Thirty One

BILLIE

December 18

Los Angeles, California

"Baby you so pretty" I comment as I watch Halley search for her puffer jacket. She turns to me with a smile and walks over to me, leaning her head down to peck my lips.

"Thank you mama" We just got back from a very eventful paint and sip. Zoe ended up calling Halley, almost cursing her out for not calling her when she woke me up. Her mood completely changed when the phone was handed to me and she told me that she would bring my presents over later this week.

After we finished painting, we ran into one of my more crazed fans. She kept trying to touch me and wouldn't stop looking at Halley in pure disgust. Halley was so furious she almost ripped the girl's head off. Luckily, I stepped in and dragged my very angry girlfriend away.

When we got back to my place, Halley wasted no time in having me butter balled naked on the bed. I chuckle under my breath. Butter balled naked.

Shaking my head at myself, I looked down at my lap and focused my attention on my phone. My fans were spamming my notifications with birthday edits of me. I laugh as I find one of me and halley on live laughing and playfully arguing with each other. The edit transitions to us hugging before we both fell of the bed, bursting into laughter again.

"I'm ready" I look up to see my beautiful girlfriend standing in front of me with a small smile playing on her lips. She wore a shirt, of mine that almost looked like a dress on her, and some black cargo pants with her white forces.

"Gorgeous " I tell her and walk over to her, kissing her gently. She hugs me to her body and pecks my lips making me smile.

"Come on we have to get going" Halley then tells me and looks around for her bag. I groan and leave the room while she grabs the last of her things before following me out. Halley won't tell me where exactly we are going but I'm excited either way. She said I would love it either way so I'm not worried.

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I groan as I feel someone shaking me awake. I push the hand away and turn over on my side, not wanting to wake up. "Billie if you don't get your flat ass up" Someone groaned making me lazily flip them off.

"Baby" My eyes peeked open to see Halley frowning at me as she stood outside the car with the door wide open. "Come on we're here" She tells me making me rub the sleep of my eyes.

"Where is here?" I ask tiredly as I step out of the car and stand to my feet. She only smiles brightly at me before turning around. I look past her shoulders before my eyes widened.

Before me stood the sign 'Welcome to Your Greatest Horse-Riding Experience'. I looked around and saw a barn with a few people walking in and out with horses and saddles.

"I may not be one of your crazy fans and know everything about you" Halley said bringing my attention back to her as tears roll down my cheeks. "But I do know that horses are one of your favorite animals" She says, walking over to me.

I turn to her and crash into her arms as I cry. She rubs my back making me smile through the tears. "I'm going to need you to get it together though because I'm a sucker for tears" She then tells me making me burst into a pit of laughter. I look at her in disbelief as I laugh making her playfully glare at me.

"Thank you" I whisper as I look into her eyes. She smiles at me and moves my hair out of my face. "You know I always got you Eilish" She tells me and leans forward to pecks my lips.

I hug her just as someone comes over to us and asks if we need any help. Halley immediately tells him about booking a private ride for the two of us. He nods his head and leads us into the barn. "Hey Celeste" He calls out to a ginger haired girl who was talking to one of the horses. Halley eyed her but nevertheless still walked over to her.

Celeste smiles at the both of us as Louis tells her the same thing Halley told him. "Oh! Yes I been waiting for you guys!" Celeste says excitedly before shaking our hands. "I'm Celeste, head of things around here. Welcome!"

"I'm Halley and this is my girlfriend Billie" Halley introduces us and I just smile at the woman with a small wave.

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I stare at Halley who contently stares out at the large mass of water. After getting our horses, Halley challenged me to a race where she most definitely cheated. We made our way to the beach and just been walking along the shore.

I look down at my horse, Luna, and smile to myself. "What are you so smiley about?" Halley teasingly asks making me look over at her.

"This has been the best birthday I have ever had" I tell her truthfully making her grin over at me. "Thank you" I say making her blush and look away.

"It's nothing. I just wanted to make you happy" She tells me but I shake my head no. Reaching my hand out, I hold hers and make her look at me.

"Just being with you makes me happy. The horses are a bonus" Just as I said that Luna made a noise making me quickly apologize to her. I brush my fingers through her beautiful mane and smile.

"Luna don't got time for unappreciated work now" Halley laughed to which I joined in and leaned down to kiss the side Luna's head.

"She knows she's my favorite" I coo slightly making Halley try to sneakily flip me off. "I saw that" I say without looking at her and continued to praise Luna.

"Come on we only have thirty minutes left" Halley tells me making me groan but nod my head. We head back to the ranch, talking pretty much the whole time. Halley asks me questions about growing up which I was happy to answer.

"Who's your best friend?" Halley asks me.

"Finneas" I reply with no hesitation. Halley looks at me slightly shocked. "Damn what about Zoe and Drew?"

"They are my best friends yes but Finneas will always be number one." I shrug my shoulders and smile to myself. "Finneas has been with me through everything, good or bad. He always knows what to say for my slow ass to comprehend."

"Plus" I pause and look down at Luna. "He's a really good big brother." I add making Halley swoon dramatically.

"Awww" I shake my head at her goofy ass. "Never tell him I said that" I mutter making her laugh.

"Your secret is safe with me" My eyes turn to look at Halley as she begins to hum a song. She has a cheeky smile on her face and couldn't stop shifting around.

"You okay?" She nods her head but her body language gave she had something to say and was about to explode. "You sure" she hummed in response and looked away from me.

I could see the ranch in the distance making me feel a little sad that I had to leave Luna soon. "I love you!" My eyes widened and I look over at Halley who smacks her hand over her mouth in shock.

"You w-what?"

Halley shakes her head no and takes off. I watch as her horse, Snow, carries her further away from me and toward the ranch. I stare at her retreating form confused and utterly shocked.

The fuck just happened?

Did I hear her right?

I sigh and decide to not hurry back to the ranch but to take my time and think. "She can't love me right? Maybe she just said it to say it" I shrug my shoulders and look down at Luna for confirmation on my delusions.

Luna doesn't respond making me huff.

"Does she not realize that we drove in the same car so I will have to see her eitherway?" I thought out loud as I frown.

"Why would she run anyways?" I roll my eyes as we grow closer to the ranch. I could see Halley getting off of Snow and rubbing her sweaty palms on her pants.

I reach the ranch and get off of Luna. A trainer hands me a treat for her and I smile, feeding the carrot to Luna who gladly eats it up. "Good girl" I kiss her softly and rub her side before looking around for Halley.

She was already walking to the car making me sigh and say thank you to Celeste. "See you guys soon!" Celeste yells as I walk away making me roll my eyes.

Some people are just too happy all the time.

As I near the car, I try to think of what to honestly say. I didn't know where Halley head is at and to be quite honest, I don't know where mine is too.

God kill me now.