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Chapter 22 *Hidden Truths*
~Sophia
I can lie. Say I wrote: Handsome. I even saw that word on Drakeâs paper. But will Andre believe me? Besides, he can lie either. Say something thatâs obviously written on my paper. Even though he hasnât seen it, he can say: Smart, because basically there are a lot of smartâs in my paper.
Iâd rather not know what he wrote on my paper than tell Andre what I wrote on Drakyâs paper.
Maybe he planned this conversation with Andre because itâs the same with his message a while ago. You shouldnât let people know your weakness so that they canât fool you.
âNo deal,â I say to Andre firmly.
He looks disappointed but he doesnât press the topic.
We continue to watch the movie in awkward silence. I donât even really understand it because my mind is busy thinking different things.
âAndre,â I say.
âWhat?â he asks, turning to look at me.
âUm.â I donât know how to say this without offending him but something in me is urging to ask this question for a long time now. Taking a deep breath, I ask, âHow did your father die?â
He looks pointedly at the screen and is silent for a minute. I cringe inwardly because I might retrieve a painful memory in his mind. I have a hard time swallowing the lump in my throat. Maybe itâs not a good idea, me questioning him. Curiosity kills the cat is a very good example of this situation I am currently in.
âHe died in a car accident,â he says softly.
âCar accident?â I ask dubiously. Like the one that killed Matt?
Andre still doesnât look at me, but continues, âHe was supposed to have a business meeting in another town but he was running late. He was driving too fast and his car collided with another car.â He pauses and drinks his coke. His hand trembles as he takes a sip. âHe died, and one of the people in the other car died too. I donât know what was wrong with him that day. He is, I mean, he was a good driver you know. Thatâs why itâs hard to process things.â
Heâs still talking but I stop listening on the part where one of the people on the other car died.
Can it be? Car accident is so common, maybe itâs just a coincidence. But as far as I know, thereâs no such thing as coincidence. Everything happens for a reason.
My mind is whirling with thoughts. Taking a huge breath, I ask him, âWhen did your father die?â
He looks at me warily and finally says, âMay 26, 2007.â
I hear someone gasp, and then I realize after a second that the sound comes from me.
The accident that killed his father and my brother. This is not true. I shake my head to clear it from these haunting thoughts.
Heâs lying. I know it! Heâs a monster so heâs lying.
âSophia,â he says in a gentle voice.
I close my eyes and pretend that heâs not here. I want to run away but my feet are locked in place.
âDonât cry,â he murmurs.
Opening my eyes, I see him with a raise hand. He wants to wipe my tears away. But he thinks better of it so he puts it back down on his side.
Didnât I just say that I hate crying? Stupid tears! They flow freely at the wrong place and at the wrong time.
Suddenly, my mind thinks back on my first day here in this house -- when we had our first dinner and I asked where his father was. My mother sent me an incredulous look and the dinner became more awkward after that.
Now I understand.
âDid you know?â I ask, my voice hoarse. I wipe my tears at the back of my hand. I canât believe I canât stop them.
âYes,â he whispers, averting his gaze away from me. âMy mom and I went to your brotherâs funeral. That was the first time I saw you. You were sitting at the front, alone.â He plays with his shaking fingers, staring at the carpet on the ground. âYour friends were around you but you wouldnât talk to them. And that was when I realized that he was your brother. I wanted to talk to you but I didnât know how. How could I say that the man who killed your brother was my father?â
What is he talking about? He saw me? I didnât see him. Actually, I didnât really care at all what was happening around me back then. The only thought I had was I am alone. Matt is dead. No one will ever call me Phia again. Even though I told him I hated his nickname for me, deep inside, I liked it. My mom told me that the people who love us are the only ones who give us names.
Truth is, I donât even care about the other car. I never thought that he had a family too that will mourn for him. I only thought that because of him, my brother is dead. My mom went to the manâs funeral but I had no idea that his wife is her friend.
âIâm sorry,â Andre says in a muffled voice.
I turn to see him with his head on his hands, looking miserable.
Why is he saying, sorry? He didnât do anything wrong. And then a horrible thought comes to my mind. He already knows what Iâve been through yet he still chose to hurt me.
âI was shocked to see you on the first day of freshman year,â he says, oblivious to my thoughts. âI even thought I was hallucinating. I tried again to talk to you and say all the things that I know but I chickened out. I was afraid youâll blame my father.â
Why? Why is he so wicked? Does he want to get a payback for the death of his father? But I lost someone too! Not just him!
âYou know what amazed me?â Andre says. âYour mom and my mom are friends even before the accident. But they didnât fight because of it. Itâs kind of unusual. My mom told me she talked to your mom about it. They became closer after the accident. They didnât blame anyone. They still are the same.â Finally, he looks at me with his green eyes full of sadness.
But why didnât my mom tell me about it? That Iâm living with the family of the other car? Why? There are a lot of secrets in my family. I donât know why my parents arenât telling me about it.
What if I wake up one day to find out that Iâm just an orphan? That they arenât really my parents? I guess I donât really know them. They should have at least told me so that Iâll know what to expect. Itâs my right!
What does Aunt V think of me? The daughter of the man who killed her husband (I know my dad wasnât the one who killed his husband, but still). I donât know what to think! I feel hollow inside out. Iâm tired of my parents keeping secrets from me. I swear Iâll find out everything--
âWhen my mom told me youâll stay here with us,â Andre says, interrupting me from my reverie, âI didnât even believe her at first. How can I? Why in the world will you stay with us?â He shakes his head smiling, but the smile doesnât reach his eyes. âAnd then she said that you donât know about my father, because your mom didnât tell you.â
âOf course she didnât,â I mutter.
If she did, thereâs no doubt that I will not stay here. I donât even know why they want me to move out. My parents are so strange! I have the weirdest family ever.
