50. Gone

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Shatter was #12 yesterday!

Hey!!

Hope you guys loved the last two chapters. I shouldn't have uploaded both at the same time though because the latter one got more hits than the first, view wise :( boooo you chapter jumpers!

Also.

I decided i really just want to keep this one book because i HATE sequals about the same two people. So throw out the 60 chapter ending.. i had some new things i wanted to throw in like perspective and one more twist ao expect maybe 80? Thats a lot.

This was just suppose to be a simple story and its turning into a lot more lol

Oh well!

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This chapter is about the aftermath of Novas departure. Next chapter will have Nova's perspective!

You can wait my wolfies ;)

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Zaryn

She left.

She just.... left.

My chest couldn't stop the continuous heaving from the uncontrollable rage my beast released in me.. the unstobbable fury and desire to take her.. hold her close and carry her far away where no one would find her. Keep her all to myself. I was finally able to push the beast back once i watched her drive out of sight.

He wanted to fight.. but my skin side wanted to slither away to a dark hole and never come out. The beast was strong.. but i was able to overcome him somehow. The first time in a long time.... he couldn't handle the emotions.. so now its just me.

I stood in the middle of the dirt road... naked.. not understanding what just happened.

One minute emotions are too hard for me to handle over the loss of my pup, the next my wolf is taking over and fighting Nic's for causing this.. thats when i felt eyes on me.

Not just any eyes but Novas.

My wolf took full control and chased our mate down.. only to realise she was leaving me..she smiled when I told her my pup died. Her wolf was ecstatic. How can someone i love so much be happy over something like that?

I understand.. but then i dont.

She tried to get away and something came over me...my beast.. he became enraged.  I felt my beast more powerful than i ever had in that moment and he made an attempt to stop her but Conrad .. he broke my arm. In an attempt to subdue me but the wolf was strong in my skin side.

I stood there in shock in the middle of that road.. my arm hanging limp as i stared out where the truck disappeared.. just standing there.. thinking about what just happened.

I dropped my gaze, seeing Deacon's body lying in front of my feet. My eyes widened...

I killed my brother... my own blood.

The sound of feet running my direction brought me out of my thoughts.

"Nooooo!!!" My mother screamed, collapsing on top of Deacon as she approached with the others running as fast as they could.

My dad.. Jack. Dahlia. Nic. Eden..

All of them here to witness my crime.

All i could do was stand there. Naked. My broken arm hanging loose at my side...

I felt overwhelmed...

My pup was gone.

My mate was gone.

My brother was gone.

My title has been gone.

I have nothing left to live for.

"What have you done!?!" My dad screamed at me with tears in his eyes.

I just blinked.

I was in shock.

Jack came forward as Dahlia and Eden stared from behind me with wide eyes at the body below my feet.

"Penelope.. Blake. I'll handle Deacon.. go back to the pack house.  You dont need to see this." Jack murmured.. eyes flashing up at me. Understanding.  He knew why.. but not what.

Jack knew about Deacon as well as my dad and myself. That's it. Only us. Did they know about Nova?

My mom's tear stained face looked up at me with hatred, her pretty features twisting as she rose to face me.. "why would you do this to your own brother!?!? He was a good boy!!" She pushed my chest as i stayed still.. bare naked. "This is your fault! Why!? Why" she screamed as she punched my chest, my broken arm feeling numb from the adrenaline, my eyes far away.

They didnt know Nova was in that truck. They didnt know anything.. but i think mom did..

"Nova left. She left me. With Conrad.. Deacon was in the truck. He escaped." My monotone voice held no emotion as all eyes snapped up to mine.. mixed expressions from shock in her parents faces.. guilt and anger in my moms.. Nic and Eden held a bit of shock but with knowing glances at each other... they knew about Nova but not that Deacon escaped as well.

"What do you mean Nova left!?" Jack bellowed as Dahlia stood beside him, sad and shocked eyes.

Eden stepped up to me..  "Come on." She grabbed my good arm but i snatched it away, turning, i walked off down the dirt road towards the pack house.. never saying a word to anyone as cries and screams filled the air.

I couldn't speak.

Everything was running through my mind..

I lost everything... the one thing that meant more than the rest. My mate. Nova.

I pushed her too far.. to the point that she broke inside. And now im breaking. Only im too numb to feel anything right now..

