CHAPTER 12 - A CONFESSION?

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"What- what you mean by that-?" Lee know looked at him

"It's nothing hyung" seungmin tried to not to look at make an eye contact with his elder

"Can you please tell me what happened?please?!"

"CAN YOU FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE, IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU" Seungmin shouted at lee know and went to his room locked himself in

'Seungm- i- what happened to him now?" Lee know sighed and placed himself on the couch

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꒰Seungmin's room •꒱ⵌ

『 Seungmin's Pov 』ღ

Why he always have to make me feel so weak sobs Why am i like this? Why am i so weak for him? Why i love him so much that i can't even leave him, i'm fucking loser can't even move on haha.. Fuck it!

I stayed at my room for the whole day i'm too embarassed to show myself infront of lee know hyung now, i'm just a piece of shit whines Why? just why my life gotta be so cruel sighs

After a couple of hours i heard someone knocking the door and calling my name out "Seungmin? Kim seungmin? Could you please open the door now? Come and eat something i'm worried" who else it could yes it's lee know hyung , i wonder why he cares so much about me, I'm nobody to him, why he keep acting like this and making me feel so secure... Ah ah i bumped my head on the wall stop it already seungmin he doesn't like you why u getting too much hope i slapped my own cheeks to get myself out of the imaginary world i was having from past 6 years i shouldn't be weak anymore, i've to face him anyway i'll try my best to not to feel the same like i did before, i think i should move on right?  I can do it, Let's forget it all seungmin and start a new journey Its not like i won't get a new crush or a boyfriend lol

"Seungmin open the door please" He kept knocking my door until i opened the door myself

"What you need hyung?" Yes i tried my best to stay calm like nothing happened

"Can you come and eat now? The dinner is getting cold" He looked at me like he was worried about me but i don't believe those eyes anymore he is just worried because i'm only his dongsaeng [Brother] right

"But i'm not hungry, i'll skip dinner tonight" i really don't want to see him for now so i thought of avoiding for a day so i could make my mind clear but then

"WHY THE FUCKING HELL" I was stunned when he shouted at me, i don't know why he shouted at that time

"I- hyu-" he didnt even let me complete my words he kept shouting at me and i Don't know why he was so frustrated at, maybe because i was acting like a kid? Maybe cuz i skipped my meals? Maybe cuz of my freaking behaviour? Haha not cuz he cares right?

"WHY ARE YOU AVOIDING ME? DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG? WHY YOU ARE SKIPPING YOUR MEALS? CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED"

"Hyung- its nothing i'm just stressed, Don't worry about me i'm totally fine" i lied that i was fine but deep inside me was carving to cry hard but i kept myself cool infront of hyung i don't want to make myself embarassed again hyung will think i'm a shit and childish

"You know what everybody is having hard time but you should stay strong kim seungmin, you have to deal with it it's just a part of our life, you have to keep up with your life and for that you should stay healthy, now come with me" he grabbed my hands and took me to dinning table make sit in the chair "Now forget about it all alright, now eat hm" why? Why he care so much about me? Hyung do you even care if i die one day? Haha no i guess

"I'm not hungry-" hyung started giving me death stare so i couldn't even do anything so i started eating the delicious food he made also i Don't want the food to get waste so without any blame i ate the whole dishes he made

"How was the dinner? Is it good?" I wondered why he asked that unnecessary question which he never asked before

"Oh it's good as always, Thank  for the dinner, i enjoyed" i bowed and thanked him the dinner he prepared i did the chorus and sat myself on the couch after

"Could you like to eat something? Fruits? Sweets?" Ugh why is he acting so weird today? What's wrong with him? Is he feeling sorry to me? Or think it's his fault why i'm stressed?

"Oh sure, i could like to have some fruits"

"Oh how about grapes?" He made a bright face after i told him that. Well that was pretty weird him to react like that

He cames with grapes on a basket

"Why these much?" Does he think i'm pregnant or what?

"Why not? You should eat well" why the fuck? Just why he kept acting like this hyping my hopes again

"Oh okay"

I picked those grapes eating them one by one and lee know hyung was right beside me he was watching TV peacefully but it's me who's getting uncomfortable around

I wanted to get distracted so i think of texting the maknae

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[Jeongin🦊♡]

❏ Jeongin, hello?

❏ Hello hyung

❏ How's you doing there? All fine? Having fun?

❏  Yes hyung i'm having great time here i'm with Changbin hyung right now

❏ Oh That's good! Well i wanted to ask something

❏ What is it hyung? Tell me... Is it something i can help?

❏ Is there any good dating app

❏ Huh? Dating app? Why? You want to date?

❏ yea sort of :)

❏ Eh? Fr? You really want to date? But we are idols we can't use dating app for now hyung.

❏  But i can try it now right?

❏ yes- i can but don't do online dating i got someone in my mind, he kinda likes you and i also think he's a good guy, could you like to date him? His name is Dae ha-joon

❏  yea i'm okay with it, Tell me the time of meeting

❏ Okay wait hyung

15 minutes later

❏ He said tomorrow at 6 pm, he's free at that time i've informed him he'll show up up xxxx cafe near xxxxxx river

❏ Okay thank you innie

❏ Nop hyung, I gave your number to him, he'll text you I guess, chat with him further I have to go now, enjoy your date tomorrow, good luck hyung

❏ Okay good night.

