chapter 34

So here I am with this new chapter. I was going to post this chapter tomorrow. But when I see many readers requested for today. So I decided not to disappoint my readers and published it today only.

I hope I made all of you happy. I hope all of you will share your thoughts in the comments and will make me happy just like I did.   My highest number of comments in one chapter is 277. I hope to cross this here.

So let's start.....

Author's POV.

Once Vidhyut left, Abhimaan came inside. And looking at him Jeevika rushed to him and asked him,

" Abhi, where is he?"

" He left."

" But why I thought you would make him understand and then take him back inside why would you let him go."

" Jeevika try to understand this is good for now. He needs to clear his mind."

" But …"

" Jeevika please for now go and sleep. I promise he will come around soon."

She is now feeling sad. She thought Abhimaan would make him understand and call him back but he let him go. No matter what the situation is, she doesn't want him to leave alone.

Half heartedly she went inside the room. As soon as she left Advika asked Abhimaan,

" Maan, is everything ok?  You were angry with Vidhyut bhai and I have seen that for the first time. You never get angry with him."

" Then what should I do? Tell me. He thinks that I want him to separate him from Jeevika. Can you imagine this? I always wanted his happiness. Why in the world do I want that?

Yes I wanted him to tell everything to Jeevika. You know why because he is living in constant fear that she will leave him. I wanted him to get rid of that fear. I want him to live his life peacefully and enjoy this time of his relationship which he is wasting in his nonsense fear and insecurity.

But he thinks that because Maa loved the Rhiu and we know her past I forgave her and chose her above him. And I didn't care about his suffering. Tell me Advika how is this possible. If he is there in option then I will only go with him even above myself. Because in front of him there is no one in the world who is important.

But he thinks so low of me."

" Maan, why are you saying this? He doesn't think like this. He also loves you as much as you love him. But he is angry and sad at this time. And is not able to see anything beyond his anger. Once his anger will calm down he will realize his mistake and come around. Then he will trouble you only.  Give him sometime. " Saying she hugged him.

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After leaving Rathore Mansion Vidhyut went back home. He was so angry to let out his anger he first went to do boxing after an hour of boxing when finally when the boxing bag exploded he stopped.

He took a shower to calm his nerves but when nothing worked he decided to drink. Drinking is something he is always against. He never likes to drink. Even in the business party where drinking is common he makes sure to stay away from it.

But for now he doesn't want to be in his senses. Because being in sense is not working for him. He is not able to handle himself  so he decided to drink. Though he himself is against this idea. But for now he thinks that only losing his senses is an option and that can be only done by drinking. So he decided to drink.

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It's almost midnight and Jeevika couldn't even blink of sleep in her eyes. As the only thought roaming in her mind and heart is How her Vidhyut is. And she can't leave him alone.

She went and knocked on Abhimaan's door. When Abhimaan opened she spoke without even giving him chance to speak,

" I want to go back to Vidhyut."

" But Jeevika it's midnight. Not only that but you know he is angry and I don't want him to let out his anger on you. He is already upset that you told me everything. He will get angry and may say something to you which may hurt you."

" I don't care Abhi. I just wanted to go back to him. If he shouts at me or says something, I will listen quietly and won't argue back. So he won't get very angry after that. But I want to go back to him anyhow."

Looking at her eyes filled with worry for Vidhyut and determination in her words makes Abhimaan agree with her. And he decided to drop her back.

When they reached the door of her house, She turn towards him and asked,

" Abhi, if you don't feel bad then please leave from the door only. You know he is already angry at you. Both of you have fought also. I don't want anything to happen anymore. So please…."

She was hesitant to say this. But she don't want both of my friends to fight.

" It's ok Jeevika, I don't feel bad. I think this is the best option for now. We should talk only when we both are in sane mind and also not angry. Which is clearly not now. I know you will hendal him. But still if you feel any need just call me.

Just remember How much I was angry with him but still he is my best friend. And more important than any living person in the world. I am just call away."

Jeevika gave him an assuring smile and he went from there. Knowing they need time.

Jeevika slowly opened the door. And she went  inside and the whole living room was dark . Only a small light beside the sofa table was on. She saw Vidhyut was sitting there on the floor while keeping his head on the sofa. So she spoke,

" Vidhyut"

He looked upwards and looked at Jeevika's heart clinch. His eyes are bloodshot red. Dry tears are visible on his cheeks. And that's it for Jeevika she ran to him and hugged him.