âMy mom is happy to have you here,â he says after a moment.
A smile forms on my mouth. âSheâs very kind,â I say honestly.
âYes,â he agrees. âSheâs very brave. Sheâs really trying to make me feel that our family is still complete even if my dad is dead.â
âIâm sorry about that,â I murmur.
He shrugs, and turns to watch the movie.
The music from the screen is a background noise to us. I wonder if Andre understands the film.
âMaybe my brother and your dad know each other know, considering they are both in heaven,â I say lightly.
That brings a real smile to his face.
I feel . . . I donât know what to feel. I have mix emotions in me. One thing is for sure; my anger towards Andre dims a little; maybe because I empathize with him. We experienced the same kind of pain when we lost our loved ones.
I have a lot of questions for him, like why did he choose me for the bet? Whatâs the reason behind that? Andre and I have something in common and it makes me feel that Iâm not alone even though I still donât like him.
When the movie ends, Andre gets up and turns off the screen.
âCan you keep a secret for me?â I hear myself ask him.
âWhat?â he asks, taken aback.
âPlease donât tell your mom that I know all about it now,â I whisper. âIf you do, sheâll tell my mom. I want my parents to admit it to me when theyâre ready.â
If theyâll ever be.
âOkay,â he says, giving me a nod.
âDoes Drake know?â I ask.
When I told Draky about my past, he looked surprise. He was even speechless.
âWhat?â Andre, asks, confused.
Controlling the urge to roll my eyes, I say, âAbout your dad and my brother.â
He shakes his head solemnly. âI didnât tell him.â
I want to ask him why, but I think better of it. Maybe he has his own reason thatâs why he canât even tell it to his best friend. Anyway, Draky didnât tell Andre about my past. Even if he did, Andre already knows it, even before him.
Before I can stop myself, I ask him, âWhy are you friends with Drake?â
âWhat?â Heâs clearly taken aback with my question.
I donât know whatâs gotten to me to ask him that.
âWhat do you mean?â he says after a moment.
âUm, you have a lot of friends,â I start, âSo why did you choose him to be your best friend?â
Yes, I changed my question.
âI donât know,â he says, a wry smile crosses his face. âAnd we both chose each other.â
We are silent for a minute and then he says, âWhy?â
âIâm just wondering,â I lie.
âPerhaps because despite our differences, we still understand each other.â
âMaybe.â
âItâs better to enjoy life committing mistakes and learning, rather than play safe your entire life and learned nothing at all,â he says thoughtfully.
Mistakesâas in, their deal? Donât worry, youâll sure learn from playing tricks on me.
âRemember when we were young?â he asks. âOur mothers' taught us how to close and open our palms. They wanted us to have a lesson; a lesson that will help us when we grow up. Unfortunately, only few people know that.â
âWhat is it?â I ask impatiently. I donât know where this conversation is going.
âTo learn when to let go and when to hold on tight.â He closes and opens his left hand, showing his point to me.
A comfortable silence passes between us.
âGood night,â Andre says suddenly, and then corrects himself automatically, âGood morning.â He smiles, and ruffles the back of his hair.
âI think the right term is Good mornight,â I say, realizing that both of us came here to watch a movie but instead he spilled the hidden truths about our families.
âGood mornight then,â he says, standing up and walking away.
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Because of talking to Andre a while ago, memories of the past floods in my mind.
âPhia, Phia.â
I groan and put the pillow over my head.
âPhia.â Matt shakes my arm. âPhia.â
âMatt, get out,â I say wearily. I still need to sleep.
Suddenly, heâs jumping up and down on my bed. It makes me dizzy! âIâm awake now!â I throw my pillow away.
He laughs at my expression. âMom told me to wake you,â he says.
My body feels heavy so Iâm not getting up. Suddenly, Matt is on my side and is tickling me.
âHey!â I complain, squirming away from him. âStop it!â Laughter escapes from my mouth without control.
Matt knows my weakness so heâs using it against me. He laughs with me because Iâm trying to get away from him. Even though heâs just ten and Iâm already thirteen, I canât push him away from me. Heâs really clever to think of this plan.
âMatt!â I yell.
He laughs, the sound of a bell chiming.
âOkay,â I choke the words out. âIâm going to get up now.â
âAre you sure?â he asks between laughs.
âYes,â I gasp.
Heâs still tickling me; until I fall off my bed and to the ground, butt first.
âOw!â
âOops,â Matt mutters from above. Thereâs a smile threatening to form on his lips. âI didnât mean to push you.â He swings his legs off the bed and offers his hand to help me stand up.
Instead of him, pulling me to him, I grab his hand to pull him to me. Thereâs a thud when he falls on the floor beside me. I canât stop laughing at his facial expression. Itâs so priceless!
Matt turns to me with a scowl on his face. It seems unlikely because he looks like a sweet angel that comes from heaven.
In that moment, I promise to myself that I will do everything I can to protect my brother.
He looks like heâs up to something so I give him a hug.
âI love you Phia,â he says, hugging me tight.
âLove you too Matty,â I say wholeheartedly.
âSophia, Matt,â Mom calls from downstairs.
âWeâre coming!â I say loudly. I get up from the floor slowly. My hip will surely have a bruise later. I help Matt stand up and we walk hand in hand downstairs.
Shaking my head, I try not to reminisce about the past. That event happened the day of the accident.
Phia is close to Pie thatâs why I almost snap at Draky when he called me that name for the first time. It brought memories from the past. I donât even know why he calls me that name. At least Phia is from Sophia, while Pie is from . . I donât know.
I lay in bed, trying to think of nothing, waiting for sleep to come.
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The next chapter is on Drakeâs POV. I bet you want to know what heâs thinking =D
The song for this chapter is Secrets by One Republic.
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