CH 20
I Was Confessed to by the Person I Was Admiring
âI see, I understand the situation. However, please stop doing things like that. I will gather information about him, so you just stay quiet. If you want to do something, just try to probe during conversationsâ¦â
âOkay, I understand⦠Iâm sorry.â
I apologized to Jeremiah, who still exuded an aura of irritation from his entire body. I wondered what I could do to make him forgive me.
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He was really scary when he was angry. I felt so down that I was about to cry. I was so down that I started to cry a little.
âYou donât have to apologize so much⦠I was out of line. Wait, are you crying?â
âUh, yeah⦠I was just a little scared. Itâs my fault, so itâs okay, donât worryâ¦â
I couldnât say anything more.
Jeremiah stood up and came to my side. He brought his lips close to my eyelids and wiped away my tears. I was gently embraced without knowing what had happened due to the shock.
What is this? Why am I being hugged?
âIâm sorry, I couldnât control my emotions. I didnât mean to scare youâ¦â
I couldnât say anything.
I said absentmindedly, âReally, donât worry about it,â
My voice trembled. But I thought it was better than saying nothing.
Still, Jeremiah didnât seem to be letting go anytime soon. I stared blankly outside, feeling like someone passing by was looking this way, but I didnât know who it was.
After some time had passed, Jeremiah finally let go, but he didnât move away. Instead, he held my hand, and I was shaken.
âWhat can I do to make it up to you?â
ââ¦Huh, thatâs actually my line.â
When I reflexively responded to Jeremiahâs words with surprise, he looked momentarily surprised, then quickly put on a troubled smile.
âI see. Iâm really sorry. Iâve heard when I get angry, Iâm scaryâ¦â
âYes, thatâs true. But since you were rightfully angry, thereâs nothing to be done. Thank you for comforting me.â
I said, rubbing my eyes.
I felt strange, but also a little curious. The anger that had been directed at me was certainly scary, but I had done something that deserved it. Even so, I was surprised that he would comfort me like this.
âOh, I really felt bad. Anyway, let me handle Aurelio and your cousinâs matter. As soon as I get the information, Iâll let you know.â
âYes. My aunt told me yesterday to rely on you⦠I shouldnât have jumped the gun. From now on, Iâll do as Iâm told and Iâll do my best as your [girlfriend].â
As I said that, he showed a somewhat complicated expression.
âHey, do you remember when I said I had something to tell you yesterday?â
âOh, yes. I was flustered about Dorothea at that time, but I remember.â
In response, he nodded once and grabbed my right hand a little tightly.
âActually, my father came to me and told me that your aunt talked to him about you, and asked for my opinion on what to do. I said it was okay to proceed with the conversation. So, Iâm thinking of announcing our engagement on the last day of this gathering, but I wanted to make sure I have your consent.â
ââ¦â¦Konnyaku (Engagement)?â
For a moment, I thought I misheard and he said âkonnyakuâ (a type of food), but there is no such food in this world. Besides, konnyaku is not something you announce, itâs a healthy, low-calorie ingredient that women are happy to have. If thatâs the case, it means exactly what it says. Engagement, not konnyaku, no, engagement. In other words, itâs a promise to marry this person.
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âIf you really donât want to, then you can say no. However, there arenât many people I can trust like you, so I want you to be my girlfriend for a little while longer.â
My right palm was squeezed even harder, and a feverish gaze was directed at me.
I froze.
What should I do? But the beautiful face that I liked so much was looking at me as if pleading. My chest tightened, and I had trouble breathing. I couldnât refuse.
âO-Okay. If I can be of any help, Iâll be happy to do it.â
I will continue to be a fake lover.
I added quietly in my heart.
âIâm glad you said that. Iâm sorry for scaring you⦠You might hate it, but letâs stay together a little longer. I want to talk to you, and I still want you to learn that dance. Didnât I say thereâs another ball scheduled?â
âYes, but⦠Iâm really bad at dancing.â
And I had a little resistance to dancing with Jeremiah. I remembered the gaze directed at me on the day I was asked to be his partner. I couldnât match him.
However, the more I realized that being by his side wasnât just about his appearance, the more I knew I was exposing myself to a bad situation. Yet, I couldnât refuse when asked.
âSo letâs practice, you donât have any plans in the morning, right? Besides, the dress you ordered will arrive soon. Oh, by the way, why donât you show me yourself in the dress first?â
âOf course, but Iâm a little worried because itâs my first time wearing such a gorgeous dress, and Iâm not sure if I can pull it off.â
âDonât worry, it will definitely suit you. Come on, letâs go to the ballroom. Iâm also thinking of inviting Bruno and the others on the way.â
He took my hand and helped me stand up. As he placed his hand on my arm and smiled at me, I completely lost the will to refuse.
Oh no, this is a really bad development.
âAlso, youâll meet my father tomorrow. If we can get approval from your parents, I want you to sign the engagement pledge. Itâs better to do this kind of thing early.â
âW-what? Already?â
âYes.â
I felt like there was something hidden in his sweet smile.
I felt like a moth caught in a spiderâs web. Thereâs something I donât know. If we continue like this, it seems like there will be no turning back.
Today, Iâll write a letter to my family. I wrote a letter a little while ago, before Jeremiah asked me to be his girlfriend. I thought I should tell them whatâs happening now.
But I had a premonition.
I probably wonât make it in timeâ¦