My wolf's alpha blood made him a possesive wolf.. he cared for the pup when i didnt... then i started to become paternal. I kept my promise to Nova and never marked Grace.. I never loved Grace and she never loved me. But i grew to love my pup.

I should have never left her sedated for three days and not been there when she awoke.. but when i got the news  that Grace had collapsed upon feeling our mate bond.. the possesiveness in me to protect my pup overwhelmed me. It overwhelemed my wolf.. when emotions are too much, the wolf takes over.

In our eyes Nova was fine she was more than fine, but the pup wasn't that's why my focus was diverted to the pup and not her. I should have been more worried about Nova and I regret it now. But now its too late. She hates me now.

What Nova didn't know was that so many pack members had been talking about murdering my unborn son and I didn't take that lightly so I put every effort into protecting him. But I pushed Nova's wolf so far that she begin having the same thoughts. Pictures of her wolf's teeth ripping the newborn pup into shreds and swallowing him whole scared the hell out of me but it also made my wolf very angry.

It was so hard loving someone so much even though they wanted to kill my son.. but i still loved her and still do. If i hadn't have neglected Nova, none of that would have happened.

It's all my fault.

But I couldn't help but to love my son. I would give anything if the mother would have been Nova instead of grace I would have given anything at all. But the fact that another female was carrying the pup that I love so much was what pushed her over the edge. That, and the fact that I spent all my time with Grace by default..

Im an idiot. My wolf is an idiot.

Now im alone. Rejected.  Marked and rejected.

I felt so numb... dead. Empty.

I killed my brother over the protective instincts i have for Nova.. but she didn't know about him... and id never tell her. Let her hate me instead of ruining her memory of him. She would crumble if she knew.

As I walked the dusty dirt road, bare feet covered in the dust.. wolves on the porches of their homes watched me with confusion but never said a word.. i never met their eyes.. the shock had me on auto pilot as i made my way to the back yard of the packhouse... blank faced..

The alpha's son, walking naked down the street. Gashes of meat missing from my body.. scratches and blood everywhere with a broken arm hanging at my side.. dangling

I just kept on, not caring about my nudity.

Once i reached the lake at the back yard.. i stared out at the spans of water, all the way across where my cabin stood.. the porch light glowing.. the sky was black. Nothing but a silver moon overhead and twinkling stars to illuminate the lake.. the sound of water lapping at the shore and the gushing of the waterfall off to my right.

I cut my eyes in that direction and recalled the best night of my existence..

The night in the cave with Nova.

I know i felt guilty about marking her the next day because i almost killed my pup and because i knew she would feel ashamed but other than that it made me proud. Happy to call her mine.

I feel .. nothing. Im in shock..

this heart in my chest had left with Nova when she drove away, out of my sight.

Emotionless, i climbed down into one if the motorboats and sped across the lake toward my cabin.. the water splashing me every now and then . I didn't feel the cold air.. or the cooling water.  My skin was on fire and i was numb.. too numb to feel a thing.

I knew the emotions would come later. My wolf wanted to break through and rip apart whatever he could.. find his mate and take her home..

But i wouldn't let him. He needed to be put down for the night...

I made it to my cabin, still not feeling the pain in my arm yet as i walked in the darkness, shutting the door behind me.

Shuffling towards the end table by the sofa, i clicked on the lamp which allowed a soft glow to illuminate a small space with light before grabbing a pair of basketball shorts off the couch, slipping them on and heading to the kitchen. With my wolf scratching at my mind to break free and handle the situation, i needed to shut him up. Put him to sleep.  He has caused enough problems with his actions..

I need liquid pain killer.

Thats the only thing that will put the wolf to sleep..

A bottle of jim beam in my freezer for emergencies. This was an emergency..  i cracked it open and took a seat on the sofa..

No glass needed. Its just me.

As i took that first gulp, the fire burned smoothly with how cold it was.

Alcohol doesnt ever freeze.

I drank and drank, my body as numb as my mind. My arm would be healed by the morning as well as my wounds. But my heart would still be missing. She had taken it with her. And now I have nothing.

I should have done things differently... i should have never killed my brother but he would have died anyway.

I loved my mate so mucb. I'm not worthy of her.

