chapter 22

Shiva's POV.... I was actually had to go for a meeting but didn't have the heart to leave my daughter here..... I didn't want to be away from her even for a second... I want her to be in my sight always that's why I asked Karthik to arrange it in a park..... As Rudra was in leave he to came.... He loves to spend time with Mynthu. Who won't she is a bundle of joy.... Always active and ready to play..... She doesn't stay in a single place and play with toys and all... She loves to run jump and be active... That's kind of rare in kids nowadays as parents prefer to bribe them through toys and video games to keep the kid occupied and do thier own work.... I am not at all blaming them fully for that... They wants the kids to be safe and didn't want them hurt by playing around with kids and in open space...... If a kid didn't gone through a single fall or didn't heared a no from a parents then they will grow up with that mentality... Even a single failure will break them.... They will loose the tendency of make friend circle.....i don't want my daughter like that..... I want her to enjoy her childhood fully with lots of adventure and fun...... If she falls she should stand up and continue to play with a smile should not cry over it again and again..... She was already like that only.... All she need was someone to play with her ran around with her....Till I finish my meeting Rudra gave company to her.... Even Karthik went to play with her leaving me in that stupid meeting.... I know it was an important deal but in front of my daughter its nothing for me.... I would prefer spending time with her over the office work... Infact I am thinking of giving office work to Appa too and spend time with my baby girl but I can't do that because even Appa and mama wants to spend time with thier Granddaughter.... She is a charmer who got everyone's attention easily without even trying .... She was cute little joy..... Seeing her again and again make me regret my whole life for missing the past years I missed to spend with her.... That made me angry on my own self....... I can never forgave them for the sin they committed by Separating my daughter from me for all this years.... Coming to my chellama I was literally confused in the beginning I didn't know how to approach her .... I know I can't be away from her once again that to when she was right in front my eyes... That would be the worst nightmare for me.... She didn't gave that punishment to me... Instead she made me feel more comfortable around her.. She understand everything and handle Everyone maturely that I admire the most in her even in the past..... I won't say she is completely the same Gowri... She is different yet same.... There was no awkwardness in between us which I actually expected when we are coming back but she removed it from my mind..... It's true I was more lucky to get her in my life....... After the meeting I too joined and played with her.... Trust me my daughter is energy house she made all three men ran around her and made us tired but she was laughing and giggling with the same energy.. Then we had Ice cream and came back to home.... I invited Rudra to come along but he said he had to meet the doctor regarding his rejoining reports and said he will be there for dinner....... I messaged her about that... Even though she didn't come along she needs time to time update about Mynthu I felt like she was checking upon me too.. When we came to home it was completely silent..... I think everyone is taking thier afternoon nap.... Mynthu was in my arms still active and eager to share about everything she did with her mother.... When we entered our room I saw this sight... My chellama is reading something laying on the bed on sideways.... Why are you this much beautiful in my eyes diii...... She was not a fair skinned eternal beauty..... she was simple yet elegant women.... Mynthu ran and crawled up on the bed and layed beside her mother.....Gowri smiled at her... Gowri : Ena thango.... Happy ah iruka pola.... (Seems like my thango is more happy )Mynthu: yesssssss..... Amma unaku theriyuma naa periya park ponein.. Anga unjal.. Giraffe la saruku maram la irunchu.. Inum neraiya vilada irunchh theriyuma..... Na fulla viladitu tha iruntha....... I am happy....... (yessss....Amma you know I went to park and there was this huge swing I played in it....and a Giraffe slide..it was so much fun and I don't know may of its name.....I played in everything I am happy )Gowri : Ohhh.... Apo inaiku madam full attama.... Elaraiyum tired akita pola.... (Ohhh seems like madam made everyone tried)Mynthu : Ama... Mynthu ku energy jasthi.... (yeah Mynthu have more energy left)Gowri : Ama ama... (Yeah yeah)Mynthu hugged her mother... Gowri : Ena achu thango... (what happened thango)She asked kissing her head.... Mynthu : Mynthu missed Amma.... Gowri : awwww.... Amma ku tired ah irunchu da atha varala... Next time kandipa varen.... (Awww....amma was tired today that's why I didn't came...but will come with you next time)Mynthu : Promize ah.... Gowri : Promise ah.... Mynthu hugged her tightly .... Gowri : aparam vera ena lam paninga Mynthu and ava appavum... (Then what and all Mynthu and her Appa did today)Mynthu : Ice cream saptome..... (We ate icecream)Gowri : Ice cream ah ethana.... (Ice cream ah....how many)Mythu looked at me I actioned her not to say..... Gowri glared at me... Gowri : Anga pakama inga enaku bathil solu.... And unmaiya tha solanum... Poi sona Amma ku pudikathu theriyum la... (Don't look there look at me and answer me ...and say the truth...You know right amma don't like lies)Mynthu: theriyum.... Poii solrathu bad habits... (I know...telling lies is bad habits)Gowri : hmm Sari ipo solu ethana sapta....... (Hmmm....now