737. The Meaning of Family
Nexus Awakened (An Isekai LitRPG Gender Bender Story)
737. The Meaning of Family
Anpu did not like their odds. It was clear that his attacks were far too weak to even dream of damaging the âSinsâ. According to his Lunas, they had 7,000 DEF and MAG DEF. The first wave of attacks had crippled a quarter of their team.
However, thanks to their own DEF stats and the high-quality clothing they wore, it was only a matter of outlasting them.
âOur only option is to buy time⦠Gerina! Head though the doors! We will face these alone!â Anpu ordered. âUntil the Amalgam arrives â we will stay here and keep them off you! Usa! Follow the princess!â
âGotcha! Letâs go! Quick!â
Usa and Gerina entered the throne room. A thick veil of black smoke smothered the entrance. The chaos could still be heard from behind, but they were safe for now.
Once they were through the smoke, Gerina alone was greeted by the throne room.
It was a magnificent hall of dazzling treasures. Unlike the room outside, everything was as she remembered.
Crystal chandeliers hung from the ceiling. Exactly thirty banners ran along each wall, carrying the symbol of their Empire. Between each cutout stood a statue decorated in the finest of armaments. Finally, the throne itself, which sat atop a steep, marble staircase had precisely 5 golden seats.
She swore she remembered her seat having been destroyed. Yet there it was, glowing in all its glory.
Usaâs presence disappeared. Again, she swore she had entered with her. She looked around in a daze, and before she knew it, the fighting from behind was gone.
âSister~!â
A voice called out to her. A cheery, childlike voice. A woman with blonde hair and yellow eyes wearing a regal dress decorated with frills greeted her with a smile. Her hair was cut short, and in her hand was a stuffed toy.
âArana?â The name easily slipped through Gerinaâs lips. How could she ever forget who this was?
This person was her 2nd sister. Her skin was untainted. It was perfect, in fact, like long ago before they knew what the Memento Mori were.
âYouâre finally here! Câmon! We thought youâd never come!â Arana said cheerfully as she clasped onto her hand.
Gerina stood her ground, still confused about the whole situation. It didnât make sense that the palace was mysteriously⦠pristine despite the battles inside of it. Not to mention that her sister was friendly with her.
âGerina? Is everything ok?â Arana asked, moments before another woman arrived.
âSheâs tired. Gerina always tended to get sick. There, there. Are you ok, sister?â A warm hand tapped her head.
It belonged to her eldest Sister, Umara. She was dressed precisely like her other sister. Not only that, but when Gerina looked down at herself, she saw that she was also wearing the same dress.
âWhatâs going on? Arenât you two supposed to be⦠Undead?â
âUndead?â Umara giggled, nudging Arana. âYou must still be drowsy from that long sleep. Are you sure youâre alright? Letâs get you something warm to drink. Itâll make you feel better.â
â⦠make me feel better? Are you twoâ¦â Gerina looked at her surroundings again.
She couldnât tell what was going on. Were these two really her sisters? Her mind and heart urged her to listen to them, but her rational self said that something was terribly wrong. Yet she could not listen to this piece of herself, because for the first time in years she felt like everything would be alright.
âWeâre here for you, Gerina. Weâve always been here for you.â
âThatâs right, little sis~ Weâre a family, arenât we? Letâs hurry up and go.â
âGo⦠where?â They took an uncertain Gerina by her wrists.
Their hands were colder now.
âWhere else other than to be together forever?â They both turned and grinned at her.
Their faces flashed into a something hideous for a split second. She could have sworn she had seen a corpse in place of them. Had she been blinded by her love for her family, then she would have stayed with them. But it was also her love that made her stand her ground and reject them with all her heart.
âIâm sorry.â She began. âI canât⦠be with you two.â
âAww? How come?â Arana cocked her head.
âYes, whatâs wrong? Tell us. We wonât judge you.â Umara said, although her voice held a hint of restrained anger.
â⦠Weâre breathing their smoke, arenât we?â Gerina knew what the Memento Mori were capable of. One of their tricks was creating illusions through their smoke, which often allowed a person to converse with a deceased loved one or enter a dream-like state where their wishes could come true.
She was in one. She had seen the smoke from earlier.
And after looking into the eyes of her sisters, she knew without a doubt that they were also trapped in this illusion.
âSo what?â Arana said.
â⦠huh?â Gerina blankly blinked.
Her arm was sudden tugged forward as Aranaâs head twisted until her chin pointed at the ceiling.
âSO WHAT IF ITâS A LIE!?â
âGERINA! IS THIS SMOKE NOT WORKING ON YOU!? PLEASE! I BEG OF YOU! BELIEVE IN IT!â Umara immediately covered her face, which was rotting with maggots.
