schizophrenic.

today

I greeted myself again

my other well-known friend

gosh-it's so dark,

so aggressive

I don't think

anyone could guess

how bad I actually am

today I greeted you

my dark side of the moon

and listened to

electronic bass

to numb your screaming in my head

I want to drink

and I want to throw

throw my other side away

go world,

fuck yourself

cause I could punch against everything

I would love to see red again

just to show myself

that your pain is bullshit

compared to mine

but we're one and the same

like water waiting in the sky or

the so-called clouds

we are

two versions of myself

and I hate to be like you

and I love it so badly

I need to be a wolf

to bite you out of this cage

determined as my body

I like it black,

I don't talk much

I observate,

judging all this obedient people

I over-concentrate,

I radiate,

state to never coming back

but

I have to commit

that I hide you as long as possible

cause

you were the one

causing these scars

you were the one

beating my father to the floor

you were the one

running into the woods

all you've learned is

to run away

but I am one stay, you know?

I love

so much

I don't run

so get over it

you're my dark side

the one destroying mirrors,

if I risk looking into them

the one keeping me alone

when I need good company

but we're

one and the same

and I get over it

so calm down

please, sit down, take a step to the side,

cause I decide

what's gonna happen

better don't forget

that you're still just a shade

of the little girl I once was

feeded with hate and doubts and pain

better don't forget

that you don't have to be that hard

I protect you

today

I greeted myself again

now

I greet you goodbye