chapter 30

[ Vibha's p.o.v ]      " We need to talk Vibhavari. ", his voice was low and stern. The tone and him calling me by my full name was enough to make me feel the weight of entire world being placed on my heart . He didn't even say anything yet I found myself feeling guilty.  The look, it was stressing me out.        He gestured me to sit in front of him and I did. My eyes searching for slightest hint of the cause on his face. " I really don't appreciate the mistake and being harsh but honest , I feel ashamed for what you did. Making it worse I am more unhappy to hear it from someone other than you. That hurts the trust I put in you . That hurts the morals I invested into you. ", his words stabbed like a knife. They proved his current state , or to say how much he was disappointed in me. But I had no idea about what.      " I - I really don't understand wh-what your talking about. I - " " Do I need to say it?" " I really dont-", my voice choked as tears kept on streaming down my eyes. " I understand your anger and hatred for that boy but it doesn't justify what you did to the one he loves. How could you go to such an extent? Even if it was just to scare her off your competition, it still was such a lowly way. Imagine how bad it could have been ! I am not saying what done was good it already is worse and shameful to me. How can my daughter drop down to such a level? All this for revenge? Playing with someone's fears and emotions? Someone who ain't even responsible for what happened to you? Was it really worth for you? You didn't feel anything while doing so? Of all the things I ever taught you, how can you-", his words were left incomplete as he got up and left from the room.       It hurt more to see the anger convert into silent tears he tried to hide. I surely have disappointed him a lot. Perhaps am the worst person in his life at this moment. Unlike him , I couldn't hold back my tears that flowed down my cheeks as everything around me started to get blur.      He got it wrong. I didn't mean to hurt her. I didn't even approve or even know the plan , I-     Despite them being in thoughts, I could feel the words choke up making me suffocate.      I wanted a revenge on him, and so I did it. He said nothing wrong. But that was not how I ....       Everything seemed so messed up . I messed up , I messed it all. I -      " Didi ? Didi!", I heard a voice keep on calling to me . I looked at the source with my teary eyes . " What's wrong. What happened? ", she asked me as she used her own cloth to wipe my face.  " Weren't you out?", is all I managed to mumble and her face softened. " That cancelled. I even texted master about it. But that's not important. Tell me what happened. Didi I know won't cry until it's something serious. ", her words unintentionally deepened the wound.     Didi you know? She's not like this? This pathetic? How would you as well react if you know what I did ? You'll hate me as well.      " Didi. What is it? Won't you tell me? You have told me all your secrets and you know I keep them for you. Don't you trust me now didi?", she kept on her persuading while I couldn't find words to answer anything. I got up and ran straight to my room, leaving the bewildered lady to keep guessing.        I locked myself in the room and  let my emotions flow down .       I don't know what I felt at this moment, my own emotions and actions so messed up to comprehend.     I did that for revenge, I sure did. But never with an intention to hurt her right? I played with her feelings? I didn't. I just wanted to use her- it's still use - but I was willing to do whatever for it. But it was still for my own personal gains. But no intention of hurting her. I only meant to make him feel down but not her. I never -    I felt like banging my head on something.     Was I just justifying my actions to feel better? Maybe I am really as cruel as they say. He too broke up with me. Must be because I am that bad. I went to an extent to play with someone's life , emotions and fears, am just horrible. A horrible monster. [ Aru's p.o.v ]      It's been almost half the day in college and there's no trace of this disturbing human. I was getting irritated by her absence much more than I do with her presence. It's not about her though. I brought her jacket with me and she didn't show up and now my efforts are going to be nothing but just waste. I  shrugged off the thoughts by convincing myself the lazy sloth must have not got up .     " You to the class to back to the earth!", Neeta almost screamed in my ears interrupting my inner conflict. I held my ear giving her a glare which she smirked at. " What's wrong though? You seem disturbed?", Malini voiced her concern and now I knew it was serious question. Yes I am , because my disturbance ain't here to disturb and now I am disturbed because she ain't disturbing me? Does that make sense? But if I say it's about her , they'll just get another reason to annoy me for rest of my life. Obiviously am lying , " I just don't feel like studying today. " "I never do. ", Neeta added and Malini just shook her head in disappointment.     I got back to spinning my pencil through the period not a bit  focused on whatever alpha-numeric characters being drawn on the board.       But seriously where even is this idiot?