They were both in a state of perpetual decay with no end in sight. How long had they been living in this condition?
âI canât even feel my face! I can only hear the squirms of maggots in my head! Why did you have to break this illusion! Weâre still waiting for our masks to kill whatâs left of this⦠this curse! But itâll be a blessing! A blessing⦠so we can live forever and ever â but we just have to hold on!â
Umaraâs withered, skeletal figure did not even resemble that of a human. Her hips were conjoined with her ribs, and her joints were fused to create hideously long limbs that needed to snap in order to move.
âWhy couldnât you just accept it!? There is no world after this, Gerina! The Angel in red promised that the new world will have no place for us! So we have to obey them! We canât fight them! So please, join us! Become anew like us! Become immortal in a new world!â Arana screeched, trying to pull Gerina even closer to her.
Gerina on the other hand, saw her ribcage replace her limbs, turning her into a blackened spider made of bones and exposed blood vessels that served as her web. They strangled her, and she also could not bear the fact that Gerina had broken their illusion.
The hand that gasped onto Gerina came from Aranaâs mouth like a tongue.
Gerina knew that they were no longer human, but never did she imagine it to be this horrifying. Pity filled her heart, but in the endâ¦
â⦠you made this choice.â She uttered beneath her breath. âIâm sorry, but youâre the ones who fell for that. An angel in red⦠doesnât make sense. Are you saying youâd rather live like that than to die a human? With dignity?â
âWe just donât want to be hurtâ¦â
âPain. It was endless. You were lucky because you got away. You can only say that because you never suffered like we did!â
âYouâ¦â Gerina drew her blade and placed it against both their twisted napes. âHAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WENT THROUGH! I HAD NO JOY! I NEVER HAD TIME TO ENJOY THE FRUITS OF OUR KINGDOM! I SAW EVERYTHING OUR FAMILY DID â THE NOBLES â THE BARONS â THE DUKES â TO EVERYONE IN THIS KINGDOM!â
Gerina nearly slit their necks, but she knew that in this state, they could not die without being burned. Tears trickled down her cheeks as she steeled herself for what needed to be done.
âYou⦠have no right to say that this is all because of your suffering, when you donât even know one one-millionth of whatâs happening outside of these walls! If you cared about anything but yourselves, then you⦠wouldnât have given in to them⦠Mother and father⦠did they have to die because of this? Because of our greed? It mustâve been nice living in ignorance! If you could hear their screams, then would you be able to sleep at night!? Whyâ¦! did it have to be like this? I justâ¦â
â⦠Itâs not too late Gerina⦠We can still be togetherâ¦â
âY-Yes⦠Together⦠We can learn from our mistakesâ¦â
The two still tried to bring her to their side, seeing her tears as a sign of weakness. They clearly lacked sympathy towards her. They couldnât even conceive of what Gerina had gone through since her teenage days. For nearly two decades Gerina had persistently been trying to change things for the better.
To think that it all stemmed from greed, and from people she once loved⦠from people who were once innocent. She remembered the days when theyâd sing her songs at night. Days theyâd take her on walks along their immense courtyards.
âWhen did it all go so wrong?â
She then realized that killing them here would be the ultimate form of love. It would be her way of freeing them from their tribulations. She could not forgive them for what theyâd done, and so, she pushed her blade harder against their necks.
âGERINAAAA!â
âIS THIS HOW YOU TREAT YOUR OWN FAMILY!?â
Gerina could not follow through due to the sturdiness of their bones. However, when all hope seemed lost, another voice cut through the illusion.
âEnough.â
The illusion fizzled away, revealing the terrible state of the throne room. The chandeliers had fallen along the ground. Judging by the dust, they had been untouched for many years. The statues were wrapped in black, vein-like webs, and the golden-pale color of the throne room was tainted in a foul-smelling darkness.
Frost had appeared again, this time, the light in her eyes shone greater than Gerina remembered. Her golden strands seemed brighter too. Not only that, but her presence alone was like a cleansing light.
âAAAaaaaagh!â
âGerinaaaaaaaaa!â
Her sisters shrieked. They could not bare to even stare at Frost, for she burned their eyes.
âAre these our enemies?â Frost coldly asked.
She didnât mention family at all, even though she likely knew who and what they were.
â⦠Yes. Yes, they are.â Gerina answered.
âGerina! Please! Weâre hurting! Itâs hurting! Mother! Father! Help us!â
âPlease⦠I beg of you⦠I donât want to die! Donât do this to your only family!â
â⦠My only family died a long time ago. This is for your own good. If it hurts so much⦠then there is only way to fix it. A remedy Iâve come to hate⦠but because of you two⦠just how many men did I kill so that they didnât have to suffer anymore?â
Gerinaâs eyes were filled with her determination as Frost raised her hand. And with the finality of a guillotine, she swung it down and lobbed their heads. Gerina did not blink. She wanted to see this through till the end.
