the same pain! Now , it's her time to see it from her sights.... To feel the same pain. It was me , before standing with the same emotionless and painful feelings looking at her seeing her in someone's arms! It hurts 💔My heart was screaming her name and to go and take her in my arms and kiss her endless. Keep her for myself and only me. But..I didn't..I kept ignoring her. I didn't look at her. I kept playing. Till this hurts her as same it did to me😤It was already late. Sonu had left. She was no longer there... I was angry and guilty at the same time. I couldn't see her crying and in pain like thiss. While the other way , I was still angry to see her in someone else's arms. To see her laugh and talk with someone else who is not me!! I wanted to scream and bang things. Break things that came in my way. I went home and went straight to the terrace. I had my punching bag there. I pour my hurt , pain , anger all there. Tears were cascading down my cheeks making me more guilty to see her crying face. I punched and punched. Still it couldn't sweep my pain. I collapsed on the nearby bench and cried. She is my everything! She is mine , with all her whole self , body and soul. I cannot see her with anybody else. I'll be her Everything! A shoulder to cry on. A friend to share her joys & sorrows. I'll be with her in her good as well as bad days! I'll be her Everything! I took a cold shower and dressed in a grey t-shirt and pants. I had no appetite. However , mom never left me like this. I had a glass of milk and went to bed. Sleep was miles away from me. Whenever , I tried to close my eyes... Her face flashed infront of me. So much I try! But she has occupied my all! My heart , my mind! I love her so much 😭❤️Music was the one thing that helped me calm down. I plugged my headphones and started the song... 🎶                             🎶                             🎶Tune mere jaanaKabhi nahi jaanaIshq mera, dard meraAashiq teraBhid me khoya rehta hai,Jaane jahaanPoocho to itna kehta haiThat I feel so lonely yeah...There's a better place than thisEmptinessAnd I'm so lonely yeahThere's a better place than thisEmptiness, yeah! 🎶                            🎶                             🎶***Everyone were sitting together , playing 'Truth or Dare'. I wasn't joining this , but Shantanu dragged me with him. Spruha was also there , but unlike other two days we didn't talked with eachother. We kept stealing glances at eachother. How I wished to take her in my arms and hug her tight. But seeing Shivam infront of my vision bought me back to senses and I was back to square one. The game was on but I was hardly involved in it. Spruha was sitting exactly opposite to me. The bottle was spinned , and it was now Spruha and Prisha's turn. Prisha got a chance to ask her a truth or give any dare. Wisely , Spruha chose for the Truth. She answered plainly. Even , she wasn't in the mood. "Umm.. so do you have any feelings for Varad!?" Prisha asked smirking and everyone were hooting her name. This is so awkward! "The truth , spru" said prisha giggling and gave a hi-fi to Shivam. Punch him instead! 🙄"I skip this. Sorry" Spruha said after a long pause and stood leaving. Everyone started shouting for her but she didn't stop. This was strange! It was okay if she didn't wanted to answer! Why the fuck , she left!!??? I was so furious!! I left behind her. "Spruhaaa stopppppp!" I shouted running behind her and finally got hold of her wrist. I pinned her to the adjacent wall where there were no one except for us. "What is it!?" She shouted. Her eyes were glossy. "What the hell did you leave like this!??" I shouted with same rage. "Why does it concerns you!!?? Huh!!??" She said and shooed my hand away. "Every fucking thing about you concerns me!!!!! You matter!!!!!" I shouted banging my hands on the wall. She flinched at my act. "Then it shouldn't!! Go. Go to your SONUUUUUU BABBBYYYYYY 😡😭" she said looking into my eyes. "And you!! Go stick to your SHIVAM PIVAM 😡😤 bloody moron" I was equally dominating her with my answers. "Shut up!!! Don't talk nonsense , when you know nothing 😡" "Why??? Didn't you let him touch you!? Didn't you held his hands!!??😡" I said grabbing her waist. "Didn't you liked that!? " I said inching closer. "Don't you do that!!!! You're just assuming things!!!!! Without knowing anything , making your stories!!!!!😡" She hit my arm "Why!!?? Why huh!? You let him touch you and now you back off when I do!!???" I asked grabbing her arms. She closed her eyes. "You're hurting me Varaddd. Leave me😭" "It hurts!!?? *Laughs evilly*  it hurts here 👉🏻❤️👈🏻 very bad...😢" I said pointing to my chest. I pinned her close , our breaths mingling with eachother."It hurts the same way it did to you when you saw me in someone else's arms. It hurts here when you ignored me the same! It's hurts to see you in someone else's arms which weren't mine!😢💔" I said. Tears were cascading down my cheeks. "You think only you're hurt!!?? You've hurt me more varad! By your rude behaviour towards me , your ignorance!! Hurt me bad!! You freaking haunt me in my mind!!!! Your thoughts never leave me. You're occupied in my heart , my mind , my soul.... 😢 Do you think it's nothing!?? You were jealous varad! Accept it!! And you!! What you did?? You did it purposely 😭 to make me feel the same! Why you didn't asked me even for once!!?? Why why varad?? 😭" She clutched my shirt's collar. "Jealous!!??? Me???? Hahaha hell yes!!!!  I am jealous 😡 I was jealous because I couldn't see you with anyone else. You're just mine!!!! If you are supposed to hug someone , it is me!!!!! These eyes , are for me to adore and ogle!!! This cute little pointed nose is for me to flare anger at! This beautiful pink cheeks are for me to adore when you blush!!!! And then.... My most favourite , this rosy lips are for me to kiss!!!!!!!" I said moving closer to her. Tracing all of my favourite things on her. She breathed and opened her eyes. She took my hand back. "You're too obsessed with me , for me... Varad! I like you! I really do. But this is not how I want things to go for us. 😭I fear this. I don't want to loose you. It shouldn't be this way. Things may go wrong. In this way , you're hurting me , yourself.... And others. This is wrong. 😢" She was crying and seeing her I couldn't stop my own tears. "Don't!!! Don't do this to me Spruha! 😢 Please!!!! 😭 Please don't leave me. I can't.... " I grabbed her waist and she collided on my chest. She clutched my shirt. "I am sorry 😭" she said and I lost her warmth. She was no more standing infront of me! I looked at her disappearing figure 😢⏯️⏯️⏯️•Tumhe Koi Aur Dekhe to jalta Hai dil, Badi Mushkilo Se Phir, Sambhalta Hai dil Kya Kya Jatan Karte Hai, Tumhe Kya Pata~ 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑼𝑹𝑪𝑲 𝑽𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒅. •Yeh Dil Beqaraar Kitna, Yeh Hum Nahi Jaante, Magar Jee Nahi Sakte, Tumhare Bina... ~ 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑹𝑼𝑪𝑲 𝑺𝒑𝒓𝒖𝒉𝒂.•~~~Okay! So... Here it is! After many efforts I have reached upto this! This is the edited one.. as the previous one was deleted by default and I couldn't save it. I was sad... As it was the best I had wrote! With my heavy heart for both my cuties , #SpruhaVarad. 😢 Finally... I am here with the new one. I tried by best to keep it right away.. c'mon guys!!! Your appreciation will be worth it. So your votes and comments are must!! This chapter has my heart! 🤧❤️ ~~~Read ✓Vote ✓Comment ✓