❏ yes night, sleep well

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Agh what am I doing? Have I gone crazy? I asked jeongin for a blind date, i'm gone crazy for sure sighed as soon I saw a unknown text from a person, it was the text from the person im going for a blind date with

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[Unknown number]

❏ Hello! it's Dae ha-joon, hope you know me.😌

❏ Heyo

Yes I know, my blind date

❏ oh~ "My blind date" um 😏 Haha i'm just kidding

❏ I- sure

❏ So are you okay going out with me?

❏ ah its a blind date so ofcourse  im okay with it

❏ Alright, you won't get bored with me I can assure you that im a stand up comedian but nobody knows that its a shame fight😞

❏ Haha is that so?

❏ Yes, it's so sad nobody knows, between I wanted to say you are cute I saw you before

❏ i'm what-? Cute? No way

Where did u saw me?

❏ At a shop and you were looking so cute and pretty at the same time

❏ i- thank you!

❏ Nah, you are perfect, oh now I gotta go, I got some work see you tomorrow, be ready to meet "My blind date" haha

❏ Well- yea bye

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I can't deny the fact he was actually good and fun, he called me cute- for real? Well he seemed to be my type tho- should I really go on a blind date? I was confused as hell, I don't know want to do anymore, even tho I giggled and laughed so much because that Dae ha-joon named guy, ah no why am I still smiling and giggling of those texts

"Why are you smiling? Who are you texting with?" Lee know hyung's eyes were full of curiosity and a bit of sad and mad maybe i'm wrong

"Its my blind date" hyung's face was kinda filled with sadness or it's just my hallucinations?

"Are you going for a blind date? Why though? When you are meeting him? Why do even need to go on a date?" I was stunned by too many questions why do he even want to know about it

"We are meeting tomorrow evening and I just want to try dating someone" I fake smiled even though it was hurting me inside

"No- like why you wanted to date someone? JUST WHY??? AM I NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU? AM I NOT GOOD? WHY COULD YOU GO OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE?" I was totally speechless when he said those words, am I dreaming? I pinched myself to check if was dreaming but this time I think im wrong

"Are you drunk? " I still can't believe that he actually said those words, maybe he's drunk?

"I'm not drunk, why you could think like that? Can't you not just go out with a someone? Please?" His eyes were full of sadness but why? It's not like he likes me or something haha

"Why? Why can't I go on a date? He seems like a nice guy, I think he could be perfect to go on a date with" I want to move one I really must do this

"Please, I beg you" Those eyes which are filled with sadness were looking straight at me begging for me not to go on a date

"I-wh-y are y-ou doing this-? Are you okay hyung? U seems tired, you saying stupid things now, aigoo go and rest, i'll head to bed now.. Bye good night" I was walking towards my room but then I felt like someone gripped my waist but it was actually so warm, those warm hands were actually tied up around my waist

"Seungmin, please don't go on to the blind date please" why was he doing this all? Yes we used to hug on debut days but now- why did he suddenly hugged me and telling me these stupid things, is he drunk or lost his mind?

"Hyung? Why are you doing this to me?why are you hugging me?"

"Sorry- i- please just don't go" is he crying? Really?  I never saw him crying after that day-

"Lee know hyung- what happened are you okay?"

"No i'm not, please don't leave me, don't go anywhere just stay with me" i- I really don't know what to feel at this time, is he saying that he likes me? Or just joking around?

"Why? Why you don't want me to go on a date? Do you like me or something?" I was really curious, I wanted to know this so badly I want hear a yes but-

"I- i-" he was taking too much time yo answer I think he never liked me or never will i'm just a fool to be pranked on right, such a idiot

"Nevermind i'm a fool, YES I'M FOOL TO BE SO MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU, WHY ALL THE YOU NEAR ME GIVES ME HOPES BUT I KNOW YOU NEVER GONNA LIKE ME, I'M A IDIOT FOR THINKING THAT YOU WILL LIKE ME BACK BUT I WAS TOTALLY WRONG AGAIN, I REALLY WANT TO MOVE ON BUT WHENEVER YOU ARE NEAR ME I COULDN'T DO IT, ITS LIKE I'M ADDICTED OVER YOU, YES I LIKE YOU, I FUCKING LOVE YOU BUT I THINK ITS ONE SIDED, I'VE LOVED YOU FOR 5 YEARS BUT YOU NEVER NOTICED IT OR NEVER TRIED TO NOTICE IT, I'M SORRY I'M SORRY FOR LOVING YOU" I bursted out I couldn't control myself I let everything out in one go he'll think im creepy and obsessed with him right

"S-Seungmin- why- why could you think i- I don't like you back-? You know what it's two sided, i've liked you ever since I saw you the first time you can call it love at first sight, its you who never noticed that I've loved you back" no like I was totally speechless, am I dreaming again?  No? Is he pranking on me? I can't believe it-

"Are y-you joking-?"