My mind was in a whirlwind of thoughts... never staying on one subject too long but they always went back to Nova. My shooting star.

A knock at my door had my attention snapping to the old wooden planks.

Maybe if i stay silent they will go away.

" Zaryn it's Eden. Open up!"

How did i not here a boat Approach the shore?

"Go away." The words were slurred as the half empty bottle rest in my lap.

The door creaked open, revealing a wide green eyed eden.

Green eyes.. my mate has green eyes..

She shut the door, locking it as she approached me. My eyes staring straight through her to the wall behind her. I couldn't look anyone in the eyes right now. Shame. Guilt. I should feel those but i felt nothing.

After studying me quietly, she sat on the leather chair to my right.. my gaze slowly finding hers. She seemed inquisitive .. i took another swig of the liquid courage, licking my lips as her curious eyes assesed my wounded body.. physical and internal.

"Zaryn.. what happened... " her voice

Was sure, as she was of herself. her blonde hair hung straight down around her face... red rimmed eyes.

I sighed shakily, leaning my head back on the sofa. "She's gone. My pups gone. My brothers gone."

The swirl patterns of the ceiling were all i could focus on as i took another swig, the fire burning my throat at the same time it chilled it.

"Zaryn.. what happened.. why did you.. why did you kill Deacon?? Was he trying to hurt Nova? How did he even escape? Talk to me Zaryn." She was coaxing me.. in a soothing manner. No judgement in her tone.

My mind was a hazy mess.. thoughts flying through my mind.. but one thing stood out from what she had said and i lifted my head, narrowing my eyes at her.

"You knew... you knew she was leaving? You arent at all surprised she left. Didnt even ask me who i was talking about." My words slurred, my wolf asleep now, its just me and my anger.

She bit her lip, a guilty look crossing her features. "I saw it in a vision. She confirmed it earlier when she was at Docs. No one knows. No one other than Nic.. and im assuming your mom. That's how Deacon escaped was your mom. She didnt have to tell me that. I saw it." She whispered, eyeing me as i began breathing heavily..

My mother had a hand in this? She is dead to me now..

"Why Eden? Why would you let my mate leave me and never say a word?" An accusing tone in my voice.

Theres was no emotion in me.. i couldnt seem to express anything at the moment. Still in shock from everything that has happened tonight.. i think my brain is confused.. without my wolf to bring forth the fury, i felt blank..  None of this felt real but my feelings of being betrayed was real. I sat up on the sofa, leaning forward, setting the bottle on the wooden coffee table as i stared at Eden..

She shot me a glare. "She left because of you asshole. You were spending too much time with Grace. You ignored your own mate! Instead of waking up to you from a three day sedation, i was there. It was me there to pick her up. Not you. You were too busy protecting grace and rubbing on her stomach like some love sick fool!!" She barked, concern for me long gone.

Narrowing my eyes on her, i was seeing double. "I couldn't help it!" I shouted, throwing my arms up. "I couldn't help it at all! When you told me about Grace after rescuing us, my wolf forced us to go to her. I havent been able to control him in a while.. im weak!" My chest heaved as she scooted back in her seat, interested. "I wanted to be with her trust me i did. But she wasnt in danger.. my wolf knew our mate was safe. He knew our pup wasnt though. It was my fault that he was going to die because i marked Nova and she marked me! If the threats werent enough, to know i almost killed my own son because of a heated passion with my mate was!"

She leaned forward, brows knitted. "What threats? What are you talking about?"

A breath of laughter escaped me as i took a swig of the burning amber liquid. "Threats. The pack.  Anita and conrad were no longer threats but the pack.. there had been talk of killing my pup.. they are all furious. None of them wanted that pup alive. They want Nova as their Luna.. but now that Nic stands a chance at being Alpha, they want to off Grace as well.. along with the pup. and just because he's dead now doesn't mean the threats are over.. Nova didnt know how serious the threats were.. my dad tried to keep everything a secret.. but.. my wolf knew we had to stay by Grace and protect our pup.. if we had left for only a moment.  Someone would have came after him." A blank mask on my face as i explained.

She shook her head in confusion. "Why didnt you explain to her?"

"I tried. She was done with me."

