chapter 46

[ On Text ]Moron :HeyWe need to TalkMe:I don't Moron:But I doMe:Sounds like your problem.Moron:It's about Arushi     He got me there. Looks like we really have to have this conversation now. Me:What?Moron:What is it between you two?Me:Something you could never have.Moron:Are you serious?Me:Why are you even interested?Moron:First of all she was my crush , you step in between and then aske me why am I interested?Me:To her you are nothing but a creep. Moron:As if you are way too great.Me:Better than you.Moron:Can you for once please learn to talk without starting an argument?Me:I won'tGo cry about it Moron:PleaseI am serious here.Me:Speak the imp and get tf Outta my chat. Moron:Do you like her?     How does he know? My fingers lingered over the screen for a while and every muscle of my face tensed. " Didi" " Didi !", the maid literally screamed in my ear and I flinched so bad that my phone dropped on the doormat. She picked it up for me giving me a puzzled look. " Didi what's wrong?", she asked and I shook my head. " Nothing. I will go freshen up. I want bhaji with tea today.", I randomly blurted and ran to my room living her bewildered. This idiot surely would get me in trouble. Me:What if I do?Moron:Are you serious?Me:What if I am?Moron:Its not funny Vibhavari.I am being dead serious here. Me:What does it even have to do with you? None of ya business.Moron:Because I do care about other's feelings unlike self-centered you!Me:And nobody cares about yours so go cry. Moron:I am dead serious here. Me:That sentence would have sounded better without serious. Moron:Can you be sweet for once?Please Are you really pursuing her?Me:What are you going to do about it?Moron:Help you perhaps.Me:That wasn't funny.Moron:It wasn't meant to be .        This guy surely is an unpredictable creep. Why would you help your ex get a girl she's chasing who happens to be your crush? Knowing it was just for revenge, though it's not anymore but still -Moron:If you believe me even a bitMeet me tomorrow at college canteen.     I left that on seen as much as I wanted to mock a reply but I am actually confused here. Why would he even want to help me in the first place?  I had just set the phone aside when I received another text. What now?Sahil:Wanna hangout?      " I am going out , I will be back by-". " Then who am I making bhajis for?" , the maid yelled back annoyed before Vibha could step out. " Have you made them already?" " No but I have already peeled the onion. " " Use them in dinner.", I yelled back and dashed out before she could bombard me with anymore questions.      I reached the cafe and settled across him. " Hii. It's been a long.", he said as he passed over the water glass to me. " Hardly a year , missing me already?" , I taunted and he nodded. " Nobody to save me from bullies you know? Missing my lady don. " I smirked at it and he laughed it off. " Well how have you been?" " Pretty much okay. " " Hmm. Let's order something so we can get to your tea. I need details please.", he said placing order for us.     " It's nothing much you know-" " I don't so tell me since start. You got dumped?" I sighed and nodded. " Yes I did. "  " I would have even believed if you dumped him but the other way around- never thought that nerd had so much guts. What reason did he give?"  , he sipped his coffee waiting for me to respond. " He said he liked someone else and that we didn't work out. ", I tried to sound casual though somewhere I still felt insulted. " Who is this someone else?"  I pulled out my phone scrolling through her photos. Yes , I do have a separate folder full of her photos. I clicked on it and showed him. " She does look beautiful.", he said with  a smile and I glared at him. " Ofcourse never more than you. ", he immediately corrected himself. I love the fear I have instilled here. " I snatched my phone back. I know she is beautiful but she's mine so don't you dare think of her ." , I warned him and his eyes widened. I am sure he never expected this.      He took a good 4-5 minutes to process what I said and finally reacted. " What kind of revenge game are you playing here?" " No game. I mean okay , initially I was kind of pissed and just wanted to revenge but when I saw her , I could actually see why she was better than me and also since start it was never anything against her. I just wanted to steal her right under his nose but now...." " Now?" ,he waited impatiently for me to complete and I have absolutely no idea why was I so nervous to say it. " Now I am actually pursuing her. "  I waited for him to react but he just seemed to lost. " I don't even know what to say about this. Who all know?"  " Almost everyone . I haven't tried to keep it secret. " " Not like you even know how to. You are always obivious about things you want." " Hey!"        " Anyways , does Abhijeet know?" " He has to. I mean I am quite straightforward. He knows I  am chasing after her also that we two are friends and the way he keeps warning me to not hurt , ofcourse he knows." He looked amused . I am sure he never saw any of it happening. " He did. It's hilarious. He tries to look mad when I can clearly tell he'd cry any moment." , I laughed it off but he didn't. He instead turned serious.     " I never understood you two. Why are you even bringing another girl in between? ", he was totally disappointed, his tone said it all. Honestly, he was the middle man always, like he was the one who helped Abhijeet propose me and then he only persuaded me and also he was the mediator in our fights, telling my father everything he was there so I can say he rooted for us more than anyone. Though we all walked different paths and our groups split apart after our breakup , Sahil had always been on neutral . He avoided the topics that might trigger but usually he would be -     " I don't know this doesn't feel right. Does Abhijeet have nothing to say on this?" , he asked so desparately that any other time I would have rethought my decision but right now I only felt insulted," Why does his say on my life even matter?" " Because he loved you, he was -" " Was ! Highlight that word . I don't give a damn about his existence anymore it's only annoying. Sahil bit back anything else he had to say . He looked way too disappointed but he knew he wasn't getting anywhere with it.      " You two haven't considered getting back together at all?" , he asked in a defeated tone. I shrugged it off in a obivious no. " None of us have feelings for each other why bother wasting our time ? Also I found the one I genuinely love and want to spend my life with why should -"      " I don't think it's right Vibha, I , you don't understand Abhijeet like I do , you aren't seeing -" " Ughh can you stop siding him for once? C'mon none of us want it to happen why force it? Perhaps I shouldn't have wasted my time on him since the start but nevermind it was equally necessary or how else would I have met my love. ", I leaned back in my chair with a smile and he still looked at me with that distant sadness.      " When it comes to feelings and love , you really understand nothing Vibha. "  "Hey! What are you suddenly -"     " I am telling facts. If you ever understood people's feelings instead of assuming on your own and start seeing the things for how they are instead of what you want them to be you would actually see who loves you and who doesn't and also whom you love and not whom you want to love. You just decide things and then make them happen the way you decide and get frustrated when they don't, only if you let things happen on their own and accept them you'd know what is actually right for you. You come up with a desire and force everything to make it come true , but that's not how love works! You don't decide whom you want to love , love finds you and you simply embrace it . You don't go setting demands for it and forcing your way. Heck you don't understand! You understand nothing Vibha! Why do you have to be this dumb when it comes to love? "     For a moment I just stared at his messed hairs , which he had been ruffling and grabbing at throughout his speech and his eyes that looked at me as if I were to be blamed for everything and his desperate face trying to make me understand but the look he gave me and the way he made it look like it was entirely my fault just stirred up the anger within me . I was holding back for the sake of our friendship. He sat back down gulping a glass of water trying to regulate his breathing.           " You are right, I know nothing about love ." , I said and he looked up his expressions softening a bit , perhaps at the realisation of how loud and harsh he was but that didn't matter. " I don't know what love is , all  I know is I want it to be with her and only her. " I picked up my phone , paid for my share and walked out. He didn't even try to stop me. That's right, I guess , I know where this came from.      We really need to talk tomorrow Moron.