28. Beware

As i sat in my long t-shirt, waiting on my bed in the quiet darkness, my mind kept spiraling out of control..

The things Deacon had said..

That we almost...

The bile that came up my throat was shoved back down instantly as i tried to focus on anything but the images flashing in my mind of what could have happened. Thank the goddess i have no recollection.

How dare he even try something like that!!! It made me furious to no end. How could years of friendship... the one of which i was there for, be thrown away in the blink of an eye? He has never loved me like that and that is the most thing im sure of. Not Deacon. But something is different.

His blood was different..

He thinks he can challenge his brother.. thinks he can kill him.. and whatever pup he has..

that's not Deacon. Thats not my D.

But he isn't aware of what is brewing under the surface. No one is.

Tears threatened to fall as i mourned my lost friendship .. it no longer existed anymore and it hurt. What also hurt was Zaryn. I recalled seeing Zaryn with Grace.... and that was something that burned under my skin like embers on a fire.

Not caring anymore is fun and all... when you arent there to see the things that happen when you're not around. To believe the pretty words out of a guy's mouth.. that he loves you. That you're the one..

But fairytales dont exist and im finding that out slowly.

The one single person in this world MADE for me... he rubs his hands against another females belly swollen with his pup. Those pretty words were nothing compared to the actions that came from him.

Never believe pretty words because that's all they are. Never believe or trust when a guy says your all he wants because its not true..

And im learning this the hard way. With my own mate.

I let myself stew just slightly in my own greif. Yes im hardened because of this.. but it still hurts. Its not as painful but it still hurts. It hurts to feel unwanted. Anyone would feel that way...

Just as i wipe the last tears ill cry for Zaryn from my face, i heard the back door downstairs creek open, pushing my pain to the side for a moment to focus..

Nic.

Waiting patiently, I listened as he came up the stairs slowly, one step at a time before I got up and walking to the door. My anger at him was like a hot lava, revitalizing my senses... desensitizing me to sadness. Anger is always the best thing for that.

Once i heard him open his door, i ripped mine open, catching him off guard as i stood there, glaring at him.

"Nova!" His eyes were widened with shock, his handsome chiseled face looking as if he got his hand caught in the cookie jar as I pushed him into his room, closing the door softly before standing before him with a heated gaze, my green eyes narrowed up at his.

"So you've been protecting Grace over your own sister... sneaking around.. sniffing her cabin.. you have interactions with her too?" I spat, betrayel and hurt was too solid to block it from coming through.

Taken aback, he gazed down at me. "What?"

A disgusted scoff left my lips as i brushed past him to sit on the bed, leaving him to stand there looking stupified. "I saw you tonight. At Grace's. But she was with Zaryn at Docs. Why are you doing this to me? Why do you constantly protect her where I'm concerned?" My eyes lifted to his. He was out of words.. only letters that couldn't possibly make a sentence came out of his mouth before sighing heavily and sitting himself down next to me on the bed, both of us staring at the floor.

"Nova..." his apologizing tone caught me off guard. "Im sorry... its my wolf. Not me. I cant help it.. its like im drawn to her no matter that she's such a disgusting creature. Or so i thought. I admit.... I've talked with her a few times.. shes... really not so horrible and i know you dont want to hear that but its true. There's things we dont know. Pressure she's under from her father.. thats all she would tell me but she doesnt want to hurt you... not really." He grabbed my hand in his but i snatched it away, glaring up at him.

"She doesn't what??? Did you not witness the shit she pulled yesterday Nic!? How could you even say that!?" I was apalled at the words coming from his mouth. Nothing was worse than my own brother choosing the same woman my mate had chosen..

I just wanted to crush her and run away from these people. To make her suffer.

"Nova i know.. and it was so horrible. Horrible to witness and even more horrible for you to endure but you had the entire pack behind you! On your side! Im sorry about my wolf... hes.. hes stronger now. I'm  stronger now. The draw to her is excruciating and it hurts to watch her stomach grow. Im in pain Nova. It hurts."

I never thought i would see my brother, the big bad Nic full blown cry... but here he was with me.. crying his eyes out. I felt his pain.. i knew what that was like.

Wrapping my arms around him, i instantly forgave him.. hugging him to me as he sobbed into my shirt, pulling me tight into him.

"I know Nic. I know. It hurts and it sucks and we were delt a hand of shitty mates.. but things may change soon... just hang in there." I whispered in his ear.

That night i slept in Nic's room, cuddled to him like a baby cuddles their favorite blanket. We found comfort in each other and i was able to let go of the hatred that brew inside of me for how he had acted. Out stupid wolves... always the ones to act on instinct ... they were the ones responsible.

If we were human, none of this would have happened because sainer heads would have prevailed. Instinct wouldn't even be factored in. Mystic properties wouldn't mark our fate for us.. Now all we had was our Valor. Our courage.

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I awoke with Nic long gone, his scent still fresh and the warmth of the bed still there. He must have left just moments ago.

As my hand searched his pillow, something crinkled causing me to roll over and see he had left me a note. Snatching it up, i read it.

Sis,

Went to pack breakfast. Got some stuff to do. Theres a bonfire tonight. Lets go together. Invite eden and D. Ill invite Jaz.

Love, big bubba

A bonfire? Since when?

Sighing, a closed my eyes feeling annoyed. I forgot to tell him about Deacon... He wouldn't even have the marks today to show off that i had attacked him.. they would be long healed by now.