Eden leaned forward. "Not to sound mean but.. why did you care? I mean I know your wolf cared about his offspring but why did you? I know he was your flesh but you never cared before.. not as much as you did at the end..  picking him over your mate because of the threat.."

The mild agression gone, emptiness back, i flopped back into the sofa. "I saw his picture. The 3d sonogram.. when i saw him something inside me clicked. I didnt care that it was with Grace, i loved him and Nova couldnt understand..  she became so jealous that her wolf had envisioned and began planning its death.. eating my son.. a new born." I watched as Eden flinched, her features contorted.  "I would see flashes of her wolfs mind and it scared Nova.  Her wolf wanted that pup whether it was still in Grace or not. Its all my fault.  If i had just spent more time with her.. made her feel loved.. but i didnt." I was monotone.. my tone and features gave nothing away.. i was just recalling memories.

Eden, surprised and afflicted.. remained silent as I continued.

"But my wolf.. he's stronger than me. Im weak. Im so weak that he can take over when i dont need him to. When i know its going to be bad if he does.. he slams me to the back and takes control in my skin.. it has been happening only recently."

I could feel Eden's eyes on me.. sympathy in them along with something else. Maybe contempt?

Dont worry eden. I hate myself too.

"Zaryn.. Nova was hurting. Shes been hurting for months.. i dont know whats gotten into you or your wolf but i believe you.. i believe that you wanted to be by Novas side.. i believe that your wolf wouldn't let you in order to protect your pup. I get it. But Nova was far too hurt to stay. She figured your pup would be born and she wouod have to live here.. watching you play daddy while she held your mark, embarassed. Who knows. Maybe now you two can work on yourselves and find each other in the future.. but Zaryn i need to know what happened with Deacon." Her hand touched my arm in a calming matter as i just stared.

My pup.. everyone hated him before he was even born but i loved him.grace loved him. How could i not? I wont deny my wolf is stronger than me.. he took over the decisions we made.. which is why Nova left. Because of my wolf.

I dont deserve anything.

"I smelled him. When my wolf tried to stop Nova from leaving, i smelled Deacon when she opened the door the second time. Something inside me flipped.. conrad held me and broke my arm to subdue me, hence.. the broken arm." Her eyes flashed down at my limp distorted arm. "

"And once they both got back in the truck all i could do was panic.. knowing she wasn't safe. Knowing he was a threat. So i jerked the door open and pulled him out.. breaking his neck. Right before her eyes. Thats when she called me a monster and shut the door on the bond." My voice was deep as i stared off into nothing, the pain in my arm and from my body not registering in my mind.

"Why was he a threat, Zaryn?" She pressed. She knew something.. i could see it in her eyes.

I never once looked her way.. still staring. Still feeling just... nothing. "There's things no one knows about Deacon. Only me and my father and jack know. Nova doesn't.  If she did it would break her and ruin all her memories and thats something i dont want to take from her." I rasped.

I could see out of my peripheral, Eden leaning closer. "I saw a dark vision about him but couldn't interpret it. Tell me Zaryn. " she pled.

Whats there to lose now? Ive already lost everything else.

"Deacon was sick. He was ill. My mothers side of the family has an illness thats passed through genetics. To the males. It skips around but Deacon was born with it. A mental disease.. he was a psycopath Eden. The late Alpha of Dark Moon.. penelopes uncle and my dad's first mates father.  He had it as well. He was the most ruthless alpha known. But Deacon... he didnt start becoming worse until he found out Nova was my mate.. He used to do horrible things to females from other packs. He never got caught because the females were too afraid.. but he never showed Nova this side of him though. He was obsessed with her. Always has been. She didnt see it so we let her be blind. I let her be blind.. until it became too much. One day i followed Deacon. This was after the fight between he and I .. i wanted to see if he had gotten worse since he was the one helping Nova through her depression. Where he spent his "training" time. I watched him.. go up to the north border pack line. He was scenting something.. scouting. When he got there.. there was a pretty girl waiting. She was sweet .. said she had smelled him coming through the woods and knew what he was to her. Her mate."

Eden's eyes widened while i remained blank faced.. my words only just speaking a story.. giving away no emotion.

