Chapter 37
Missing piece
Rhainne Jhammira Alethea Lopez
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Masakit para saakin pero paano kung mas masaktan siya? Paano kung iwan niya ako? No, I can't let that happen, hindi ko kaya.
"Nakatulala ka nanaman" rinig kong sabi ni Rayla
I never talked to them simula nung makarating ako dito sa University at lunch na ngayon. I never visited her in her office like I always do at alam kong nagtataka rin ang tatlo.
"Nag away ba kayo ni Miss Presley?" Jenaiah
I look at her, she looks worried. Hindi naman kami nag away it's just that...I don't know I feel like there's a barrier.
"No"
"Then bakit hindi ka pumunta sakanya ngayon?" I look at her intensely
Bakit nga ba? I can't even answer it.....may mali, there's something wrong with me. Ako ang problema.
"Or should we say, hindi ka na pumupunta sakanya simula last last week" Amrielle said while sipping her juice
Dahil sa sinabi niya it hits me. Dang, it's been two weeks already. Minsan ko nalang din siyang makita minsan ay hindi ko pa napupuntahan kahit na pinapapunta niya ako. I felt guilty. Puro nalang ba pakiramdam ko ang uunahin ko?
"I-I have to go" I said at onti onting inayos ang mga gamit ko
I was about to leave when Rayla stop me by helding my hand kaya napatingin ako sakanya
"Fix it. I know that your mind is in chaos right now but don't make a foolish decision. Sa ating tatlo ikaw ang pinaka magaling when it comes to hard decision, you always know what to choose and prioritize" and then she pulls me into a hug habang ang dalawa ay nakatingin saakin. I wanted to cry in Rayla's arm but I needed to go to her. I should stop being selfish.
"I know everything Uno. You don't have to hide it from meâfrom us. Nakita ko ang mga papeles, CCTV footage, pictures and videos sa HQ. Don't be so hard on yourself. We're always here for you, just tell us what to do. If you're being bothered by the fact that her father is the killer then accept the truth. It may hurt you both but make her understand and I know that she'll understand you" bulong niya saakin as she push me away and mouthed 'go to her. I know whe misses you'
I always know what to doâbut now it seems like I don't.
I let a heavy sigh before knocking at her door hindi naman nagtagal ay bumukas ito at bumungad saakin ang babaeng hindi ko naasikaso sa nakaraang dalawang linggo. Walang sabi sabi ay niyakap ko ito agad, ramdam ko rin ang pagkagulat niya dahil bigla siyang natuod sa kinakatayuan niya
"Y-You're h-here" ramdam ko ang pangungulila sa boses niya. It seems like she doesn't expect me to come.
"I miss you" bulong ko rito habang nakayakap parin sakanya
Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagbigat ng hininga nito at onti onti ko ring naramdaman ang pagtulo ng kung ano sa balikat ko kasabay noon ang pagkarinig ko ng hikbi niya.
I make her cry again
Fuck yourself Rhainne. You have no one to blame on. Kasalanan mo kung bakit siya umiiyakâmy mind
How should I start this?
"I-I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I'm not here for almost 2 weeks." I sincerely said
Naramdaman ko naman na mas isiniksik nito ang muka niya sa leeg ko kaya naman dahan dahan ko siyang binuhatâbridal style at naupo sa couch niya.
"I miss you" halos pabulong nitong sabi "I miss this. I miss your smell. I miss your touch. I miss you presence. I miss you so much" nasa leeg ko parin siya at ramdam ko ang hininga niya habang sinasabi iyon. Tumigil na rin siya sa pag iyak
"I miss you too. I'm sorry if I wasn't here for you. I'm sorry if I'm being cold" ramdam ko ang paglayo ng muka niya sa leeg ko at tinignan ako, mata sa mata.
I admit it kinakabahan ako. I'm nervous by how she stares at me. Hindi ko rin mabasa ang emotion niya.
"It's alright, your friends.....they're here kahit wala ka they make me understand and they explain your side" she that make me stop
Did they really do that?
I mentally smiled. My friends was there when I'm not. I'm very lucky to have them.
"But still, I'm sorry" nakayuko kong sabi pero naramdaman ko ang kamay niya sa chin ko at onti onti niyang inangat ito
Then she suddenly kissed me.
"Don't worry too much. I understand, hmmm" she said and hugged me kasabay non ang pagsiksik niya sa leeg ko