It was what she had fought so hard for since the startâ¦
⦠and finally, a being she could only call a deity had granted her this wish. Frost further destroyed their bodies with her bare hands.
For what reason was not known to Gerina. If she knew that Frost had destroyed their souls and very fabric of existence, then would she weep? Would she come to despise Frost?
Gerina didnât know herself. Neither did Frost.
All she knew was that it was finally over.
She collapsed to her knees and crawled over their remains.
â⦠I remember them⦠when we all so young⦠so innocentâ¦â
She grasped onto their ashes and brought it close to her chest.
â⦠when we had nothing to worry about... Amalgam⦠Frost⦠Youâre a god, arenât you? Can you answer me something? Are people born evil? I⦠still canât believe that they turned out like this.â Gerinaâs voice quivered.
Suddenly, she felt a warm hand fall onto her head. It was like her sisterâs from so long ago.
Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes again.
And just like her sister in the past, Frost offered her some advice.
âNo matter what, you must not blame yourself. If you want someone to blame, then it can be the Memento Mori. But if that doesnât work, then blaming me might for you.â
âWhy would I blame you?â
âBecause itâs what everyoneâs doing to cope with their own anguish. I was born as the scapegoat for these monsters. Believe me, getting to where Iâm at was not easy. The same can be said for you.â
â⦠Yeah⦠I can tell.â Gerina was uneasy for some reason.
It felt like everyone she knew and trusted was gone. She felt so eerily alone all of a sudden, and it weighed on her heart as she stared down at her sisterâs remains.
Suddenly, the warmth on her head moved down to her shoulders.
âGerina. Youâre a strong a person. Youâve been doing this for a lot longer than me, at a younger age as well. It wonât be long until itâll be over, so right nowâ¦â Frost knelt to her level and embraced her just as someone did for her in the past.
Gerina was a proud soldier. A royal figure. A leader of thousands. Yet this person saw her as not only an equal, but someone who desperately needed help. It was an unfamiliar sensation to her. Kindness like this was seldom shown in Grandis.
If anything, it was only reserved for family.
âI want you to know that you did all that you could. Iâm sorry if it feels like Iâm treating you like a child. But youâre in pain, and I canât ignore that. Weâre not done yet. Thereâs still a lot more struggle we need to do to get out of this hell, but I promise you, that the light at the other end will be worth it. Youâve got a good heart, Princess Gerina. Donât look so sad⦠Cry when itâs over.â
â⦠I will.â
âIâm with you. The Nexus is with you. Everyoneâs here to help you now.â
The Tear Retrievers had all survived the battle against the Sins. Frost, unsurprisingly, easily cleaned up for them. Lucy could be seen nodding at Gerina, affirming that she had made the right choice.
âI never said itâll be an easy thing to do. It can take years to heal from, but thatâs what these guys are here for.â She slapped the backs of the Lunas. âThey can help you after this is over. Also, donât forget that weâre in your good favor now, princess.â
Lucy grinned.
â⦠Of course. Thank you.â Gerina thanked from the bottom of her heart, lowering her head.
âYou did well. Iâm done on my end. The gears are turning now. As much as Iâd want to stay here too, we need to prepare for the next stage.â Frost said, lightly rubbing the womanâs head again.
Why is it so comfy? She really is a deity⦠and the one who rules the Nexus tooâ¦
âAmalgam. Is that perchance the Red Baron on you hip?â Anpu asked, noticing the red idol.
âWhatâs left of him. I didnât think heâd manifest a Corrupted Persona⦠weâve got a lot of amending to do with the whole Corrupted stuff. I also gotta thank you again, Gerina. Thanks to you, I gained something cool from your Gift.â
â⦠you gained something?â Gerina muttered.
âSomething incredible.â Frost didnât elaborate further. âEveryone. In about an hour youâll be reinforced by Inflow Direct and the Golden Index. The Impuritas are not going to let us stay in control of this Gift. Theyâll want Gerina either dead or under their control.â Frost announced. âDo as they say. Theyâre experts in this field.â
âMay I ask who from Inflow Direct will be appointed to us?â Anpu asked.
âChapter Seventeen â One; Administrator Qoph.â
â⦠Weâll be in terrific hands then.â Anpu was satisfied with the response. âWill you be leaving now?â
âImmediately. Iâm just waiting for a friend of mine to arrive.â
âOh? Who?â Cara asked, raising a brow.
Frost smirked.
âRemember Snap?â
Her answer caused Cara and Usa to smile.
âThat cute thing!â
âThe fuzz ball Anid~!â