Gia Amour Brewster
"You really doing the damn thing G, proud of you." Rain said as we sat down on the couch.
Ever since I ran into Rain a couple months ago we have been talking nonstop. The friendship literally picked up where it left off. Rain and Willow were visiting from Atlanta.
"Girl bye, I haven't even done anything for you to be proud of." I told her.
"I'm not we're I want to be at at life. A single mom? No real. Like my mom, when she was my age she had a name for herself, a business!" I vented as Rain sat there.
"Gia stop. You're an amazing mom. So what you and Booby not together? What's important is Essex is happy, healthy. You have your own business. The lingerie line and the clothing line no?" She asked as I shook my head no.
"I don't even want to do any of that. Like my heart is not even there. I could care less about that stuff. I don't know what to do with my life." I spoke while the tears started to come down.
"Awww GiGi." Rain said pulling me into a hug.
"And like I'm tired of crying. It's all I do. I cry every damn day. It's exhausting. The other day Essex had to wipe my tears. My three year old shouldn't be wiping my tears. It's just sucks. To have no help, no one." I continued to cry as Rain patted my back.
"I know, I know exactly what it feels like to have no one. To like your alone. To have your child wipe your own tears. I've been through it all. I had people, I had a friends, you guys who wanted to help me but no I didn't want to accept the help." Rain said as I pulled away looking at her.
"I'm so sorry, Rain. I was a terrible friend. I wasn't there for you. I'm still a shitty friend. I'm crying about my little problems." I said as she cut me off.
"Stop, it's not your fault. I didn't want the help. You're here now, I'm here now. That's all that matters." Rain shouted while wiping my tears.
Feeling my phone vibrate I picked it up and noticed it was Essex's iPad.
"Mommy!" He shouted as I wiped the tears smiling.
"Mommy crying? You sad. Why you sad?" He asked, causing me to smile as I shook my head.
"No mommy allergies are bad." I told him as he just stared at me tilting his head to the side.
"Daddy! Mommy allergies bad." He said turning the IPad towards Booby who was now walking towards the IPad.
"Why you crying?" Booby deep ass voice boomed as I watch him pick Essex and the iPad up.
"Me and Rain was cleaning, It's dusty in here." I lied as he sucked his teeth.
"If you don't want to tell me cool, that lying shit childish as fuck. Essex say Goodnight to your mother." Booby said putting Essex back in the camera.
"Night night mommy." He said causing me to poke my lip out.
"Goodnight baby, I miss you." I said as he just smiled. I had agreed to let Essex go to Atlanta with Booby until I was settled into my new townhouse. I wasn't really up for it but Dior decided to go back out there to end her lease and get some of her things and put others in storage.
"tell ya you love her." I heard Booby say in the back.
"Love you mama." He said kissing his hand and blowing the kiss towards me. "I love you too papa. Mommy talk to you in the morning okay?" I told him as he nodded his head and hung up.
"I miss my baby." I cried as Rain looked at me.
"Alright bitch. The crying needs to stop. When the hell you became so sensitive?" She asked as I shrugged my shoulders.
I honestly did not know and it was becoming extremely annoying. "I cry at the littlest things now." I said as she just looked at me.
"How's Gio?" Rain asked causing me to look up at her.
"Um, he's fine. Him and Storm live in Cali. That's why they don't really be at events anymore. He had another baby too." I said slowly. Gio was one who didn't like when people told his business especially when he didn't fuck with the person.
"Oh, that's good for him." She mumbled as I nodded my head. This was the first time Rain had brought up Gio. I knew the way their friendship ended was a soft topic for both of them so I do not mention either one.
"You know he misses you." I said as she rolled her eyes.
"Stop, don't lie. I know he hates me. I would hate me too." She said as I rolled my eyes. I knew Gio like the back of my hand. He may put this front up and act all big and bag but he's a real teddy bear. Gio genuinely cares for Rain. So he was just mad and disappointed with Rain.
"I wouldn't even know how to apologize how to start a conversation." She said as I just remained quiet.
I definitely wasn't going to get in between them two. But best believe I was ready to check Gio if he did get disrespectful whenever Rain decided to speak to him.
"Mama, I pee!" We heard causing us to turn and see Willow standing in the hallway.
"Not on my new bed Willow!" I said as Rain started laughing and walked to pick Willow up.
"It's okay, auntie didn't mean to yell." I heard Rain say as I felt the tears coming down. "What the fuck." I mumbled wiping my tears. The thought of having to clean up piss was making me cry. Stupid shit.
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"Gia you okay?" I heard Rain say as she turned the bathroom light on. Shaking my head no, I put my head back in the toilet bowl throwing up some more.
"How long you been in here." She asked grabbing my hair holding it up.
Wiping my mouth, "like ten minutes." I said flushing the toilet. My stomach finally felt somewhat normal.
"I guess the sushi was bad?" Rain asked as I shrugged my shoulders. "It tasted fine." I told her while grabbing my tooth brush and she got quiet.
"Gia are you pregnant?" She asked causing me to whip my head.
"No. Impossible I'm on birth control." I said putting the tooth brush in my mouth.
"When the last time you had your period?" She asked as I tried to think about it. I honestly couldn't remember but ever since I got in birth control it has been irregular.
"I don't know." I responded after I spat out the toothpaste.
"I'm sorry but you just might be pregnant." She said as I shook my head. I could not be pregnant. I was not about to have another baby. I was not mentally prepared for another baby.
"No." I whispered wiping the tears while placing my hand on my stomach. The timing didn't even make sense. I had only slept with Booby a week ago. So I couldn't be pregnant.
And the time before that was like four months ago. I was not no damn four/five months. I couldn't be.
"No, no, no, no." I whispered while pacing back in fourth.
"I can't be pregnant Rain, i can't." I cried.
"Calm down. Just take a test. You just have to take a test and that's all." Rain said trying to calm down.
"I don't have a test. I need a test. I have to go get a test." I said walking out the bathroom running to my room to put some clothes on.
"No! You can't go anywhere like this. I'll go stay with Willow okay?" She said as I nodded my head.
This felt like deja vu.