chapter 55

  I have sent her message to meet me after practicals so here we are , me and Abhi sitting in the canteen waiting for her  with a message left on seen and no certainty if she'd actually show up. " Are you sure she'll come Vibha?"" Hmm."No I am not. I am just hoping she won't ditch me. After almost half an hour of whining from Abhi I finally saw her enter from the front door looking around searching for me. I raised my hand snapping fingers to call her over. She looked a bit dull. Not really excited about meeting me I can say. She came and sat across me not even settling before asking , " What is it?" What's the rush ? Why do you want to leave so bad love? " Well , what would you like to eat?" " Nothing. Just say whatever it is and get over with it. "" Ouch. That's a bit rude you know? You shouldn't say no to food darling." I said trying to reach for her hand but as if predicted my actions she pulled away before I could reach. This isn't as easy as I thought. " I am not hungry. Just say whatever it is. "" Get us both a Frankie and get yourself something as well. ", I told Abhi and handed him the money. He nodded and stood up. " Love, don't be like this? That's what I wanted to talk about." , I tried to pinch her cheeks but she pulled back making me frown.Why is she dodging me so much today?" Vibha -", Moron was back to tapping my shoulders. Can't he wait for a second when I am trying to get a moment here?" What?" , I literally snapped at him making him flinch. " What Frankie-"" Just get whatever the hell you feel like." I hope he takes the cue to leave here. " Veg non-" " Go get the normal one. " I almost shoved him out. " Normal as in-" " What are you? Two?" I couldn't take it anymore and stood up taking the money back from him and proceeded to order myself.Moron for real. I ordered for all three of us and walked back to our table only to find her gone. Ughh this girl! I ran over to find her and there she was storming her way out. So now I run over and pin her to the wall- where's the wall though? Can't the college build a wall in midst of campus?I still ran over grabbing her wrist but she yanked her hand before I could even do anything. " Vibha leave!" , she sounded so low. " No listen to me ."" VIBHA LEAVE!!" , she practically screamed making me flinch and my grip loosened. I stood there frozen as I watched tears roll down her eyes. Before I knew she had started sobbing. " A-Aarushi-" , I wanted to embrace her but she just shoved me away and yelled at me to leave. I wanted to hug her , tell her I won't , tell her I would never leave her but it were as if every cell in my body had frozen. I couldn't move a muscle, stood there in horror watching her breakdown because of me. I can never forgive myself for it." Aarushi-" , I inched closer trying to touch her but she slapped my hand away. " Stop please. It hurts. Leave me alone. Please. ", she said those words in such a voice that I couldn't even hold myself together anymore. I have never felt this pathetic before. Never ever. She left sobbing and I stood there like a statue watching my love walk away in tears, which I am the cause of . " Vibha-" " Vibha!!" , before I knew I was embraced and I let my tears flow down clutching tightly onto the cloth of the shirt. " Shhh. What's wrong? I am here. I will make it right. Just tell me what's wrong?", it was Abhi, he held me tight as he rubbed my back running his fingers through my hairs asking me what's wrong. " She - she left. I - I- hurt her. She cr-cried b-becauze o-of me- I am horrible -" , I don't even know if I made sense. I was trying to gesture him how horrible I was but he simply pulled me back and embraced me. " Shh you are not. It's okay. It wasn't your fault. "" It was my fault! It totally was my fault!!" , I screamed pulling away and he looked at me with pity. Perhaps I am mess right now but she? She's hurt, because she felt I preferred him over her. Because she felt I prioritised him , because she-"Vibha-",    And the next before I could even analyse my thoughts they had taken form of rage and I shoved him away. He felt back down on the ground and his face turned pale. I sure won't be looking that friendly right now , but he was responsible for this mess. He was the reason I lost her. He-" Vibha-" " Shut Up! This is all because of you!! "" Vibha-"" IT WAS YOUR STUPID PLAN THAT I LOST HER!! IF ONLY YOU HADN'T TOLD ME TO DO THAT, IF ONLY I HADN'T GONE OUT WITH YOU POSTED THOSE PICTURES , DID ALL THOSE STUPID THINGS I DID , IF ONLY I HADN'T- "," Vibh-"my voice choked and here he was still chanting my name. We did have some audience intrested in other' s business but that concerned me nowhere. What I felt right now was far more worse than what they could think of me. " I wouldn't have hurt her. I wouldn't have made her cry. I don't deserve her. I don't deserve to be loved. I don't deserve to love-"