"She was full of joy but he was angry. He said that finding her was the last thing he wanted. That she was ruining all his plans and he'd never mark her. He told her he loved someone else and he didn't want her. His mate broke down, crying. It only made Deacon mad because he felt the mate bond so he lashed out.. screaming nasty things at her. Thats when i ran. I regret running.. i could have stopped him.. i didnt know he was going to do what he did after i left. I ran straight to my dad... told him Deacon had found his mate and was lashing out at her... He followed me out to the border where i had seen Deacon with his mate. I should have stepped in! But the girl was gone. Deacon was gone. Nothing left behind.. We didn't know if she had ran off to her dad or what. But i never thought he could have did what he did." Eden's mouth hung open as she looked at me, disgusted by my story.

"Dad commanded me not to say a word to anyone about him finding his mate. About him telling her he wouldnt be with her.. That he would handle it.. Which is why he didnt think twice to put a ban on Nova and Deacon being together. He wasn't sure how far Deacon would go after he claimed his love for Nova to his own mate...  but once he realised that Deacon wasn't going to hurt Nova, i found out that he risked it.. allowing them to be around each other. I was so angry at him. Nova could have been hurt..  But i let dad walk all over me. He made me keep that secret of Deacon's rejecting his mate because of Nova from everyone... " i paused for a drink as Eden sat on the edge of her seat.

"Then Deacon's mates father, Alpha Reynold, set out a man hunt to find his missing daughter. My dad and i became wary, feeling like we knew what had happened to Deacon's mate but we had no evidence.. we couldn't prove anything. Maybe she ran away?

He stood by, not saying a word. And i let him. We had thought she went back home.. crying to her dad. My wolf became rabid towards Deacon after that because i knew he had done something... thats also when Deacon started to change more." Eden paled as i went on.

"Grace had poisoned him with the tea not long after... she knew his secret, that he was sick. Grace overheard me talking to my dad once and knew about him rejecting his mate for Nova and her disappearance.  She never said a word because i asked her not to. But after the poisoning from Anita.. the night Deacon almost marked and mated Nova. That was the night Alpha Reynold sent out word that his daughters body was found. Her name was Lilly. And she was found in the woods.. raped.  With her throat slit. Her body beaten. She was dumped on human territory so they assumed a human did it. My dad never said a word... but when he found out that night of Nova's attack.. he held Deacon in the cellars for both crimes, never telling anyone of the other. The heinous act Deacon did against his mate. His own mate." I glanced at Eden to see she wore a look of shock, disgust, her hand over her mouth.. she couldnt speak.

"It gets better. My dad found a shrine Deacon had built for Nova in the false wall behind his closet.. panties.  Clips of her hair.. he was sick. He never showed it to her but it laid there underneath. His wolf, im not sure how it affected his wolf but the skin side was long gone. My dad.. he only wanted to punish him for two months.. telling the pack of only one crime.. " I breathed out a laugh, shaking my head. "But he knew challenges would come because he attacked Nova.. As a fsther, he wanted to protect him but he knew he was too sick to let him. He had no hope of a future. My dad didnt want his memories destroyed for everyone.. my mom. Nova. His friends.. that's why he dismissed the claim that Deacon was poisoned into doing some of the things he did but no one knew my dad was punishing him for what he did to his mate as well. He knew once Deacon was off punishment, that he would be challenged by many and that his death would be more just than telling everyone his secret. He wanted him to go out with some dignity to the ones that loved him. But Nova kept pushing.  My mom doesnt know.. no one does besides Jack. And jack tried hard to keep Nova away from Deacon...."

Eden gasped, tears in her eyes but i couldn't feel. Angry eyes narrowed on me. "I cant keep this secret. People need to know. You will be punished for killing Deacon if people don't know the truth. You'll get a death sentence!"

"I took a swig of j.b., wiping my mouth. I shrugged. "Thats the reason why i killed Deacon. Once i saw him i knew Nova was in danger. My wolf went wild and tore him out of the car breaking his neck. I feel bad it was at my hands but he deserved to die."

Eden's green eyes were hard as she reached over and held my hand. "You served justice on behalf of the moon. She will repay you for that. All Deacon's secrets must come forth. To the pack. To protect you."

I just stared... not caring about her words. Not caring that the entire pack could start a revolution against our family for never saying a word. My dad would be challenged for hiding this. Alpha Reynold would seek retribution. Death wouldn't come but something else entirely. Dad was selfish.

I could care less though.  All i could think about was Nova.

