CH 84
I Was Confessed to by the Person I Was Admiring
then, paolo looked at me as if he wanted to say âpoor you,â and said:
âoh, i see. anyway, the reason i came today was to ask when you can come to the shop.â
that was the main point, and his expression was a little serious. however, i groaned softly.
âis it impossible after all?â
âno, itâs not that. you see, there have been a series of explosion incidents recently, and it seems that the upper class is being targeted. thatâs why iâve been told not to go outside.â
actually, i witnessed it relatively close by, so the fear from that time is still ingrained in me. fortunately, no one died, but i heard that some people were seriously injured, which made me even more scared.
âi want to go, but i donât think i can do it right away. itâs still scary.â
âbut those incidents are only targeting places where the upper class gathers. so my place is safe. itâs a place where only workers hang out.â
âif itâs such a place, itâs even more dangerous.â
suddenly, dennis spoke up. she had been silent last time, so i was surprised when i looked at her and saw her staring at paolo with eyes that seemed to be looking at a fool. as expected, dennisâ expression in these situations is quite scary.
âanything can happen in the downtown area. itâs also a breeding ground for crime. the most dangerous people are often found among those kinds of people. i wonât allow my master to go to such a place.â
paolo meets dennisâ gaze and they stare at each other silently for a while. the tense atmosphere was so thick that i couldnât say anything.
eventually, paolo spoke first, unable to bear the tension in the air any longer.
ââ¦well, itâs certainly not safe for a girl to be alone. there are also drunks around, so itâs hard to say itâs safe.â
âthenâ¦!â
âthatâs why you should come too. besides, you have a fiancé, right? you should bring that person along too. iâll make sure we get a seat where we wonât be bothered, so please come. i really want you to come, please.â
paolo interrupted dennis, who was about to say something, and pleaded with me.
honestly, it was hard to refuse after being told that much.
however, i didnât understand why he was in such a hurry. i could only think that there was some reason, like the storeâs survival being in danger.
âwell, i guess i can go.â
âthenâ¦â
âbut why canât we go after this incident is over?â
i asked honestly, feeling skeptical. paolo fell silent for a moment before scratching his cheek with a slightly embarrassed look.
âi want to talk. more, more⦠you will eventually leave here, and then we wonât be able to meet.â
âi wonât be gone long, okay? i always come here during the social season.â
âisnât that a long time from now? are you telling me to wait until then? i was worried that you might have to return to your territory because of the incident,â he said with a slightly rough voice, and paolo turned to the side.
he seemed a little sulky. i didnât expect him to show such an attitude, and i felt guilty and my chest tightened.
perhaps, unlike me, paoloâs memories of his past life are quite vivid.
i have read stories about people like him who couldnât bear the difference between their past and present lives and went insane. of course, it was not a made-up story but something that was recorded as true.
i donât want paolo to become like that.
âi donât care if you bring another guard with you, iâ¦â
âokay.â
i interrupted paolo as he tried to offer more conditions and said firmly what i had to say.
âl-lorraine-sama!â
dennis groaned in shock as if she was about to approach us. i felt bad seeing her reaction, but it also hurt my heart not to listen to paoloâs request.
âiâm sorry. but you have to come with me, and iâll explain the situation to jeremiah. is that okay?â
âbut, iâ¦â
dennis seems unable to accept it. however, ignoring her, paolo happily comes to me and takes my hand.
âthank you! i was worried that we might not be able to talk properly and you would leave.â
âwhy would you think that? even though we just met, i wouldnât forget about it so easily and i would like to keep in touch if possible.â
paoloâs statement was so out of character that i was a little miffed. even if i were forcibly returned to the valcourt territory, there must be a way to contact paolo.
âyeah, sorry. but you have a family, a fiancee, and friends, and you have a place in this world. thereâs no way i can fit in there.â
âwhat are you talking about? youâre already my friend.â
at least thatâs what i think. weâve only known each other for a short time, but our connection is not shallow. he is the only person i know in this world who has the same past life as me, in the same era and country. itâs difficult to live without any involvement.
âoh yeah, youâre right.â
âthatâs right.â
as paolo nodded his head in agreement, he smiled a little sadly. why did he have such an expression? perhaps there was a secret to his earlier words.
he had said, âyou have a family, donât you?â but it sounded as if he didnât have anyone like that.
it was difficult to speak about such delicate matters.
âwell then, iâll wait for your good news. call me when you have something to say. iâll think more carefully about what to make until then.â
âokay, iâll do my best.â
âthen, iâll get back to work.â
paolo reluctantly released the hand he had been holding onto and returned to his usual graceful servant persona as he left.
the warmth of his touch remained on my hand strangely, leaving me perplexed.