" Vidhyut"

He looked at her and spoke,

" You are really here hugging me. I am not dreaming?"

First then she got confused listening to this and then when she saw the bottle of Alcohol beside him realized that he was drunk. That's why he is speaking like this. Also she needs that because of his drunken state, he is vulnerable at this stage. His hurt, anger, stress, sadness are at pick and coming out of him because he is drunk.

" No, I am really here, see. If you don't trust me then touch me."

Saying she took his hands in her and then kept it on her cheeks.

" See you can touch me."

Vidhyut's eyes got wider and spoke,

" Yes, I can touch you means you are really here."

He then took her on his lap and hugged her to his heart.

" See how much my heartbeat increased because you are with me. You know when Abhi didn't let you come with me. And pushed me from his house. I thought you would not come to me again. And you know I felt like My heart stopped. But see how it is beating now. I think you have control over it."

" Of course I will have control over it. It belongs to me."

She responded to him lovingly. And then kissed his forehead. He cupped her face and kissed all over. Which made her little giggle.

" You know your giggling and laughing makes this home. When you were not here it was not feeling like home. It was just four walls of bricks. Please don't leave me and this home.  If you want I will go to the doctor so that my nightmare will stop. If he won't be able to cure me. Then I will not sleep more than two hours then I will not have them. I will also not get angry at you. And let you do whatever you want to do. Just please don't leave me."

" Vidhyut baby, why are you saying this? Why will I leave you?  As much as you need me I also need you."

" But I know you leave me when you come to know that?"

" Come to know what Vidhyut?"

" No no I can't tell you. What if you leave me?"

" If you won't tell me now then, pakka I will leave you."

Jeevika threatens him. She knows what she is doing is wrong. She is taking advantage of his fear, his drunken state. But at the same time she needs to know what is bothering him. Why is he so insecure? And she knows that he will not tell him this in his scane mind. And if she doesn't know she will never make him feel secure.

And for him and for their relationship she is ready to do anything even if it's taking advantage of his vulnerable and drunken state.

" See till now I didn't tell you that I am the illegitimate son of my mother and you are ready to leave me. But please don't leave me Naa. Everyone leaves me when they come to know about this. But please don't leave me.

What is my fault ? Just because my mother has an extra marital affair and I was the result of this I am less human than Everyone else. I am not a pure kid like everyone else.

You know, in my school no one became my friend because their parents refused them. As nobody knows who my mother is. You know I asked papa many times to tell everyone about my mother. But he said I don't have a mother.

You tell me how this is possible. Did God drop me directly from heaven? I am sure God didn't drop me directly from heaven but my life was surely hell.

You know everyone used to call me son of slut, bitch and whore. When I didn't even know the meaning of them. You know I used to think that she must be my Mumma. That's why everyone calls me like this. But When I came to know about this, that's when I realized that this is the cause of my life. That's why they are cursing me.

You tell me what is my fault in this? Did I ask God to give me birth like that? Did I ask him to make me illegitimate son?

You know my mother knows my suffering but still never accepted me. She always said that I am his dirty secret that no-one  should know. She never acknowledged me in front of the world. But still said that she loved me. Tell me if she loved me why won't she accept me. Because I was the result of her mistake. But what is my mistake, I don't  deserve love because I was not the result of love. ?"

Jeevika was shocked to react to anything. Never in her dreams did she think that the truth could be like this. But for now the only emotion she is feeling towards Vidhyut's mother is anger.  How can someone let a child suffer for her mistake?

She hugged him and said,

" There is no mistake of yours. And which idiot said that you don't deserve love. You deserve all the love in this world."

" Scchi I deserve love. So you won't leave me? You don't care that I am the illegitimate son of my mother. You don't feel disgusted with me. Like my classmate used to feel in my school? And you won't leave me."

" Mucchi, you deserve love. And yes I don't care about your identity. And I am not stupid like your classmates. You feel disgusted. They all are discussing but not you. And I will never ever leave you."

She said and he hugged her happily but he hugged her so fast and tight that she fell backwards. And he fell on her. She just laughs at this but makes no attempt to get up. As she is liking this position. When she realizes that he is about to sleep then she spoke,

" Vidhyut tells me one more thing, Babu. Who is your mother?"

" Mrs. Rathore. Abhimaan's mother. She is also my mother."

"Hmm now sleep."saying she started massaging his head and in no time he slept.

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