"Dont let Nova find out. She can't know." I whispered.

Eden shook her head. "I cant promise that."

I needed Nova and i pushed her away. I made my angel cry. I made her hate me. I have nothing to live for anymore.

My pup gone.. even though part of me knew it was for the best it still hurt.

My mate left.. never to return more than likely. She left with my mark on her neck and if she loves another, i will feel it. It will kill me.

Im already dead though.

"Zaryn." Eden called out, my empty gaze turning to her. "Nova may have left but its not forever. She needed time away from all of this.. but she needs to know about Deacon.  Im going to set things right. " she stood, walking to the door before turning. "Are you going to be okay?"

I lifted my nearly empty bottle, nodding at her. She sent me a sad smile before walking out my front door, closing it behind her.

Now i can think.

I can think about my angel.

I have lost everything that ever meant anything to me in one night.  The title of being next Alpha didnt phase me. The loss of my pup and killing my brother hurt.. but it was nothing compared to the withering mate bond i felt. Our bond would always be there.. but now it felt.. distant.  The further she got the less i could sense her.

Im nothing..

I deserve this..

I deserve nothing. Im a weak skin housing a wolf i cant control. I deserve everything that has happened to me..

I deserve to be alone.

Nova is better off without me but im not better off without her..

A voice in my mind began to nag me..

You're nothing. You deserve nothing.  Do everyone a favor. Kill yourself before someone else does it for you. Nova hates you and could never love someone like you.

Through the haze of drunkeness i managed to stand up, my arm hanging limp at my side. Stumbling to the bathroom, I managed to fumble around, flipping the light on as i found my refelction in the mirror.

Worthless.

Im no alpha.

I deserve everything i got.

I deserve to lose everything i lost.

My pup.  My mate. My brother..

The only one i cared for was my mate and she doesnt deserve someone like me.

Sliding out the drawer i picked up the silver switchblade i kept there and sat on the edge of the tub. Flicking the silver blade open, i looked at it..

This would be my savior.

I could meet the moon.

Sliding myself in the bathtub, i didnt want to make a mess.. without another thought.. no emotion being expressed througg the shock running in my system... i leaned against the back of the ceramic tib and slid the sharp tip against the length of my vein.. making sure i went deep enough.

I didnt even feel the sting as i watched my wrist open up.. blood spurting all over with the pump of my pulse.. letting my life force out.

I deserved this.

Everyone woukd be better without me here.

Im too weak.

Weak wolves arent meant to survive.

My mind floated to Nova as i closed my eyes. Her beauty. Her kind heart.. her stubborness. The way she could walk in a room and command attention.. she wasnt always like that. But she had become strong.

I loved her..

I love her.

I will always love her.

Dun dun dun

Wow who saw that coming? Some of you guess correctly about deacon killing his mate. How did u know!?!?!

But who knew he was a monster? He never gave any clues besides a few. We all thought he was a good guy. That Nova belonged with him.

Alpha blake is going to be up sh!t creek when everyone finds out. What do you think the pack will do? Remember jack knew too. So did zaryn. But under Blake's orders, his alpha command.. they couldnt say a word.

Zaryn doesn't want to ruin Nova'smemories of deacon. He would rather her hate him than to feel betrayed by her best friend.. he knows he is weak.

But why is Zaryn's wolf so strong but his skin is so weak? Any speculations?

He just cut his wrist over the shock from losing everything. Thats a weak way out..

Does he survive??

Does Nova come back because of it?

Will eden tell Nova the truth about everything?

What will happen to grace and Nic? Grace was absent in this bx she had just delivered her dead pup.

What will happen when blake and Penelope realise each other held a secret from the other

And dahlia.. what will she think of jack. Jack forgave her for her secret.. it was a big one too. But he hasnt comoletely gotten over it.. something is gonna happen with Blake.. what will it be?

And Nova. Shes on the road with conrad right now. Do u think she feels the bond?

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You guys..

So im not ever posting two chapters at the same time again lol. Most of you didnt even read the first one amd went straight to the second and didnt even vote for the first which had me like 😲

Therefore im doing one a day now! Lol. Or possible 8 hours in between. I know.. its hard to focus on the filler chap when the second one has so much more going on but YOU GUYYYS (in my whiney voice)