"No i'm not- I actually love you kim seungmin" did he said he really loves me? I was waiting for this for my whole life, to be honest I got goosebumps all over my body when he confessed, its a confession right? I feel like flying over the world I was so happy when I heard that he loved me from the begining it wasn't only me who was waiting for this right

"You are not joking right? I really love you so I don't want to get hurted again"

"I'm not joking I sincerely loves you, want to go on a date with me?" Yes this is it, its not obsession I truly love him and i'll forever yes I want to go on a date with him only so I nodded

"For real? YOU ARE MY BOYFRIEND NOW!YAHOO!!!" he got all excited when I nodded at his confession he was acting all cute

"You are so cute hyung haha" I giggled at him but he was looking at me like he wanted to do something he got closer and closer to me pulling me towards him leaning his face which our lips were a bit ahead from kissing, he pulled me even closer and placed his hands over my cheeks and placed his lips on mine, yes we kissed! And this time nobody was drunk its a pure kiss right? I'll remember this day forever

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『  Lee know's Pov 』ღ

Seungmin ignored me for a whole day, did he remember we kissed at that night? Yes I remember we kissed I was acting like I never did infront of me, and also it wasn't any accident I wanted to kiss him and I did, I shouldn't  have done it, I was wrong o shouldn't have kissed him without his permission, he might be disgusted right i'm just an asshole

Yes I liked him ever since I saw him, yes it's love at first sight

꒰•5 years ago꒱

At JYP building

I was full of nervous for the audition, it was my first time getting into a huge company, my hands were literally shivering... Will I pass?

Then a boy entered into the audition to the audition room to be fair he was sp charming and had full confidence on him while i'm here struggling and was quiet, is that boy a rapper? He seems like a rapper to me? Will he pass? Why am I so interested in him? Am I in love? No way haha... He walked towards me and sat next to me I was fully quiet but he came and talked to me, yes as I said he's truly charming

"I'm kim Seungmin, you are?" He smiled at me while asking my name his smile is so pretty

"Myself lee minho" I smiled back and yea he cheered me up now i'm feeling better

"Let's debut together hyung"

"Yes fighting" we both made into the first round we became so close to each other than the other trainees and I was  actually so glad about it , we became friendly day by day but then that elimination day came where I cried for the first time infront of everybody i got eliminated I was so sad that I couldn't make it in with seungmin, I wanted to debut so badly with him and live in the same dorm but i'm unlucky, but when I saw seungmin was crying when I eliminated it really brokes my heart I was feeling so sorry to him, he was crying so hard I couldn't take it I bid my goodbye to everybody especially seungmin I really didn't want to go but I think that was the first to say goodbye but unfortunately it wasn't I was added back to the group by the leader Bangchan , when I entered back there were members standing right infront of us, everybody seems to be happy when me and felix [he was eliminated with me] was back, seungmin was smiling weirdly when I was back I was so happy to be back as well, after some days I prepared lunch for seungmin and letter for him and he read it all and yea I still have that crying videos of him haha he was so cute back then, we were so close in those debut days then this divorced concept came between us which made us depart from each other, yes me and han are friends but there's nothing rather than friends between us, its all for fan service I couldn't have done it if company haven't forced us to do it, everytime I do fanservice and keeping this divorced concept me and seungmin started getting departed from each other more and more it actually hurted me, I was the one who was actually so much into this divorced concept at first it was fun but now it doesnt feels fun at all but I couldn't do anything but keep up with this "Divorced concept" I feel so weird that I want ro escape from this concept and be back like how we used to be

Past ended

I knocked his door I was worried of him, he didn't eat anything for a whole day I kept knocking the door till he opens at the end, finally he opened the door and I took him to the kitchen, he ate the whole dishes I made and I was happy about it I asked him so many stupid question he must be thinking i'm an idiot I asked him for some sweets for fruits and he said yes I smiled widely and thought he isn't mad at me anymore

I took the grapes he wanted to him and kept it on the table so that he could eat them, I was watching TV so I couldn't make him uncomfortable, but he was texting to someone I was wandering who... After a while, he started giggling and smiling to be honest it made me curious and sad that the same time, I was so curious so I asked him who he was texting with and then he said something that made my heart broke into pieces "my blind date" I got furious and started shouting at him I don't wanted him to date somebody else rather than me, why it could be someone else when he have me, he thought I was drunk or was pranking with him

He asked me if I like him I was shuttering to tell him yes but before I could say he started shouting he started saying that he loved him and still loves me, it was the happiest moment ever happened to me, I don't know what to feel anymore I was so happy that it made me felt like tearing up, he thinks I don't like him back but it was me who loved him first I confessed my love to him finally, when I confessed Seungmin's face was filled with happiness he cried, he was so cute, I asked him to go on a date with me and he nodded, yes we started dating finally, I wanted to kiss him so bad but I was controlling myself  and then he said "you are so cute" which made me loose my mind, he doesn't know he's the one who is cute, I leaned closer and kissed him deeply

『 Thrid Pov 』ღ

They finally started dating, they loved each other but they both never knew that them both have loved each other, finally the confession has happened which made them both filled with happiness, they started dating each other and spend the whole day together talking to each other

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