say how many)Mynthu : forre scope.... Elame different flavor.... (4 Scops all different flavor )Gowri: oh.... Night kasayam kudikanum.... (ohh..then drink Kasayam at night)Mynthu : Nooooo matein.... Kasakun.... (Noo I won't...its bitter)Gowri : Ilana unaku fever varum thango...... Apram injection podanum... Paravalaiya.... (or else you will catch cold and fever then have to take injections ...is that okay)Mynthu : nooo...no injection....naaa...kasayame kudikurein(NOOOO......No injection....I will drink Kasayam)She said in a sad tone with a pout ...Awwww How cute my daughter is..... Gowri : achachoo en papa ku monju thongi pochu.... Amma night papa oda favorite friedrice senju tharen.... (Achachoo see my papa face fell....to light up amma will make papa's favorite fried rice)Mynthu's face brightens hearing that she kissed Gowri' s cheeks.... Which she reciprocated.... Mynthu : yayyy..... Good Amma..... UffooooMe : Ipo ena chello.... (Now what chello)Mynthu : Chithi thatha pattis kita lam solanum la naa maranthe poitein naa poren paah.... (I forgot to tell all this to chithi, thatha and pattis....I am going to them Paah)Gowri : Vanthu kulikanum thango.... (You should take bath after that thango)Mynthu: okay maaa.... She got down and ran out of the room shouting chithi.... I went inside the bathroom to took short shower and came out wearing a vest and track pants.... She was still laying on the bed reading the dairy. Hearing the door opening sound she looked up at me.... Closing that diary and keeping that aside she eyes me lay beside her.... Me : Huh.... Gowri : I don't want to sat up from this position so come here.... I went near and layed beside her there was slight gap between us... Gowri : more closer..... She said looking at me... I did as she said.... She came closer and hugged me tightly placing her head on my chest sniffing my smell with closed eyes..... I was frozen I didn't expected this for sure.... I heard her mumblingGowri : Hug me back..... My hands encircled over her body pulling her more into me.... She snuggled more in my arms... It's heaven having my chellama in my arms.... I closed my eyes relishing the moment.... Me: I missed you dii chellama.... Gowri : Huhhun.... How much.... Me : I can't describe it... Still this feels unreal.... Gowri : But I want to hear.... Me : About.... Gowri : About me... About your wife about your chellama. .. Me : there is no need for you become like her... She looked up at me.... Gowri : That her is me right... And I said you many times I don't want to be like her...... Vera yaro oru ponna pathi unga kita naa kekalaiye.... Unga wife ah pathi thane kekurein.... Ena pathi en husband kita kekurathula ena iruku..... (I am not asking you about anyother girl....I am asking you to tell me about your wife...I am asking about me to my husband I don't think its wrong)I already reading my own diaries.... Even through that's not going to bring back my memories like magical event.... I forgot and it's permanent... But I can able to know how I lived how I was back then.... I can clearly see how much different I am now... Or simply how Nila differ from Gowri.... How they wanted me to be...... Even though that was me.... This was mee too.... I am not all regretting or hating my own self.... May be that past gowri was still inside me she can be enlightened back slowly I get back to her own routine and be in the surrounding I lived and loved back then..... You know I didn't hate those two who saved me and made me like this... Me : what.....they did a sin.. That's unforgivable.... Gowri : May be... But I didn't hated them or wanted to punish them....that's why I wanted to leave that place without any big fuss and hurting anyone... But unfortunately that didn't happen that still bothers me... I know what they did to me was unforgivable but I couldn't able to even think of hurting them... What is the need of punishing those who already dead.... They dead with thier daughter Nila that day itself... They lived like a walking dead body all this year before they found me.... I am not trying to justify them or support them.... What they did to us is wrong and they did for thier selfishness.... But after 5 years they got thier life back they actually lived and smiled genuinely and loved me truly.... My body stiffen and my hold on her was getting more hard...Me : what about us... What about our parents suffering and love.. Do you think we didn't love you truly like those psychos.... She looked up and cupped my face and smiled at me.... Gowri : I can understand your pain....But athuku ena ipadi nerukatheinga moochu vida konjam gap venum la... (But don't crush me down like this... Leave some gap for me to breath..) She said with a chuckle and thats when I realized I am crushing her in my arms... I loosened my hold on her lightly.. Me : so.... She placed her finger over my lips stopping me from talking further.. Gowri : No need of this sorry... It's not your mistake you have every rights to be angry on them and punish them..I am talking about my own self.. And about this family's love for me I don't have a doubt... I actually got overwhelming love from them in a single day over those past 6 years... About your love towards me I don't have to say anything it's eternal..... I don't know what I did to you that made you love me like this.... Me : You don't know about your own self...... My love is nothing in front of yours... you love me even after forgetting Everything.. Gowri : It's because you still waited for me... You believed that I would be alive... It's not easy.... Daily nama kita varavanga infact en own parents eh na sethu poitan nu nambitanga but you didn't...