Throwing the blankets off of my body, i ran to my room only to pause, noticing the smell if bacon wasn't present today. I guess my parents were attending to pack business..

Shrugging it off, i ran into my room and took a quick shower. Deciding to take a page out of Eden's book, i pulled on a pair of black short shorts and a hot pink tank top that dipped a little low, enough to show my cleavage. Pairing the outfit with a pair of black heeled booties, i touseled my hair with mousse, brushed my teeth, swiped on some deo and did my makeup light.

I liked it.

It was ... different. A bit on the wild side vs my normal sweet looking outfits. I felt anything but sweet today.

I felt.. dangerous.

All these emotions had taken a toll on my sanity and i was already on the most wanted list until i had the little talk with Alpha Blake. Now i guess it's time to show my face.. let everyone know im not afraid or embarassed of what happened...

As i clomped down the stairs in my heels, I found myself in the kitchen looking at a note on the island from mom..

Honey,

Heres the herbal tea packets youll need for your heat. I put some in your hangover tea yesterday. Please be careful. Drink the cup i left you.. we dont need anything to happen right now.

Love mom.

I cringed inwardly at her words.. we dont need anything else to happen... as if.

I shoved the tea bags in my back pocket and took the still warm tea cup full of herbal tea in my grasp, tipping it back as the warmth soothed my aching soul.. the taste was floral and quite pleasing to the palate.. this was my first heat i would go through and I wasn't sure what to expect... i noticed i was getting more curves.. rounder hips.. but other than that.. every male i came across just made me sick.

Males are good for nothing but one thing..

I garbaged the paper into a ball, tossing it into the waste bin as i walkes out the door, in search of Eden. We needed to talk.

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Eden was no where to be found at the pack house but i did recieve a few wolf whistles and admirable nods from other males and females alike. They were seeing Zaryn as a moon shattering alpha blood and thought I was their true Luna..

If only that were true..

If what i believe is true... it would make Grace luna material and that just was NOT going to happen...

Giving up, i walked down the dirt road past Alpha Blakes personal home, towards Eden's cabin in between the oracle and Grace's. I couldnt help the scowl and snarl as i saw Grace's cabin that she shared with that witch of a healer come into view.

As i squinted my eyes , the sun blinding me for a moment before my view was shaded by some poplar trees, i could make out a pair of coal black eyes staring out at me from the window before they moved away quickly, making me wonder if they were ever even there.

The healer...

Anita was her name but witch suited her just fine.. it went for both she and Grace. Both a couple of witches. Or bitches. However you'd like to look at it.

I walked up the steps of Eden's cabin and wrapped my knuckles on the wooden door. I didn't have to wait long before she opened it, looking worn out and not her usual Eden like self. Her hair was in a dissaray.. bags under her eyes..

"Ed-" before i could finish her name, she was snatching me inside the cabin, closing the door quickly behind me, her eyes wide with a finger over her lips to silence me. Glancing around suspiciously.. there was no one else here. I looked at her as if she were crazy.

"Whisper when you talk. The healer is home." Her voice was a soft whisper itself, she seemed paniced.

My eyes focused on hers with concern. "What do you mean? She cant hear us in here and why would you be afraid of her?" I popped my hip out as i placed my hand on it, studying her.

She sighed irritably, taking my hand and leading me towars the end of the cabin away from the windows. We sat at the little breakfast nook in the corner amongst her sparsely decorated cabin, my concern growing by the minute.

"Look Nova..." her faded green eyes honed in on mine.. begging me to listen. "That healer... she isn't just a healer. She has the gift of sight as well. She gave up scrying long ago to become a healer but still has her gift because she never took a mate. The Oracle Claire and I were meditating last night and we saw her.. saw her story. That woman is dangerous.. and you need to be careful because she is after you." Her hands squeezed mine more snugly, my eyes bulging out of their sockets and my mouth dropping open.

"What do you mean?" I whisper shouted, horrified at the new concept of this newcomer and what she could do.

Her head shook from side to side. "I mean be careful and stay away from her. From the vision we both recieved, she is pure evil. But she loves Grace. As a daughter."

I stared at her.. filing her words away inside my brain along with everything else she had said... this changes everything.

I need to make things happen quickly and get out of here. And mostly i needed to keep my eye out for the healer.. seer.. whatever she is.

"Nova... " Eden's voice was hoarse, her eyes pained as she gasped, wincing as she took a hand down to her stomach, clutching it.

I stood, running around to see what was wrong with her.. she was acting as if she was in so much pain.

"Eden! What's wrong!?" I held her face between my hands as I smoothed her hair from her cheek, her eyes barely recognizing anything around her.

"Call the doctor. I think I've been p-" before she could finish, her eyes rolled back in her head as she began to convulse in her chair.

"Holy fucking shit!" My voice screamed, shrill as i stood helpless, watching Eden expell foam at the mouth as she writhed in her seat.

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An" still not my best chappy but i did a play on character names... Anita.. and Blake.. PLEASE TELL ME YOU KNOW WHO ANITA BLAKE IS AND ILL LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!

it was my very first series i fell in love with. I have every book in that collection!

Also... see what i did with the trainer groups? Yeah... im a pokemon pro what up lol

I like to just say my 2yr old loves it.. which she does.. but mama dont play no games when its time for our walk.. gotta hatch those eggs! Haha!