cheating.

long nights

I'm sippin', slippin'

from my glass

long drinks

I'm staying, paying

way too much

and

you cause my drunk expectations,

you cause my foolish explanations

for cheating on you

but I can't,

there is no excuse,

cause it's goddamn true

I fucked it up

while fucking her,

and I wanted to stop,

but I didn't

again

there is no excuse

long nights

laying, praying

it up and down

long drinks

crying, denying,

slowly dying on the inside

and I drink, and I drink, and I drink too much,

and I think, and I think, and I think too much,

and I know that I am a goddamn fool,

but I want you, I need you, I just loved you too

this wasn't something to regret,

this other woman was my suicide

and after this dark time

I want you back, want to survive,

but

I fucked it up,

cause I fucked her

I never stopped,

but I should've

again

my excuse

for being unforgiveable

long nights

exing, texting you

long drinks

blowing, throwing it away

just like us

so hate me

hate me, hate me as long as you want,

but I will always be the one,

will always hate myself the most

believe me, cause

even more than I am drunk,

I am so,

so sorry

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xx and that's what you should be xx