(It's not easy... You have been constantly hearing that I am dead even own parents belived it but you didn't) I know how much you would have felt hurt when you got to know that your love forgot about you and there is no chance of her gaining her memories back...... Stil you accepted me as I am... Me : Una vitu naa enga dii povein... Ne epadi irunthalum en chellama atha matha mudiyathu.... (Because I don't know what I can do without you.... No matter how you are you are my chellama no one can change it) Gowri : Exactly that's why there is no magic in me falling in love with you again in a fraction of second..... And I know you already kept both of them as captivates and already started punishing them and torturing them...My eyes widened at that... Me : how did you know.... Gowri : so I guess it right.... Night avanglaa pathi tha pesitu iruntheinga la.... (You actually talked about them only yesterday night right) Me : Apo nee guess mattum tha paniya... Naa tha ipo othukitena..(So you just said in fluke... It was me who blurred it out) She just chuckled and nodded her head.. Me : Una vachutu ethaiyum secret ah pana mudiyathu pola... Apovum ipovum.... (Seems like I can't keep anything secret when you are here... Not  before neither now...) She giggled... I hugged her more and kissed her forehead.... Me : It feels too right and perfect... I just want to freeze the moment like this foreverGowri : Huhhun..... Enaku intha moment mattum la pothathu..... Inum neraiya venum.. Naa ipo tha intha moments lam collect panikurein.... (Huhuh... This moments alone aren't enough for me.. I want more... Because now only I started collecting them) So I want more and more memories and love life with you and our daughter.... Me :That would be granted for sure.... And yes I can never thank you enough for giving me my daughter.... I know I missed her everything from her childhood but I don't want to waste even a second now.... I am going to cherish her the most... She looked at me... Gowri : En phone antha table mela irukum atha edunga ungaluku tha pakkam... (My phone would be there on the table pick that one.. It's near to you) Me : En... (Why) Gowri : Edunga solren.. (Do it first I will tell you later) I took that phone and gave it to her.. She unlocked it then got in comfortable position her back was pressed on half of my body and head was on my shoulder.. She looked at me and gave her phone to me.... I raised my eyebrows at her... Gowri : I know this and all wont give that much exact feeling of actual presence still I wanted to give it to you.... Even though I forgot everything when I got to know that I was pregnant I started capturing it in photos and videos.... I wanted to store it badly.... This photo was taken when I got to know I was pregnant that too 4 month... As I was unconscious for 2 months after that accident... Actually they thought I would die in that time but I survived because of our daughter... She wanted to see this world she fought for her mother's life along with hers even before she see the world.. She said remembering that time.....in that photo she still had bandages and striches on her ... She was on recovery phase thats clearly seen.... But there was a prominent smile on her face showing how happy she was to have a baby.... I kissed her photo.. And my chellama to who was in my arms... Gowri : Enaiye pathutu iruntha ena artham aduthathuku ponga (Don't look at me now... Scroll the next) I nooded and swiped it.... It was her first ultra sound even that sound recording is there.... That made me cry..... I should have been there..i missed the moment of us How it would have felt when we both see our baby as a tiny bean ..... Gowri wiped my tears and kissed my cheeks.... She didn't stopped me from crying or consoled me... She just wiped those tears and let me...let out all those pain.... Like wise there are plenty of photos and video clips many made me cry and smile at my daughter's cute acts..... That was like a whole roller coaster ride of emotions.. I cried, I smiled, I laughed, I felt hurt fir missing them and couldn't be there. ... Gowri patiently explained backstory if every photo and video even that was heartwarming and emotional.... It went for hours to finish it.. I am badly going to take this whole folder and frame every single picture and hang them all around this house for sure.... Me : She is a full package of happiness and cuteness didn't she... Gowri : along with Naughty and bold..... Deadly combination... Me : A treasure to be cherished. Just like you.... She narrowed her eyes at me.. Gowri : Are you sure... Me : Don't have a doubt... Both giggled... She kissed my cheeks and snuggled more into me... Gowri : I am sleepy... Me : That's visible in your face how much tired you are.... Take some sleep dii.... Gowri : hmmm... Una katipudichutu thonganum nu thonuthu.... Ipadiye irukalam la ... (Hmm.... I want to sleep cuddling to you.... Can you Be here like this.) Me : naa ipo poren nu yar sona... (When did I said I am leaving) Gowri : Poran nu Vera solviro.... (Ohh... You will say that too🤨) I laughed... Me : You already know I am not at all allowed to say that... She just smiled at me and snuggled to me... Just then we heard our daughter's voice.. Mynthu : appaaah.... AmmmaaaaShe came and saw us she ran up and got on the bed and layed over me on other side... Mynthu : Nanum nanum.... ( mee tooo mee too) She hugged me tightly.. Gowri creased her head and kissed her forehead... Gowri : Tired ah iruka thango... (Are you tired thango) She nodded her head up and down....sure she is tired after that much of playing... Soon both my girls slept.... I don't know how much happy and contented I feel now both the source of my life are in my arms I kissed their heads lovingly and hugged them tightly and closed my eyes I don't know when sleep took over me.......