chapter 41

    " How do you tell if someone is in love?" " Are you in love?" " No !" " Do you have a friend of a friend you need advice for?" , he asked smirking and I quickly dismissed the idea . " No! not like that. Like how do I tell if someone likes me? Like has feelings for me." , I bit nervously onto my lips while he pondered over the question a bit confused. " So you want to know if someone actually likes you or not? As in romantically?" I nodded. " Aha! Then you are at perfect aid. Go freshen up and we will discuss it over the tea." , he beamed into a smile and I hurried my way up. Did I do the right thing? Involving him? I mean I have to tell him in the end right? Won't it be better if he knows it since the start?       When I got down he had set tea for us with some biscuits and a notepad and pen ? What am I getting myself into? I sat across him waiting for him to initiate whatever session this was now. He took his pen and scribbled something onto his notepad. After what felt like him preparing an entire questionaire he looked at me." So first tell me. How do you two know each other?" Am I supposed to take the name? If I give the descriptions he will guess anyways should I just- "You don't have to take the name if you don't want but know that, you don't have to hide from me as well. Upto you.", he said it so calmly that I might die of guilt if I had to not tell it to him now.     " Umm, it's her, it's a girl.", I said that so nervously that my voice didn't reach my own ears. I hadn't told him I liked a girl , though he is of most things open minded , I am not sure how he is going to react to this.  " Let me guess, is it ' Aarushi'? ", he asked , voice neutral, how am I to even read the mood on this. I nodded. Sneaking glances for any reaction. He set his cup aside hands folding onto each other in front of me. Serious discussion it is now.       " First, of all. Be honest this is not about just revenge right?" , his voice was so stern that at a moment I lost mine. " It's , I don't know what it is. I just know that I like her around me. I like to annoy her , I like to have her around. I like it when she smiles at me , when she laughs, when she says she wants me to come with her, in general I like the time I spend with her. I know, it started with a hint of jealousy, I wanted to know who this girl was , better than me , so capable to steal my boyfriend but now that I know her I , I feel I don't know what I feel. I just know it's nothing to do with him anymore it's - I don't know what it is - I am confused!" , I blabbered it all and just burried my face in my arms and leaned down on the table.      " Okay okay. I get it I get it. Sorry to have doubted you. You are so madly in love. " " I am not?" I snapped up at him and he raised an eyebrow. " What?", I asked watching his strike the pen in air " Answer a few questions and we will know that." " Okay?" What bad could these be?       " Do you feel like roses are blooming, sun is shining so bright, all heavenly heavens and wind are blowing, caressing your skin and gently playing with your hairs when you are around her?" , he asked it with his overdramatic acting. I can't with him.  He was expecting an answer, perhaps positive." No? " , he frowned and settled back down, " Then?" " No weather changes when I meet her. It's stupid sunny or sleepy gloomy as always. Also we have weird wild flowers on road which bloom almost entire year and the pollution is constant on name of wind we have black smoke from vehicle-"  He clicked his tongue and gave me a done look, set the pen aside on the table and pulled a forced smile.  " I clearly see why you were dumped and still your current crush hasn't considered you leave alone reciprocating your feelings."     It was my turn to be disappointed. " Are you my dad?" " The question should be ' Are you my daughter?' " , he gave an offended gesture.  I am done. I stood up to leave.      " Aish okay okay. Let's move to next question. Umm, so when you are with them do you feel happy? The different kind of happy you don't feel with anyone else?"  I sat back down and gave it a thought " Hmm. I guess I do. "     " You love it when they are around even if they sometimes make you annoyed but life without them just doesn't seem to work out?" I nodded.     " You want to share the secrets with them that you haven't done to anyone before, treat them the way you never did to anyone, kind of make them feel special?" I nodded.      " You like it when they smile, their problems feel yours, at a point keeping them safe , happy , protected seems your sole purpose? " I nodded.     " You hate it when someone else seems to get more of their attention than you do?You feel like they deserve the best and you are willing to be that for them?"  I nodded.     " Do you want to ditch everything else just to be available for them? Priorities you know?" I nodded again.     " Do you like it when they approach you for any trivial reason?" I nodded.     " Even their slightest touch feels magical. The kind you never felt before with anyone. Like a different kind of spark?" That was something I didn't really understand but I nodded hesitantly.     " You want to tell them, tell yourself, tell the entire world that they are yours and you belong to them but at the same time you just want to hide them from everyone because you don't like it when they pay attention to anyone who's not you?" I don't know what's this taken form of but I nodded .     " You have no reasons to justify your actions or words or thoughts or feelings but all you understand is that you want them to be yours and you want to be theirs." I nodded.    He slammed his fist on the table out of nowhere and snapped his finger giving me a thumbs up. " Congratulations you are in love. "